sometimes i wish i was more of a mans man. ya know, one of those egotistical manly men who have to use force with everything.be a boss. a fucking asshole. maybe then i could get laid. for now, i can only dream. this year makes 4 years since the last time, and to be quite frank i've never enjoyed sex. the best times i've had werent even sex, it was ( Read more... )

the one who should be the girl of my dreams, is a lesbian liberal who doesn't believe in god. this world really is retarded.

this is going to be the stupidest post ever.. but here goes ( Read more... )

i really hate not having anyone around to share things with. i think thats what i miss about being with someone the most.

two things ( Read more... )

why can't i find her? i'm still waiting.

not only a great song, but the story of my life. yep, the girl in the picture below said i wasnt "bad ass" enough.. bur what ever. i'm done looking for "the one" right now.. and besides that, i need to get laid.. i finally added it up, and i believe september will make it 3 years since the last time. i'm overly stressed, my dad is trying to kill ( Read more... )

i must be the most unattractive guy on the planet. outside of the chances of this girl being married or gay, she still doesnt even look at me. i hardly think either of the two are true, so we'll just stick with something being wrong with me ( Read more... )

so i can finally afford to live, except for the fact that within two weeks, i'll have no money left. i'm hoping to be able to pay rent and my car, besides those, i will be fucked unless there is some miracle ( Read more... )

i look back on these ridiculous journals and think.. what the hell was i talking about?? i dont remember feeling half those emotions, or anything related to them. some i still get but for the most part it seems like i was rambling on and on about nothing.. kind of like i'm doing now. =D maybe its just that i've grown up.. or that i'm getting old ( Read more... )