no one i know uses this anymore it seems...tragic in a way considering this little journal has seen me through a lot of changes in my life and i would hate to see it be lost forever..as of now, i just turned 28...its hard to believe!! but i didnt trip out nearly as much as i did when i turned 27 and nowhere near as much as i did when i turned 25... ( Read more... )

wow it has ben a while!! around thanksgiving i met a guy who was friends with the last guy i was seeing. his name is scott and at first i was hesitant because he is COVERED in tattoos and he is a wee bit older than me (36), but after getting to know him i realized that he is spectacular and i have been with him ever since....he won me over with his ( Read more... )

i am an emotionally challenged idiot...seriously...ill never get it...but im going to bring sexy back with a vengence!!!!!!! susan fuck yeah coming to save the motherfucking world yeah

ok...lets see...i finally dumped matt...this shit had been going on for too long..i guess i couldnt really dump him because we were never technically going out...but whatever...goodbye to you...it of course resulted in me having a drunk crying fit in the parking lot of a bar that i always go to...matt had to ask me if i was ok while i was in the ( Read more... )

soooooooooo spring break started out fun...coffee with matt, then roller derby then sushi and drinks then his house and stuff....we are bff...or so he says which i thought was hilarious...its going nowhere that i want it to go...he has something tied to a string that i just keep chasing after...it blows...i dont like it...im sick of it, but yet i ( Read more... )

sick again with asthma.....still have no car.......new semester sucks........it makes me realize just how cool last semester was...im soooooooooo sick of the cold weather and the snow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but on a lighter note, the bears are going to the super bowl which totally kicks ass....GO BEARS!!!!!!!! i want to start smoking again, i did not ( Read more... )

back to life....back to reality....i like that song....but not the message...trip to el paso was a total success...but it went by soooooooo fast...way tooooooooooo fast..i didnt want to leave..i cried like a baby......muchas gracias to cindy and augi for all their hospitality and kleenex.....i had a super asthma/sinus/bronchitus/flu attack..but i ( Read more... )

well i leave for el paso thursday....i can almost smell the air and see the mountains...i can feel my feet on cindys floor in the kitchen...i can see myself opening the door to go out on the little porch in front of her house to smoke a cigarette....i can close my eyes and feel how the little twin bed feels while i lay under the blue blanket... ( Read more... )

ohhhh man.....im finally done with school this semester..it was a tough one, but i made it through and i am really happy about it all being over...the thing that sucks though is that i didnt pay for my tuition on time and i lost all of my classes for next semester, so now i have to re register today and see what i can get..i really hope i get a ( Read more... )

i have been a pimp lately and i deserve it....yes.....may it continue......