I cannot continue to have night after night were I get shot, stabbed, raped, smacked around and starved in my own dreams...

I dont want to sleep anymore. when will this stop???

hmm and the shortest one hurts the most.

I need to get out of here.

NOW.

I'm a bad person. I want a drink and I want to stop sneezing. I went to the cemetary yesterday with my dad. I hate my job but I hate being broke even though I make a lot of money worse. I also cant wait to go back to school, even though I will miss my friends and Luke. I also need to figure out my financial aid.

oh my goodness....Brianna got me inspired to shop online for things I dont need, and I want a million things. More than ANYTHING I want this ring.
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oh dear god.

I just found my moms stash of vicoden.

Now I just need to strength and common sense not to use it.

This is my menu for the next six days:
partially frozen snickers bars (freezer is broken)
sushi rice
pasta
partially frozen brocolli

all covered in ketchup.
be jelouse!

Hye sorry I havent been typing in here a whole hell of a lot. Been writing in actual journals. Iam alive though. Alive and well.

Its my birthday, its 12:30 pm and I am still sitting in my room in my undies eating yogurt and muesli.

Being 20 isnt so bad thus far...

So, I am in norway, I have done everything there is to do. I am complete. I have seen Henrik Ibsens house.. (Naz girls, he wrote A Dolls House). I have gone skiing cross country and fell on my face, I have eaten rice porridge and weird cheeses from goats, I have sunbathed in the snow and sat in a giant barrel full of hot water (like an old school ( Read more... )

Christ in a cage. I'm not twenty yet and I am still sitting here looking at grad school programmes. Life moves at you fast, ladies and gentlemen. Here is a list of schools I want to go to. I wont make it into any of them, and when I dont I will probably fling myself into the peace corps for two years. It would be good for me I think to get the hell ( Read more... )