Kevin says ( Read more... )

Uuuuugh so what to say, where to start? This weekend has been an interesting one. Friday night went out to the Whiskey... drank & chilled there till like 1am, when my friends wanted to leave. I was pretty trashed & not ready to go home so I called up a buddy of mine who was having ppl over so I got dropped off at his place. Decent crowd there, ( Read more... )

GRAH I am an idiot... have 2 guys on hand.. pick one... and he decides he doesnt want to date... FUCKING STUPID. Im just bitter cuz I really do like chris.. I dunno why really. hes just rad. I guess I let myself fall faster than I thought.. or should have. Big wall going up around me.. dont care about people. Just have fun. Easier said than done. ( Read more... )

I.... am smitten ( Read more... )

So. I don't know what to say really.

A friend showed me an essay that really made me think about how I have viewed (and acted upon) sex in the past.
"At a bar, whenever a guy passed by me to talk to one of my thinner friends, I'd hate myself. Invariably, I would act out by fucking whomever I could. As the night got later and it became apparent ( Read more... )

So Nik called me... which is what I had thought might be a deciding factor.. but he happened to call mid-makeout session with Chris... so talk about an awkward conversation in front of chris.. i ended up just telling nik ihad a friend over & couldnt talk and would call him later in the week... WEAK excuse... and now I dont know if I even want to ( Read more... )

First time we met we went out for dinner, then took a walk down 17th avenue and grabbed gelato for dessert. Then upon my request he showed me his house, because he had renovated the entire place and seemed so proud of it. It was amazing... looked like it came out of a book. And thats also partially because his mother is an interior designer ( Read more... )

Im a flake. I make plans, I break plans. Its what Im good at. How the hell do I still have any friends ( Read more... )

so since monday i've lost 6 lbs. according to my scale this morning. although with what ive eaten today ill surely gain half of it back. and i know that its mostly water weight. its just odd to see it drop so rapidly when ive really still been eating. i could see it drop like that if i were to fast... but i just cut my cals in half approximately. ( Read more... )

In general I think I am doing well. Happy with myself to a certain extent. But this is only when I am medicated. I have forgotten to take it for the most part of the past 2 weeks - about 10 days missed out of 14. I know that isn't smart but I hate having to take them. Makes me feel fucked up. Unfortunately, when I haven't taken them any ( Read more... )