#31 Wish List (You’re my priority) {2/2}
“One penny for your thoughts”
“Uhmmmm?”
“Nothing.” Kai chuckled, “you frequently seem to lost yourself in whatever you’re thinking. I’m just curious”.
“Ah, well… I’ve been told I’m very easy to distract, I guess it’s true”.
“What’s your number?” Kai said out of the blue.
“What?”
“Yeah, your number, uh” Kai thought it was a good idea to be direct. He felt guilty, Sehun most likely didn’t think the same. “It’s ok if don’t want to give me your number! I may be busy so I’ll probably never call you, but yeah, I do have some free time” The idol frowned at himself, he was way more confident than that.
“I never told you I wouldn’t give it to you” Sehun giggled.
They shared knowing looks, and discretely exchanged their phone numbers. Kai muttered a “I’ll call you in the next days,”. He almost hugged Sehun, but a bit of play would be better. The alcohol that ran in his veins made it easier.
He leaned on Sehun, extremely close to his right ear. “Take care” was all he said, and playfully pecked Sehun’s cheek.
世界
“That’s it? I can’t believe it!”
“Baekhyun, you’ve been saying that for five days straight”
“Excuse you, can’t I be happy because of the magnificent news my friend told me?”
Sehun sighed, his pal didn’t seem to digest the news yet.
He clearly remembered how his circle of friends bombarded him with questions when he returned from the event. Even at midnight, they didn’t show mercy.
He sulked a bit, though. He knew he shouldn’t had expected a lot from his crush, especially if said crush was an idol. He hoped he could at least befriend Kai, but his efforts were apparently done for nothing. And it hurt so bad.
“Don’t pout. It makes me want to wrap you with a Rilakkuma towel,” Baekhyun scolded him, “Please, I know it’s been hard for you but cheer up! You have his number, that’s a huge advantage! And don’t be such a stubborn, you can text him a ‘hello, how you’ve been?’ … It doesn’t mean you’re desperate”.
“Just leave the kid alone, for a day minimum,” Kyungsoo halted their conversation. “Wait, Sehun. If you are convinced that he didn’t mean any harm, then you shouldn’t distress yourself.”
“Thanks, Soo, that’s what I’ll do”.
Sehun felt his cell phone vibrate inside his jeans’ pocket. He took it out and almost fell off the chair he was sitting on.
“Kai sent you a new message” was written on the screen.
With trembling fingers, he unlocked his device and read the message.
From Kai:
What are your plans for today’s evening? Busy?
“What did he say?! Let me see!” An enthusiastic Baekhyun commented. When he saw the message, his emotions collapsed. “Told you! He made his move, rather later than ever… But still!”
“Stop!”
From Sehun:
Not at all, kai-ssi wanna go somewhere? :)
Seconds after, he started a text exchange with Kai.
From Kai:
U read my mind ;) haha, what about Kamong Cafe? 6:30 pm. Don’t wear something flamboyant though, I wanna have a great time with u without the paparazzi etc☹
Sehun screamed internally.
From Sehun:
Sure! I’ll see u there>.<
He literally run upstairs -Ignoring his friends’ calls- to get to Chanyeol’s bedroom, and took a quick shower. He wanted to be ready as soon as possible. After all, even without flamboyant clothes he still wanted to look quite appealing.
世界
“What will you drink?”
“A chocolate bubble tea, please.” Sehun said in a high-pitched tone, a clear sign of his anxiousness. He felt betrayed by his own body.
“S’alright. Wait five minutes, I’ll be back with our order” Kai exclaimed and trudged over to the Cafe’s counter. Making sure to order a chocolate bubble tea, and a green tea. He wasn’t exactly a fan of the coffee.
Sehun observed him from his place. He couldn’t believe how lucky he was. After all, he was nothing but a fan… a favoured fan. How did he end up there? Who would tell? A year ago, if someone had told him he’d be drinking bubble tea with Kai, he’d had thought he or she was nuts.
“Hey, I’m here”. Kai broke Sehun’s train of thought. “Sehun-ah!”
“Sorry. You may already have noticed, I’m comfortable when thinking, that’s it”.
“Do I make you uncomfortable?” Kai teased him.
