Waiting is so depressing. Can I move on yet? I'm so tired of this numbing doldrom.

Yesterday was the 1 month mark. It's so close I can smell it. Everything I've worked for my entire life will be over soon, and I can't wait! Hurry up already. Good luck to you all.

Well, I haven't updated in a good long while. So here it is ( Read more... )

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Music really sets the mood.

My life ended this past weekend. Everything I've been working my butt off for is gone now. For a short time, though, I felt like that one guy in those stories. The one that spends his entire life preparing himself for one thing, then when it happens, he becomes lost and does not know what to do. That was me after I lost, after I died. Then ( Read more... )

It will all be over in a little over a week, maybe in just a few days. God, I hope it's not in a few days. I need it to go the whole way. This is it. My last chance. I have to go all out. It's everything or nothing. Will I be able to do it? I sure hope so.

I feel alone, lost, a little confused, and frustrated. I'm not sure why I feel like this. It probably deals with the fact that I've got no friends, I can't relate to anyone, and I never have time to do anything. School's kicking my butt, scholarship wear me out, and wrestling leaves no room for anything else. The only friends I have with me are ( Read more... )

Life is alright. Its almost two. I'm ready for bed. I just finished what homework and scholarships I could. I really wish I had friends to go hang out with, but I really don't have the time. I added it up I spend 40+ hours wrestling, the rest is devoted to school, homework, and scholarships. It's ok though. It'll all be over soon (4 weeks, ( Read more... )

I'm so lost, so confused, so vulnerable. It hurts.

I scream, "SOMEBODY HELP ME, PLEASE!"

Yet, it has no where to go.