AAAAAAAAAAH I just can't help myself. I tried. I really did. A week away I thought would help..except for the fact that we spoke online every single day I was gone. I like him. I can't help it. And I have NO clue if hes interested in me at all, and thats what is driving me NUTS ( Read more... )

So I've decided I pretty much suck at being single. Why? Because after the disaster that was my relationship with chance I decided I needed a break from men. I've been in 4 relationships in the past 16 months, having a total of about 2 months being single. So the decision to be single for a while.. should make sense! Just get back into being ME ( Read more... )

a long time with no entry. i havent even journaled since then, online or on paper. i can't seem to understand things now though.

why am i afriad of love? in the last year i have only begun to be able to say "you too" when my parents say they love me, and on a rare occaision i have said "love ya too"... never love you or i love you. those are the ( Read more... )

im so smitten. i love this boy. i dont know what else to call it. he is so amazing... and as an added bonus my friends can see how happy i am when i am with him. even when they meet him for the first time.. i was telling a friend who had met nik the night before, that i liked him so much.. and she was like "i can tell. you look good together". i ( Read more... )

Im confused. I don't know how I feel. All I know is that I really intensely like Nik, and I haven't felt this way before. I'm NOT afraid of commitment with him.. I can't imagine wanting to leave him for anything. He is just so amazing. And its scary.. that I feel this way so fast. But things are just so comfortable with him that I can say that ( Read more... )

Last night was the party night for Halloween... or as I dubbed it.. Halloween for big kids. I went with Nik and his friends to a house party hosted by a guy they all knew from high school era (most of their friends ARE in fact friends from back in school). So we get there and this house is WOW. Just astounding. I can't even put into words how ( Read more... )

Ok so. I'm an ENGG Week judge. What does that mean? I get to have the most fun out of anyone during engg week. which is the first week back at school in january. Though it does involve planning and organizing in advance. Which will also be fun. We had our first meeting tonite, and met all the judges (6 in total... one from each department - mech, ( Read more... )

im a wino. but i dont care. screw the bottle of wine i had earlier. i have dilemmas and goodness. which to start with? good ( Read more... )

And since you all are probably sick of me now.. I have a few pics of my new hair..


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Holy shit. what the hell is going on in my life ( Read more... )