seriously. the way i feel is very wierd right now. i went from waking up happy to feeling trapped when i woke back up..and now im feeling confident ( Read more... )

i feel so distant..... like everyone i love and care about has pushed me in a closet. even if it isnt a reality.... for the last 45 minutes i have spent in the corner crying.. listening to the same song over and over. will i ever have what i long for? everyday i strive to exist ( Read more... )

i have a huge cocktail of emotions. anxiety. overwhelming sadness,a happy feeling ( Read more... )

im lost again. there are times i cant go on. and i tell myself i need to end it quickly. and then there are other times i tell myself there is alot to go on for. i live for the random moments. for the amazing sex. the toking out at the beach and staring at the stars. the random friends and experiences. i deal with losses i cant describe. i always ( Read more... )

Sworn I would not return here
Now that has proved untrue

here.I don't know why?
I hold this deep inside me and I'll let no one through
Defy me...deny me...I need you to end this
I look to myself to see and the years have grown so long
Am I weak and now I feel pulverized
Consequences I reap by myself
Those of you who don't know what I see..endless fight ( Read more... )

Took a walk down my life today
Broken and empty roads are paved with regrets and guilt I have made
Crushing what bits of hope remain
Do you want to believe what I believe?
I don't remember how to eat, sleep or breathe
Trapped inside this state of decay
You can't tell me that I don't want to stay
I know my pain...burn the faces beyond
Kill me long ( Read more... )

Just a word all it takes to set it off ( Read more... )

many dark and lonely nights i scream at the sky ( Read more... )

im trying to figure things out. and just when i think i figured it out i relize i dont. i think i just made a really big mistake.. but im praying that i can remedy it ( Read more... )

im so angry right now. i could burn down a church. seriously. im fucking furious ( Read more... )