“NO! Of course you don’t” Sehun laughed nervously, “I guess I’m confused, to be honest”
“Confused? Why?”
“You see; do you always ask fans out? To go to a Cafe or the park?” Sehun didn’t want to be rude, but he had the right of asking Kai those questions. He needed to confront the situation, before his expectations went up too high.
Kai made himself more cosy on his sit, for he knew the upcoming talk will take an hour or two to satisfy both involved sides.
“No, I don’t” Kai deadpanned, Sehun gulped. “You’re asking yourself, ‘why out of all people, it had to be me?’ And I get your point. Literally, from one day to another you got close to your favourite artist out there, uh?”
Sehun nodded.
“But I’m more confused than you. I’m the one who started everything” Kai awkwardly took a sip of his green tea, “I excuse myself from being a total flirt for the past few weeks. But don’t pretend you don’t run a fansite dedicated to me”.
“I- Well, yes. I run a fansite, specially for you. Shouldn’t that keep you out of my radar? Like you’ve just said… Out of all people, you had to choose a fansite master” Sehun had a bittersweet smile plastered on his face.
“I know, but I want to get to know you better,” Kai assured Sehun, stretching his hand to reach out Sehun’s, and shyly caress them.
It looked like a High School’s Sweetheart’s movie scene. Absolutely cheesy.
They were fortunate, they were the only costumers in the Cafe. The owner and staff that worked there didn’t recognised Kai, all of them were old. Grey streaks adorned their hair. The only comment they did was a “handsome kids, what bring you here?”
“I’ve been interested on you… Pretty much since the first time I saw you. I’m not going to lie, but the first vibes I got from you weren’t good ones. I first thought you worked for Dispatch,”
“You’re not the first one” Sehun cackled, even the singer thought the same. “Tons of girls aren’t friendly with me because they think I’m a creeper” which I may am, but anyhow “Although the ones that also are there since the beginning are kind enough to greet me every now and then”.
“You’re brave, Sehun-ah”.
“Am I?”
“Don’t you have fears? You know, didn’t you fear being judged by the others? I know how it feels, but it’s better to ignore them. Criticism isn’t bad though, but I believe there are ways to express your opinion,”
“I’m still fighting against my fears,” Sehun eyes watered, and he closed his lids. Hiding his fragile side, for he didn’t want to give the impression of being too sensitive. Even though what he was hiding was his real personality. “My parents think I’m wasting my money partying or shopping in the most expensive malls. I’m not sure I want to be there when they discover I’ve been traveling behind their backs just to follow you”. He was honest. Some nights Sehun didn’t sleep peacefully, he’d be too preoccupied decoding tragic scenarios. Which included his parents.
“Why… How did you start this, ahm, way of life? It’s nerve-racking, but more for you. You chase after us, the celebrities. And even when you know the probabilities of you interacting with us are very low, you’re still there”. Kai sincerely appreciated all his fans’ hard work. If he thought what he did was maddening, he couldn’t imagine the agitation thousands of girls and boys went through.
Kai adored Michael Jackson, he was his role model. Due to geographic and economic reasons, he never got the chance of buying a ticket to the US and going to Jackson’s concert.
Holy, he was amused by the idea of him following his idol everywhere. It made him chuckle. If he was a fansite master, he’d be bad. He’d prefer attending dance lessons than taking pictures.
“My eyes were drawn to you, Kai-ssi” Sehun swore he felt butterflies in his tummy “You’re so talented! The way you dance, it’s alluring… A true masterpiece, let me tell you”.
“You think so?”
“Me and another millions of fans think so. And now it’s my turn, but don’t pretend you’re not aware of what you’re capable to do” Sehun laughed so hard that soon enough Kai was laughing too.
Do you know them?
No, I don’t
They look great together, don’t you think so?
They do. Now, let’s work
A few workers were watching them, they thought about how adorable the young men were.
The evening went in a delightful way. Kai and Sehun got to know each other. Obviously, there were topics left untouched and what not. But they were satisfied, they were able to put their differences aside like adults.
No, they didn’t start any sort of romantic relationship or whatsoever. Kai, as much as he liked the other, knew better than to thrust easily. On the hand, Sehun was happy he earned a new friend.
Only time will tell
That’s how their friendship bloomed.
