Wow.... I've really, really forgotten about livejournal. It's been like a year since my last post. I'm up to about 130-140 lbs.. I got into a pretty bad addiction to amphetamine and my withdrawal made me put on A LOT of weight and I fucking hate it. I don't even know what to do with myself.. I guess I came to a realization after stepping on the ( Read more... )

Eat or Don't Eat. God what should I do..I've already had 380 calories..

Withdrawal had me binging all week, so I gained everything back that I lost last weekend. Have to get back on track...I refuse to go over 120!

Like really bad. I was an addict in my past life. I've only done it once in this life but I'm already going through withdrawal (Is that even possible?) It wasn't even pure meth. It was extacy. So far I've slept 18 hours and I need to sleep AGAIN. My head is killing me and I feel guilty about everything. God I just want more to take this feeling ( Read more... )

In between 113-114 lbs. Rolling on E all weekend does wonders for your waistline.

Down to 117. Depression has been a little better but now I just feel frustaited and tired. I've been sick with bronchidis for the past 3 days so at least I have some excuse not to eat. My mom has been making remarks like 'oh, you're losing so much weight' and about a month ago she even brought up the 'you know you don't eat right' defence. She ( Read more... )

"Those who were born in 1910 are the children of the flames!!! i can see the terror in your eyes, but i`m old, too old, ohhhh i`ve seen many things, many decades, your generation is condemned! you should have listened to us!"

119. Every time I drink I lose weight. I don't even want to party any more, I only drink to lose weight. ugh.

Iv'e been stuck at 121-124 ALL MONTH. Today I weighed 123 but I'm staying under 400 calories (I'm usually around 700-1000 lately) so hopefully I'll drop a pound by tomorrow. I really want my belly button pierced for my birthday but I doubt my mom would let me, plus I don't want to do it if I look fat. Today consisted of 3.5 motzerella sticks, some ( Read more... )

I've eaten about 750 calories today, and I feel horrible. The water and prune juice are helping with bloating though. I'm down to 122 but I feel like I'll gain. I burned about 70 cals. doing jumping jacks and maybe 20 from walking to my classes. I'm so worried.. I ate a cheeseburger in the caff. for lunch and the iron made me sooooo warm. I feel so ( Read more... )