It was never really clear whether or not I would stay there forever and as time marched on I began to feel sad, deep inside me.  The desert was good for me for a while but I'm back in England now.  When i think back on the last 6 months I honestly struggle to believe that we pulled it off.  We sold our house, packed up all we could carry - donated ( Read more... )

I wonder if I'll ever get used to the immediate now ( Read more... )

Sitting here in the hospital waiting.  Water broke at 7AM this morning.  Unfortunately my son has been sick and still has a fever (he has a chesty cough).  I caught the cough but don't have a fever.  Just means he won't be able to meet his sister right away.
Wish me luck you guys!  

For the past few days I have felt indescribably crappy.  A mixture of really tired, achey, sad and just general malaise.  I don't know why.  I miss home a lot at the moment.  I'm finding it hard to get the motivation to do anything at all.
I think I'm just depressed or something but... I don't know.  I don't know what's wrong with me.

I am watching House Hunters International and it's a young (mid-20's) US couple relocating from Boston to Cannes, France.  How in the fuck are they able to do this?  They're not being relocated by work... they both work online..
I don't understand.. and I want to.

I hate to blame it on my hormones because at this time of the month that seems so illogical and as if it's just an excuse for the clarity that I feel at this time during my cycle... but ( Read more... )

Arthur is three months old on the sixteenth.  It's so hard to believe three months have gone by.  I'm starting to look into daycare options for going back to work for a little while each week.  My wage will pretty much just cover the daycare so really I'm paying for the priveliege of leaving the house but it will be nice to get out of babyland for ( Read more... )

This time next week, no matter what, our baby will be here.  Well, he's here now, just living inside me...you know what I mean ( Read more... )

I'm getting so uncomfortable, I'm wavering between 'be born now' and 'wait another couple of weeks'.  

We are having another scan on Tuesday to see if baby boy is out of his breech position and if not then we need to start discussing ways to move him.  We could try a version which is when two Doctors push on your belly in different directions trying to get him to move into position.  It has to be done in a hospital as the pressure could make me go ( Read more... )