SGA fic: Flinch

[maisierita]

So, okay.  Last story I published was practically a year ago.  And after months and months of opening up the monster story, staring miserably at it, and not writing a word, I decided I'd better force myself into doing something or I'd never write again.  Thus my 200 word a day challenge to myself, which has netted me almost 24,000 words of new fic

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[duskyfox]

Owwies.

*cuddles John*

[maisierita]

Yeah, he needs it. But I have hopes he'll get over it. Somehow.

Thanks for commenting!

[auburnnothenna]

I was so happy to see a new post by you.

But...

Damn it. Damn it. I swan around thinking, I wish someone would write something where John wants Rodney and Rodney doesn't, where he's straight, and then you go and write it, write so perfectly my stomach twisted and my throat ached, because it hurts so much. The despair of reality, sort of, because this is right, this is the way it would be, this isn't a demon Rodney, a bad guy, he doesn't want to and can't help hurting John.

You also nailed the absolute horror of telepathy: we live our entire lives with the presumption of the privacy of our thoughts, feelings, fantasies. We may communicate them with words and actions, but we know we have the choice not to. If we didn't have that presumption it would be different, but the sudden introduction of telepathy is frankly a horrible prospect.

Poor Rodney. Poor John.

[maisierita]

I've been thinking of a story along these lines for a very long time, but I couldn't work my way around adding a telepathy plot device that was obviously included in the story for no other purpose than to get to this point. And then hey! TPTB did it for me!!

So then I had to write it. And it kind of hurt to write too, but it felt really right to do it this way. Although I'm sad -- even though I was trying to make it realistic -- that they're ending up a little broken.

Thank you so much for the lovely fb. It totally made my night to get a comment from you. Since, you know, I kind of hyperventilate whenever you post anything new. :)

[desdema]

I loved this so, so much.

[maisierita]

I'm so glad. Thanks for commenting!

[thems]

I was just thinking there weren't many one-sided McKay/Sheppard fics out there, when I saw this on the noticeboard. Oh man, you completely made hurt along with John, and this thing is just deliciously angsty. Thank you!

[maisierita]

You're very welcome. Thank you so much for commenting!

[geeklite]

Oh. Ouch. But in a good way. But still, ouch.

[maisierita]

Thanks. :)