we were fighting last night
but i don't even remember what we were fighting about
because i didn't mean to be fighting

i dont think this is why but none the less
i don't see you as a victim
just because you have trauma doesn't mean you're a victim
and just because you're triggered or re-traumatized or have sensitivities, boundaries and needs that are ( Read more... )

some of the things that surrounded 2 weeks since our break up

im back to moping
im trying to remember the reasons i shouldn't be with you
but they are hard
because i just want to be with you

the weekends are the hardest
all the other time is just weird because im not texting you
but the weekends i feel like i should be with you
it would be so easy.

i ( Read more... )

i've moved past the moping and im just in full depression now.

i'm watching suits just to be closwer to you
they're talking about a tesla
i'm thinking about how you were looking at the tesla that delivered our food
so cute. you're so cute.

i keep thinking about things you might have left here

maybe it's a reason to talk to you
I realised something ( Read more... )

i wanted to tell you i burned my fingers again.
it doesnt really make sense because it's just because of the microwave but i didn't even heat the food that long.

it's been a week since i saw you
what a great last time
we've always been good at that
but we didnt' make up
i couldn't let us

it made me feel like we worked
that last weekend made me feel ( Read more... )

I think to understand why you shouldn’t be sorry for asking for an open relationship you need to know there are two things I thought about ( Read more... )

Ultimately everyday I’m reminding myself that you don’t want to be with me. I know that’s not 100 percent true but I think it’s basically true in the way that you could never let me go over something that truely bothers you but when I treated you the way you have been treating me you think I’m mean. That’s what’s stopping me from literally driving ( Read more... )

i don't need to read something to say profound things to you
i can think of them all on my own
it's very easy when you let me see you
when you don't put up the walls to make me feel like I'm sitting outside you

i know you
who you are
what motivates you
what encourages you
what you need when you are sad
what you need when you are lonely
how to praise you
and ( Read more... )

Why do you feel the need to push my boundaries. Don't you get it. I'm not an endlessly elastic figure. I'm capable of expanding with your needs but i'm already pushing myself. that should not be surpising or confuing because i've said it. i'm not playing games, in fact i'm being very clear. you, for some reason i don't understand, are expecting me ( Read more... )

i'm just reminded how comfortable i am when we communicate

i know we still have the issue of when we have tough conversations

and i know things change
and i know we are not going to be the same people
but i need the same respect and dignity that you expect from me
i need the same space that i give you
i need the same care and attention that i ( Read more... )

i feel so much more secure when we talk.
i feel like i'm in the place that you wanted me to be
and all you had to do was explain it to me

i needed you
and i told you i needed you because i was going through something
and you told me you would take care of me
and you did fail me
but i know it wasn't on purpose

and this isn't forever
i trust you that you ( Read more... )