Fuck it I give up. Nobody reads this anyways. I'd be dead tommorow and none of you would think twice or give a fuck. I give up. I'm never coming to this blog again.

I feel like my very life has fallen apart at the seams....but it wouldn't be as if anyone cared anyways.

If I can reach the stars ( Read more... )

Today has left me with the worst feeling of things to come and I honestly hope I'm reading the signs wrong. I'm praying to god that I'm just reading it all wrong and that I don't see coming what I think I do. Don't ask me what it is. I won't talk about it. I don't wanna talk about it. I don't want to think about it. I just want it to go away ( Read more... )

So last night was my birthday. I'm 21 now. I didn't get drunk. But I did get really sloshed. I'm sorta paying for it now with the Gut rot. But who cares. (for those of you not familiar with gut rot, it's that feeling where you might throw up but can't. and your stomach just feels plain weird.) but otherwise I'm in my good mind again. Hung out with ( Read more... )

I'm sick of going to Funerals....family members of people I care about need to stop dying.

To all who missed me I have made my return to the internet. So yeah...lets get to rejoicing.

Matthew is back in the hospital they don't know whats wrong with him. I'll be at the hospital visiting him tonight call my cell if you need me and prayers are appericated.

My Brother is in the hostpial having is apendex out. I'll be at Duke Med tonight if anybody needs me call my cell phone. if you don't have it...well I dunno. anyways prayers are appericated.

I don't know what to do...I really don't I just feel iunno lost for the first time in a long time I feel really fucking lost it has nothing to do with my life or the people in it. and I just feel down...but like I cna' talk to anybody about it. like not even Chris if he was here. but he's not. and nobodys picking up tonight. not that I would talk ( Read more... )