Everyone knows I have a fondness for wine. Maybe they even know I drink it every day, they know that I have a cellar stocked, that a cooler fridge exists in my Dinning Room.
I don’t think anyone really understands /why/ it is I drink…subtly as it is. But they don’t need to, I don’t owe them anything, not when the world have giving and taken so much from me.
It was everything I’d longed to feel again. The fans, the energy, all of us smiling and having fun. It was wonderful, it was beautiful…and yet…there was still something missing…
Even with the videos, the guest guitarists who were amazing…/he/ wasn’t there…he wasn’t blinding people’s senses with his personality and wardrobe choice, he wasn’t singing along and working up the crowd. He wasn’t there to steal my spot on the drums during X.
Even though everyone said it felt like he was there with us…I still felt that missing presence.
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Everyone knows I have a fondness for wine. Maybe they even know I drink it every day, they know that I have a cellar stocked, that a cooler fridge exists in my Dinning Room.
I don’t think anyone really understands /why/ it is I drink…subtly as it is. But they don’t need to, I don’t owe them anything, not when the world have giving and taken so much from me.
“It’s still fucking my mind.”
I’ll drink to that.
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I think it’s finally happening…that feeling, that happiness, slowly but surely it’s coming back to me, the rush, the joy.
And yet…
Inside I feel hollow…outside I smile to them, but I don’t know how long I can do this. I wanted it, I wanted it so much I ached for it. But…
Maybe the healing isn’t complete? Maybe it never will be.
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It was everything I’d longed to feel again. The fans, the energy, all of us smiling and having fun. It was wonderful, it was beautiful…and yet…there was still something missing…
Even with the videos, the guest guitarists who were amazing…/he/ wasn’t there…he wasn’t blinding people’s senses with his personality and wardrobe choice, he wasn’t singing along and working up the crowd. He wasn’t there to steal my spot on the drums during X.
Even though everyone said it felt like he was there with us…I still felt that missing presence.
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