all i know is i cant take it anymore. thats all i know.

was it all a lie? i dont know. what i do know is im lost and confused and embarresed. im so embarressed. what is wrong with me? why do i do the stupid things that i do? what did i do to deserve any of this? i just feel like ive made a fool out of myself enough times to where i should be able to stop. but i continue to make an ass out of myself. ( Read more... )

i almost did something really really stupid today

and of course im wishing i did

THE BORING BASICS ( Read more... )

i shouldnt tell him how much he means to me....i think it scares him ( Read more... )

*SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM*

i think that about sums it up.

i hate this shit ( Read more... )

i am happy....and it feels amazing

im leaving on friday
bye
ugh