He met up with Kai one or two days per week, he yearned for more. But he knew the singer had a stressful schedule, so for some days he didn’t even receive a ‘good morning’ message. Although Kai always managed to send him a ‘goodnight’ one, despite the fact that they didn’t speak the whole day.
Their escapades, just like how Baekhyun called their almost-dates, happened during the evening. Sehun then learned Kai loved his privacy more than anyone he had ever known. He sacrificed some nights to accompany Kai to the Han River at two in the morning. Their favourite place.
They did enjoy doing picnics, and Kai had the nerve of posting a picture of their feet on his forum. Fans commented how pretty their shoes were, they were matching. The fans suspected Sehun was a simply friend. Oh, how little did they know.
After the Han River, Sehun loved visiting his beloved bubble tea store with Kai. He blushed madly when he recalled that time Kai told him “I’m not fond of sweet things, but for you it’s worth the try”
They didn’t look like high school’s sweethearts anymore; they were high school’s sweethearts. It was more like the skinny love type. They were trying to take things slowly. Firstly, even when Kai occasionally held hands with him and even kissed his cheeks, he wanted to know how far Kai’d go.
Kai didn’t feel ready yet. Sehun meant more than just a gorgeous fan he’d bang. Sehun meant someone who was full of life and made his days better just by talking with him. Sehun meant doing things out of the normal and daring himself to be better.
Kai wanted to give Sehun a well romantic relationship, but he’d build it step by step.
Kai gave him mixed signals, according to Sehun’s perspective. But Kai was decided to break out of his shell and provide him with the best, and the best only. Thus, Sehun found roses outside Chanyeol’s apartment every now and then. A little card sprayed with Kai’s perfume had written a ‘Have a wonderful day’, ‘Don’t forget to smile’, or ‘Don’t forget how worthy you are’ texts.
Sehun still kept his fansite open, he wasn’t as active as before though. He believed he’d a hypocrite if he continued upgrading pictures to his data, acting as if nothing happened. When, well, it was as if he was filming a freaking typical movie where his idol fell head-over-heels for him. He only was active on SNS when important things happened, like a fan project collaboration and the similar.
When he did go to Kai’s schedule, there were occasions where he didn’t bring his camera with him. He was there just to cheer Kai.
Heck, he didn’t mind the curious eyes on him. All he wanted to do was to show his sincere appreciation.
It took months, seven months - to be more precise, before they had their first kiss. Their official first kiss.
“I’m so full!”
“Kai, the movie hasn’t start and you ate all of your popcorn! How unfair,” Sehun complained. He resisted the exquisite popcorn he had his hands on, so he’d save them for when the movie started.
“Then share yours with me” Kai put his arm around Sehun’s shoulders. He hid his face in the crook of Sehun’s neck.
“No. The last time we were here, I asked you the same and you rejected my request!” Sehun pouted.
“Stop doing that”
“Doing what?” Sehun was a little frustrated, he disliked it when someone wasn’t being clear about what they wanted or had. He pouted even more.
Apparently, that more pushed Kai past his limits.
“Yah, Kai-ssi what are you-“ Sehun felt soft lips crash against his. Way too shocked to respond, he let Kai took control not only of the kiss but also of his emotions for the time being.
He could feel the passion and want that Kai accumulated as the months went by. He closed his eyes and repeated on his mind seize the day, Sehun.
It was a messy kiss, but to Sehun it was the best one he ever had. For he felt himself almost die from love. Pure love and admiration. His hand instinctively searched for Kai’s neck and pulled him closer. He tangled his fingers with Kai’s fluffy hair.
Kai’s hands were drawn to his slender waist. How incredible did it feel to be with the one you want? For kai, there were no enough words to describe how happy he was. He forgot he was an idol. He forgot about the media that constantly harassed him. He forgot about his manager and the hundreds of things written on his schedule. All he cared about was right in front him, kissing him slowly.
They broke the kiss, separating their faces little by little, not wanting to destroy the magic they created with the heated peck.
Sehun opened his eyes, and what greeted him was the most precious sight ever.
Kai still had his eyes closed, but the smile he had betrayed all emotions he ever tried to shield. He looked genuinely delighted.
