OBE

[maia_maus]

Overcome By Events.
Words my boss used today to describe something at work, but it more aptly describes my life in these times. I never thought I would experience anxiety. I thought I was strong. I thought I could take on anything that came my way. Apparently I was wrong. I had to stay home from work yesterday because anytime the thought of going to

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[krotscheck]

Life can certainly be like that, especially when the original enthusiasm in doing something fades. I start things that sound interesting, have fun with them for a while, and then the interest just... fades, but the obligation doesn't. That's where I get hung up, because I hate the idea of letting someone down, so instead I bend myself backwards doing something I really don't want to do. Sooner or later, I no longer have time to do new things, and realize that discovery is what motivates me, not the task itself.

[shoebox_bird]

*hug

[zyrain]

When I feel that way, I find a little perspective helps. I often do something very unlike my normal routine. One time, I left work early, walked 5 miles to the park, barefoot, and read a book (on spirituality, but that's not required), then walked home, went to sleep without turning on the TV or checking my e-mail, and the next day, felt 'different' (perhaps 'better', but I didn't apply the value judgment).

[elengul]

I think a really important thing to do when faced with fears like this is to take a step back and ask yourself what you really want out of life, identify the things that are preventing you from getting what you want, then eliminate those things and sieze your desires.

I know what your reaction will be ... you'll think that this sounds easy but it actually isn't. You're right, its not easy. Really, though, life is far too short to not be happy for as much of it as possible. Maybe the asking your boss for less work thing that shoebox_bird suggested might be a good idea. If the boss blows you off, head to HR, and if they blow you off, then I'd say its time your resumé hit the streets. If home is just as hectic, find ways to make it less hectic. There are some things you can't make not happen (like an exploding hot water heater or a car accident or something on that scale, heaven forbid something like that were to happen). One can, however, easily cut down on other things like events and people and places and things ... all of these things

[elengul]

Belated happy birthday, by the way :)

4 month delay

[maia_maus]

I wanted to post sooner, but alas...
Thank you guys for the advice. It was helpful and things have been better, for whatever it's worth... Perhaps it's a good thing - because I've been so overloaded, I've given work to other people to do. A hard thing as a control freak.
I wish I had time to say more, but it's late...
Thank you again...