i work so hard to get people to love me and then once they do i distance myself from them because i'm afraid that i'll do something to mess it up and i'm afraid that i can't possibly be as great as their conception of me.

and that's it.

hurray!

greg's getting me a porno while he's in germany!

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously.
Anything.
A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like.
Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

it'll be fun...

i decided to start a new journal, this time friends-only. if you comment however, chances are i will add you.

<3 leah