After that, both boys didn’t speak. They merely held hands and watch the movie, even though they quickly found themselves distracted by giving each other flirtatious glances and stealing quick kisses.
The kisses turned into something usual in their dates.
Now you two are going out on dates, no doubt; Baekhyun laughed hysterically when a shy Sehun confessed him what happened at the cinema. He saw it coming, being honest. He had a small talk with Kyungsoo where they agreed to Baekhyun’s statement; Why would he insist if he wasn’t interested? Who’s he trying to fool? Sehun? Well, it worked.
Sehun blushed every time Kai deliberately hugged him from behind and told him how his good his day went, via text messaged or seeing in person. It made him feel all kind of cute things. He felt pathetic, pathetically in love.
Kai never asked him once if he’d be his boyfriend. And Sehun didn’t pressured on turning whatever they had into something official, he knew that they had something special that didn’t necessarily need a name. He felt like he was in a fairy tale. His fansite was now long forgotten, it made him feel melancholic when he entered his old SNS accounts and saw the fans’ mentions on Twitter,
Unnie, come back!.<’
Did you abandon Kai??? I’ve heard you’re now a Boys’ Generation fan:O smh….. traitor!11!!!!1!!!
Lol I’m thirsty
Masternim saranghae come back ily bookbearnim
I’m not an unnie, netheir a traitor. Thought Sehun. Shit, I miss posting my pictures and stuff, but I know I’d feel bad afterwards.
Sehun will always remember the rendezvous where they were very close of getting caught.
It occurred when Kai wanted to have their little reunion in a restaurant near Gangnam, at 9 pm. Sehun didn’t feel convinced but accomplished Kai’s cravings nonetheless.
They were eating and having their conversation when a little girl, no older than eight years old, tugged Kai’s shirt and looked at him with puppy eyes.
“Oppa…”
“Hey, little friend. Are you perhaps searching for your mom?” Kai was concerned, and Sehun mind flashed a quick idea about what a wonderful dad Kai would be someday.
“No, I’m not. Mommy’s right there” the kid pointed with her small finger the corner of the restaurant.
“I see” Kai gave her a barely-there smile. “So…”
“I’m curious, you look lots like Kim Kai! Are you Kim Kai, handsome oppa?” the child blabbered, her voice high-pitched. She was a Kim Kai fan to the deep core.
Kai widened his eyes and almost choked on his water.
He snorted and made eye-contact with Sehun, his eyes screamed help.
“What would you if he’s Kai?” Sehun interfered, his companion let out a sigh of relief.
“What would I do? Oh!!! I need a pictures, yes, a picture will do! I can show it off and my friends in school will be jealous” the girl giggled, “The gorg… gorgos… ah, pretty Kai oppa!”
“Are you good at keeping secrets?” Sehun inquired. “Hmmm?”
“Yes! I’m a good girl! But… but I do share secrets with my best friend, Jin! If not, we no friends anymore!” she whimpered and stomped her cute feet hard on the ground.
“Who’s Jin? Like… Does he or she exist?”
“Kai!” Sehun kicked Kai’s leg under the table.
“Sorry”.
“He’s my bunny” she replied nonchalantly.
Ah, so maybe it’s fine if she finds out…
“Well, in that case… Please?” Sehun pleaded to Kai, after all, the girl didn’t know they were friends-almost-lovers on a date. They could pass as friends, only friends.
“Fine” Kai dropped his chopsticks on the table and get on his feet. He kneeled down until he reached the girl’s height “Promise you won’t tell anyone...”
“Oh my God” the little one whispered, “K-Kai oppa?”
“Yes” Kai pinched her cheek lightly “Do you still want that picture to show it off to your friends?”
“I... I… Yes! Please! Please! Mommy, mommy come here and take a picture of me with my husband Kai oppa!” The girl burst into tears.
“Yah, calm down, calm down.” Kai patted her back and caressed her hair lovingly. “now, smile. Your mommy is already her with her phone, we may take more than one picture. How does that sound?”
The girl and Kai took at least five pictures, in all of them Kai did silly faces and the kid had her eyes all puffy but it didn’t make the mini photoshoot less gratifying.
Each day that passed, the more Sehun approved of his life choices.
Sehun thought anything couldn’t get better between them.
Until one morning, Chanyeol woke him up with his annoying screams.
