I'm in the middle of a really awful anxiety attack, my head is clouded my heart is racing I cannot get comfortable in my own skin. I hate this feeling oh my god. I can't verbalize. I am so tired but wired. Shooting pain is panging my chest I'm thinking about ( Read more... )

The weather today does justice to the way I'm feeling. The land is icey and with that, heaping doses of wintry mix flourishes from the sky. I am the solid ice, uncomfortable, frozen to my unchangable, unproductive attitude. But with that, my falling sky of thoughts only serves to add a layer of confusion to the messy, agrivated mentality I own ( Read more... )

Besides blaming our invasion of Iraq on those in power pulling strings and sticking to a jaded agenda regardless of the people’s opinions, in the face of persuasion, the people of the U.S. most definitely faltered in the heat of the war’s propaganda ( Read more... )

I hate feeling so weary, full; like I just consumed a holiday dinner and forced enough in to feed a small country. Fat; although I didn't eat except for that sad excuse of a jail diet we are provided with in the employee cafeteria. I'm simply worn out, it's after 9 pm and I still have a considerable amount of time before I can clock out of this den ( Read more... )

Um, promptly following the previous post I stepped out for a minute and forcibly came to terms with the fact that I am officially a marlboro townie ( Read more... )

What I would do to take a couple dank sized percocets with Nick right now, expedite our overexaggerated mentalities of life and art, get naked and create some body art, or just sit side by side in silence, both too mindful to create words but wanting to be no where else but next to each other ( Read more... )

Do things ever really end ( Read more... )

I started meditating ( Read more... )

nothing could have prepared me for this day ( Read more... )

A gentleman approached me at my station. One step, two step, eye-contact. He's from Mathworks. I can tell because he is Indian. His negotiated rate must be somewhere around 143. He's going to ask for a ride to his company, but lacks the knowledge that it takes an extremely long time to get there because of traffic, but I will insist that he wait by ( Read more... )