I guess now I have put all our business out there for others, its not so discrete as in here as no one really knows who is who unless you want them to. As for out in seattle, well they are all going to see what I wrote to you. Oh well if I were affraid of my feelings for you I guess I should have never asked you to be my bf.

Well here it goes again. I just got Chris's x-mas present in the mail today. I am going to wrap it up and mail it to him, or am I? What am I going to do. Is it right? Am I going to be sending a message that I still care. Well I do. Unfortunate for as it is I do and it really really hurts. What am I to do about this? Just keep on trucking, I have ( Read more... )

I quote from one of Chris's entries ""We can get far into our thoughts together...he tells me things so far fetched that he is the only one who could teach me. He tells me, that there is a place for everything, and that the higher you reach the better you are. We can make it to a place that feels like its reaching towards the heavens, and he lets ( Read more... )

Ok where was I , oh thats right I had a headache and felt that going outside in the frigid air and burying my hear in the sand ashtray out front of our lawfirm would help that. Well actually that would be quite silly to do, so rather than make a mess I am just going to deal with it and write some more ( Read more... )

Just when I though things couldnt get any better, they got a whole lot worse. I feel like crying now, but no one's shoulder to cry on. I met chris on a early summer afternoon. We met at an AA meeting on capital hill. It was amazing how he was so smooth and sexy. I wanted to talk to him, but I was too nervous to do so. I didnt want him to think I ( Read more... )