“Sehun! Wake up! Shit, will you kill him? At least, you can try and do some media play”. Chanyeol hissed as he took the covers off Sehun’s frame. He let himself fall on the bed, sighing.
“What are talking about?” Sehun rubbed his eyes.
“Don’t, wait, don’t you know?” Chanyeol proceed to thrown himself over Seun’s body “SEHUN PROTECTION SQUAD! SEHUN PROTECTION SQUAD!”
“What the fuck, what are you doing yo-“
“What happened?! Did he collapse?” Minseok had an agitated heartbeat, the Sehun protection squad a.k.a Minseok, Baekhyun, Chanyeol and a grumpy Kyungsoo ran upstairs when they heard Chanyeol’s call.
“No! guys, he doesn’t know,”
“Know what? Crap, guys, tell me what’s going on. I’ve never been so confused, well probably I was when Kai asked me out on a date for the first time ever-“
“Kai, this is about Kai” Kyungsoo cut short Sehun’s comments.
Sehun didn’t like the way his friends were watching him. A mix between intrigue and sorrow.
“What about him?”
“See it by youself” Baekhyun slowly approached Sehun’s bed, and gave him his iPhone.
Is Asia’s First Love no longer single? Kim Kai dating Pink Lemonade’s Bliss, according to these pictures. Bets, anyone?
Sehun felt his heart pierced by the sudden confusion and pain chasing his thoughts.
The couple in the pictures were indeed Kai and that Bliss girl.
Who’s named Bliss, anyway?
They were outside MBC building, the first pictures were innocent. The two were only talking, apparently. Sehun almost rolled his eyes, drama because of such things? Pfft. However, as Sehun scrolled down the pictures, there was one specific photo,
Kai was holding hand with Bliss, and in the next one, he was pecking her on either the lips or a place very close to them. The picture was blurry, but the next photos showed a Bliss blushing and all smiles just like a teen.
She was a teen, anyhow. Four years younger than Kai, who’s 22 years old - same with Sehun.
He remembered, a day before… Kai didn’t want to meet Sehun as he was supposedly very tired from his previous fansign.
Liar
Sehun tossed Baekhyun’s phone back to him.
“He doesn’t look like that type, you know, like the one where you play with someone’s feeling…” Baekhyun was in shock. When he read the news, he couldn’t help but feel panic, Sehun surely didn’t deserve any heartbreak.
“No need. I’ll just take a shower”.
After repeating his Protection squad for a thousand times already that he was fine, that he just needed some time alone… They leaved Sehun’s room. He shooed them away. Really, he needed to be alone.
Kai slayed his whole existence, and all he ended up with was an ache in his heart.
When he was about to enter the spacious bathroom, his phone vibrated on the surface of the nightstand.
The screen displayed the name of the person he less wanted to speak with.
Kai<3 is calling you…
“Later, Kai. Not right now…” Said Sehun to the device. He let the phone to continue with its ringing, even when he was showering he still heard it.
He heard the crash of his heart breaking into little pieces.
世界
“Dude, he’s not going to stop knocking on the fucking door. Go and confront him, fuck!” An annoyed Kyungsoo grabbed Sehun by his hands and glared at him. He loved Sehun, as a friend, sure. But he knew better than to let him suffer.
“I know, Soo, I know!” Sehun freed his hands from Kyungsoo’s grip.
“I’m not ready, not yet! I have a lot of things I want to tell him. Heck, I lowkey want to shove his words up his ass-“
“Yah,”
“Fine, although I feel deceived, I’m mostly mad at myself”.
Kyungsoo took the fanboy’s hands in his petit -but strong- ones, now more gently than before. Indicating him to continue his speech.
“I’m mad at myself. I should’ve listen to my inner voice. I’m just a fan, at the end. I’m not famous, I may be wealthy but how to compare myself” he gestured himself “to Kai? He can have anyone he wants; I guess he finally realized I’m Kai trash even if he breaks my heart,”
Kyungsoo hit Sehun’s forehead mildly.
“Don’t you dare to speak about yourself like that in front of myself, or anyone”.
