i am trying to fix five million things in my life currently.
starting with all the holes in all the walls in all of my house.
i am covered in spackle.

this weekend i begin painting over every single white wall.

renovating the house and my life at the same time.

how productive!

Give me just a second and I'll be alright.
Surely one more moment couldn't break my heart.
Give me 'til tomorrow then I'll be okay.

i know a lot of people get spring fever ( Read more... )

when i was in second grade, i was the only one in my class that knew how to spell "thermometer."

what i don't understand is why
it takes so long to pick yourself up
from something that you fell into so quickly.

oh, it's taking too long...
i could be wrong, i could be ready.
oh but if i take my heart's advice, i should assume
it's still unsteady. i'm never really ready.
i'm in repair. i'm not together, but i'm getting there.

also, last night i had a dream that i was running.
just running and running and running.
and all my friends were there
and everyone was amazed by how far i was running.
i didn't slow down, i just kept running!

and then i stepped on a pricker bush and cried and i was done running.

what does this mean?

one thing i learned this summer:
don't repeat chapters. the story never changes.

someday, hopefully soon, i will find a boy that is worth it all ( Read more... )

i really think my mom likes my brother more.

reason #486: she ditched our plans to make dinner together tonight and went to johnny's spaghetti dinner and didn't even call to tell me she wouldn't be home to have dinner together. then i called her and she said "i'm sorrrry" like she thought it was funny.

it's really not funny....... she loves him

i have no room in my life for half ass friends ( Read more... )