FU@K Im so annoyed,. ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh . i just want things to be perfect. I dont want to be human. I cant take this constant aching in my gut. never feeling good enough. never feeling settled. all these words comming up like throw up. Then i try not to talk bc i talk to fucking much. SOWWWWW i write in this little diddle of a "journal" some ( Read more... )

Im doing 'ok'
Last night i had a dream i was being raped.
This dog wouldnt stop barking so all in all i got 3 hours.

clean now over a month i wanna drink sooooo bad.

I miss him so much.. i feel like that will never ever go away =(

feeling good. feeling confident something i havent known for a very long time im so sick of giving a fuck what other ppl think from now on meet the new improved steph and happy one

and now i know that seeing a picture of you now makes my stomach drop and my heart runs into my throat

maybe this is hell and were reliving all our mistakes and ppl that r happy r just making it out

idc getting high is getting by im all alone in this pathetic world fuck it im not going to some bar were a meat head will feed me drink and try to fuck me paaaalease

ok im sry but corky lied to me the only reason was my mad i think i dereved to know what did everyone wanna fuck jesus  lmao well hes in my bed now so w.e and i cannot beleive jen would tell her to say she can be so fucked up .... im so beat so pissed yet im numb and i dont care everything is to crazy  to carre

my dad fell last night. Apparently could not breathe my mom had to give him mouth to mouth....
how can u talk to someone when every time u see them u just choke up and dont know the right words.

ugh im so numb and emotional at the same time.

Its like the most painful thing  ive ever been through bc it just wont happend it just eats him alive.

So break me down if it makes you feel right ( Read more... )

im so stressed with my dad =(