“Hyung, thank you?” Sehun beamed “The thing is this… We never made whatever we have - or had, official. I didn’t want to rush our relationship; you know? I comprehended how responsible he’s with his work. He adores his fans. Whenever he spoke about the crazy yet cute things they did for him, his eyes glimmered so beautiful I fell I even harder.
I’m scared, I… what if he wants to call me up again just to break me like a promise?”
“Did you just quote-“
“It doesn’t matter. I know that its only matter of time before he gets tired, and I won’t have to be the one suffering, right?”
“Are you sure?” Kyungsoo inquired, he knew how sensible Sehun was. It made him feel despair.
“I am,” Sehun hugged Kyungsoo “thank you. Just tell him I’m not here, fine?”
His friend nodded. Sehun went back to his shared room with Chanyeol.
Little did Sehun know, his friend had other plans. Good for him, the plans were done for his benefit solemnly.
Kyungsoo opened the door.
“Finally! I thought I’d have to stay here for the rest of my life-“
“Shut up,” Kungsoo interrupted Kai’s frantic talk “if you want to have Sehun back, not that he’s your propriety or anything - you wish, but I admit you two look cute together. Listen to what I’ll say”.
Kai had his mind clouded with tons of ideas, and he ended up more puzzled by what the male he faced said. Was he trying to help? Whatever, he’d take it.
“I’m all ears, then”.
“Good” Kyungsoo smirked. “Now, let’s go somewhere else, I don’t think he’d like to see us talking. Not especially after your stupid pictures with Joy or whoever”.
“Bliss,” Kai corrected Kyungsoo.
“How dare you-“
“No!! I’ll explain you everything, but please help me”. Kai grabbed Kyungsoo’s arm with a firm grip.
“Pfft” Kyngsoo brushed Kai’s hand off his arm “who thought I’d see you what, begging? Twinkle twinkle little star”
“Are you going to help me or not? I can easily walk past you and reach Sehun,”
“Try it”.
“Fine” Kai groaned, but if he wanted Sehun’s forgiveness, he had to swallow his pride.
Twinkle twinkle little star.
世界
“How you’ve been so far?” Chanyeol poked Sehun’s cheek, trying to get Sehun out of his thoughts.
“For the nth time, I’m fine”. Sehun poked Chanyeol’s cheek back, squishing it. “It’s nice to see you guys worried about me and stuff, but please know the difference between a normal heartbreak and an obsessive-crazy type of heartbreak”.
“I don’t get it, don’t both hurt the same?” Ouch.
“They do, but one less than the other”. Sehun picked two old pens that rested on Chanyeol’s desktop and a piece of paper. “Imagine these as hearts” Chanyeol hummed “when it’s a normal heartbreak the pen still works, see it still leaves tint prints on its way.” To prove it, he wrote some random words on the paper with a blue pen. “Now, the other one has an obsessive-crazy heartbreak. Its core is now useless and ha, you can’t even refill its tint” Sehun tried to doodle with the black pen, but it didn’t work.
“What the heck was that for?”
“Chanyeol! Fine, I know, my attempts of sharing philosophy with you are horrible”.
“Not only with me, though”
A pillow hit Chanyeol’s face.
“I’m having a normal heartbreak, to sum it up”.
“Mmmmm, Kai may be super sexy and all, but he doesn’t have a good taste”.
Sehun looked at him with an I’m-so-going-to-kill-you gaze.
“I’m not saying it because of you! Yo! But Bliss is weird. Starting with her name”.
“Stop it. She’s actually cute. Let’s not insult an innocent lady, shall we?”
“You’re shielding her” Chayeol was impressed. After all he felt when he saw those pictures, it seemed more logical for Sehun to be angry.
“Maybe, but I don’t think it’s her fault” Sehun didn’t want to talk about the topic anymore “moving on, want to watch a movie? Minseok renovated his Netflex membership, we better give it a proper use”.
“Sure, then. By the way…” Chanyeol followed Sehun to the living room. “You know you’re handsome, right? Don’t sulk, you’re going to find someone who’ll truly love you”.
“Although I’ve never called you using the honorifics, you’re truly appreciated”.
“Thank you, sehun-ssi” Chanyeol winked “This is something I’ve been wanting to ask you, sorry if it’s insensate. Uhm, don’t you want your money back? I mean, all the trips and you’re fansite is no longer as active as before”.
