i have been blaming you.

time and time again I heave a sigh after you leave me hanging on the end of the line, off to do something else important in your life.

but me
maybe it's me

i recently had a conversation with a young person that i've been supporting. She's so clearly in survival mode it reminds me of my teenage self. the self that didn't ( Read more... )

it has been well over a month since we've had any contact

I noticed a little while ago that we're not matched on tinder anymore
and naturally I thought you had unmatched with me
but then I realised that maybe you're with someone

and that sucks
because even though I know who I think you are and it probably won't last
you have someone that is more ( Read more... )

today something absolutely wild happened

i woke up with a genuine zest for life
i took chances
i tried
i went all out

oklike i didnt' actually go all out
but i definatley lived the way i wanted to live today
and it went so well

this is the same attitude i had when i was in a 'growth mindset' so ill see how far this goes

i can't help but believethat ( Read more... )

I guess

I just wanted to write about how I know you can’t understand

Because we keep having the same arguments over and over

I’ve been watching daisy jones and the six. There’s a song in it that goes ‘did we unravel a long time ago? is there too much we don’t want to know? we lost and we cou’dnt let it go. I wish it was easy but it isn’t so whoa, ( Read more... )

i got news today that I wanted to share with you.

there are going to be things all the time

you said i was mean to you
and i assume that was specifically referring to when I told you you are manipulative
and while I believe that I have been mean to you in other ways
ways that I don't even realise
ways that I don't even understand
I have not shown you ( Read more... )

Because it’s not a scary love ( Read more... )

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you said i was holding you accountable to one conversation

and that's what you ways say
but you don't think I think about all the other things that happen
like you always say that I'm not taking into account all the other conversations we have about that
because you're always dealing with what's in front of you
but i'm trying to work through our issues ( Read more... )

Do I miss you ( Read more... )

I want to type these words to you

I hear your voice saying did you miss me?
Of course I missed you.
I told you I missed you.

Every second of every day my mind is coming up with excuses to talk to you
to ask how you're doing
did you check on this thing or that
do you need me to do something for you
talk to me so I don't have to be the one to reach out.
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