can't stand anymore to consist of the substance
living in the definition of insanity
tripping over shadows that weren't buried
and aren't here

up and dreaming of the other living. of the one i wish for, of the one i dream for. why do i have to wake and continue on. leaving me in this world of dust. why have i to push off from the table and watch all you go. and stand here with this dumb look upon my face as i strut right back to the bar. my existence is fleeting and don't know why no one ( Read more... )

dragging along kicking and screaming ( Read more... )

dropping chalky tasting chips with a tsunami of barley chasing after. as i motion to the darkness and the submission begins thoughts swarm. chills set in. trying not move but i must. not wanting to fuck up, but self destruction is me. irritating organs that mean nothing in the end anyways. just wanted work, and not to become...........

drinking in relaxation about to fall to the floor. i ponder and recall on my energies spent in other locations. will they be pretty or will they be destroyed. will joy come from it all or just more sorrow. when will i be able to change the course i chose. when will i be able to change the goblet i have chosen. or evan will i.

knowing what you want and knowing what you need are things that are so different that it kills. i journey further and further down the street and see the lights and see what is and am delirious by the thought of it. intoxicated by it all and stumbling along to find what i predicted is all but too true.

and eve calls to me with the breast implants the devil surgically installed. she calls for me to suckle off the poisonouss tits and taste the filth that drizzles down the gorgeous jugs. and eve calls to me with the aroma given by satin. choking gases fill my head and make me dance in a dazed confusion with thoughts of tearing down the world and ( Read more... )

and i watch the pawns move with the only thought in their mind of destruction. of killing the existance of the others. full frontal assault that will commence rather than the queen. who attacks from the back as well as the front as well as the side and the the corner. yes, the queeen is the most evil bitch that i have ever met. bloody mess on the ( Read more... )

i want to tell of all that i have learned but it is constantly falling unto deaf ears. i want to explain all that i dream of though most could care less. drowning in a world that has no want or desire for me. longing for what will happen but won't come soon enough. just listen is all i ask, but it don't really matter in the end.

my stomach crawls as the blood comes from my throat. the floor breathes as i continue to wake. i can't get it all out of my head and the drowsiness is no help. wanting to kill the cures and drink the poison, i have no real point. just continuing the dream state that has been my life and pretend it all really doesn't exist. more like a world filled ( Read more... )