Sehun never thought about it.
“I don’t think so, but now that you mentioned it… I enjoyed It while it lasted, so why should I regret owning a fansite that made me follow my idol? One of the fans wrote me on Twitter saying that I’m a traitor because I no longer liked Kai… I still like him, he’s talented despite everything, but am I traitor if I close this cycle? I vowed to always be with him”. Sehun saddened at the thoughts. Kai may had broken his heart but awfully, he loved him with all its little pieces.
It was so hard for Sehun to ignore the constant calls Kai gave him, the voicemails, and the text messages.
Once Sehun tried listening to one of the voicemails. He only listened to forty-five seconds of it, he stopped before he ended up crying himself to sleep. Again. When he woke up, Kyungsoo wouldn’t stop asking him if he wanted to go to the gym with him to distress.
I’m fine. I’ll be fine
Chanyeol and Sehun decided to watch a movie about a grandma going back to her 20s. It was a Chinese production, and the actors played their roles well. Halfway through the movie, Kyungsoo returned home.
“Where were you?” Chanyeol asked, his eyes never leaving the TV screen.
“I was at Jongdae’s” Kyungsoo left his bag on the sofa and peeked around the place “Sehun… Ah, there you are”.
While Chanyeol was sitting on the sofa, Sehun was lying down on the floor.
“Yep, what do you need, Soo?”
“I need your opinion on my advice, actually. Follow me”.
Sehun was intrigued, he got up and followed Kyungsoo all the way till they reached the front door and he hummed, waiting for his hyung to stop his tracks. Surprise, Kyungsoo opened the door and signalled his car.
“There, go there. Don’t come back” Kyungsoo pushed Sehun out of the apartment, and closed the door quickly.
“Excuse me?!” Sehun smacked his face and decided to end whatever happened. He trotted till he was beside the car. “What is this?” He saw a small box on the passenger seat.
He entered the car and got comfy.
The box had attached a pretty heart-shaped card.
To Sehun
With trembling hands, he picked up the box and opened it. He found a letter.
That calligraphy…
“Dear Sehun,
How you’ve been? It’s been three weeks since you stopped answering my calls, and one month since the las time I saw you. I’m missing you a lot.
I don’t blame you, you now think the worst of me, don’t you? If I was in your place, I’m sure I would. But you also didn’t give me an opportunity to explain you what happened, I hope that you won’t stop reading my letter. I poured my heart into this.
I remember that day, and the day before. You called me to hang out in your favourite bubble tea store. I told I wouldn’t make it, as I was extremely tired from the fansign I did in Apgujeong, then I travelled back to Gangnam and yes, I was very tired! All I wanted to do was sleep! And cuddle with you, but you weren’t by my side, I remember.
The clock marked five pm when my manager furiously knocked on my door. I was sleeping, as you probably guessed, and I turned moody. You know how much I dislike when someone interrupts my slumber. As I opened the door, Donghae-nim said two words only “It’s urgent”.
Donghae-nim told me about the terrific sales a rookie girl group’s. from the company I signed with, mini album had. The CEO was going nuts! He couldn’t believe his last creation didn’t do well, just like previous creation - me. What a ‘wonderful’ luck the PR team of the company already had a plan. Which involved my name.
The group made its appearance… I don’t recall at what show. My manager instructed me to wait for them outside the building. All I had to do was stand next to the most popular member, Bliss. Very simple, right? I told myself I’d call you once the show was over.
In the middle of our ‘gathering’, I saw my manager and he indicated me to get closer to her. I didn’t mind, it was the first time I actually had a conversation with her, anyway. We talked about music, and that’s it.
Then, the unexpected happened. Bliss mumbled about helping her group. She said she didn’t train four years for nothing. I didn’t get her idea, being honest. Out of the blue, she held my hand. I furrowed my eyebrows and as I was about to ask her ‘what the heck?’ She pulled me even closer and kissed my left cheek, almost my upper lip.
I left the building not only confused, but exasperated too. Donghae-nim told me I did a good job, but warmed me that depending on the music show’s rating points… well, the company would decide if releasing the pictures would be a great idea.
The music show had 23.7 rating points.
I trusted them.
Yet, the pictures were released.
