hey, goin to josh's soon. haven't eaten anything yet, but the reasoning is i just woke up. went to sleep at 4am. so, i am tired...and my stomach hurts. i really miss austria, i hope we can go again soon. this place blows. i hope to work on my video today for class. yes, i go to a film class now at the ocean county college. alright, giggidy.

hey havent been on here in a while. here are my stats::
-boyfriend
-125lbs.
-uneducated
-hates self
-vegetarian
pretty much sums it up. nothing much happened. i stopped cutting myself and am trying to get thinner. i still cant sleep anymore. not working. i wish josh would just be happy. i try. sometimes i wish i were fucking dead.

today, i ate::
lettuce
organic soy milk

-american cheeese on wheat bread::ewwa.
-diet ginger ale
-_- ...hi adrian.

food today::
a.) gatorade
b.) few sips of gingerale
c.) fennel
d.) stringbeans w/ some sauce
e.) seltzer

bad good? idk anymore

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im feeling better now lol. sometimes i get in those weird moods....but i feel better. im just worried about finishing these internet courses up before junior year starts.

from now on, im keeping my emotions in and never trying to talk to anyone about them again. because i realized, nobody gives a fuck. depressing people arent fun to be around and nobody wants to hear how sad someone is. end of story.