I didn’t tell you anything, I found the whole thing very stupid. Now I reflect on my actions. How stupid of me, I should’ve called you, and assure that I’m 100% sure of what I feel.
I’m not going to lie, but I first saw our thing as an escape from my reality. I didn’t take it seriously. I’m sorry. However, as time went by, I realised how amazing you are, Sehun. I felt - and I’m still feeling - so lucky to have you by my side. What we have, because we still have it right? It’s so different. So special.
I mean, yeah, you’ve been on my mind since the first time I saw you. That’s no lie. However, you made me feel a lot of curiosity. Then, I got to know you better. Then, without wanting to admit it, I fell for you.
I fell for you so hard, Sehun. It’s cruel, you know? I should be the one making you crazy, etc… but you’re the one who has me worshiping the ground you walk on. Unfair.
I was bitten by the love-bug.
Now… please do me two favours. Answer me, will you forgive me? And get out of the car, please. Oh! Answer me when I can hear you, of course.
Yours,
Kim Jongin”
It took minutes for Sehun to wreck his fanboying state. He didn’t know whether to cry or laugh.
Finally, he got out of the car. He got startled when a familiar body back hugged him. It felt so right to be in his arms. Of the one and only, Kim Kai - no, scratch that, Kim Jongin.
“So, are things better now? Are we?” Kai kissed Sehun’s nape. His lover shivered.
“Why did it take you so long?”
“To become official? Sehun, you’re more than just a pretty face. I’m sorry if you feel I played with your emotions. It’s just that… I was afraid”.
Sehun turned around, Kai’s hold firm on his waist.
“I didn’t want to become official when I know what a mess I am. I mean, after our kiss, we see each other. Not as often as I’d like. I had tons of things to resolve before giving you what you deserve, which is the best. Of course”.
“Jongin, you’re making me look like a tomato!” Sehun hid his face in the crook of Jongin’s neck.
“Ah, it feels good when you say my real name. It’s been so long since I’ve wanted that…”
“Huh, cheesy!” Sehun caressed Jongin’s hair, tucked it lightly and crashed their lips together. After they shared a romantic kiss, “I’m hungry, let’s go to the bubble tea store” Sehun rested his head on his boyfriend’s shoulder.
“So, you’re my boyfriend, right?”
“You’re very awkward when trying to be romantic” Sehun complained, but knew he loved Jongin just the way he is.
“I’m trying” Jongin pecked Sehun’s nose “I better start now. Ehem, you can tell me your one hundred wishes and I’ll grand you ninety-nine of them”.
“Why only ninety-nine?”
“If you ever ask me to leave you. I’m sorry, dear, I won’t do it”.
“Aaaaaah, cute! Heh, you know what, as much as I love you… I have to close my fansite, I’m sorry. It feels weird to have a site dedicated to you know that I’ll probably have you for the eternity”.
“Do as you wish” Jongin kissed Sehun once more before they got interrupted by Sehun’s obnoxious friends.
“GUYS! GET INSIDE! YOUR CUTENESS IS TIRING!” Chanyeol shouted. He opened the door, a giggling Baekhyun could be found behind his tall figure.
“Shut up!” Jongin hissed.
“Nah, just let them be”.
“What were we doing?” Jongin playfully pecked Sehun’s luscious lips and backed off.
“Stop it! Now… we will stick together, through thin and thick, fine?”
“Absolutely”
“What about the rest of the world?” Sehun’s eyes shined with a sparkle of adoration, and love.
“We’ll find a way, always. Give me your full trust and I promise you I won’t ever defraud you. I’ll always keep your precious little heart”.
And Sehun did trust him.
世界
Bliss who? Idol Kim Kai seeing unknown hottie… Prepare yourself for a real match made in heaven.
“Do you think it was a good idea?” Chanyeol asked Baekhyun. The two developed a special relationship since Sehun’s breakdown way back when he didn’t want to attend Kai’s fanmeeting.
Baekhyun asked Chanyeol out for a friendly breakfast.
“Obviously. Kai said they’d go public; he didn’t specify how. He asked for our help, don’t forget”. Baekhyun grinned mischievously…
No big deal. When Kai and Sehun confessed their feelings for each other, it just happened that Baekhyun took nice pictures of the moment.
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