#31 Wish List (You’re my priority) {1/2}
Title: Wish List (You’re my priority)
Prompt: #31
Rating: PG-15
Length: ~15900 words
Side pairings: Chanyeol/Baekhyun
Summary: Sehun was infatuated with Kai; it was no secret that photography was one of his passions. Likewise, the mix between his two favourite things was merely exquisite.
Warning(s): Slight mentions of alcohol, slight(?) angst, foul language {and some lame jokes}.
Notes: Thank you so much, you, who created the fabulous prompt #31. Hopefully you’ll like what I wrote, I promise you I did my best! Well, hopefully all of you who’ll read this, ehm - thing - will like it!:) Any feedback is greatly appreciated.
Enjoy!
"Get out of the way!"
"Don't push!"
"Hey! Don't ruin my pictures!"
As much as Sehun hated listening to the same things all over again, which basically consisted of screaming, he always found a reason of bearing them. At least, he was aware of the fact if he wanted to see his precious ray of sunshine, he needed to endure some pushes, scratches and sometimes, in extreme situations, a little bit of kicks.
Sehun was a normal guy, really. If you had to know three basic aspects of his life, those would be the following: he was twenty-two years old, studied online, and loved bubble tea. The only extraordinary aspect being that a year ago he started running a fansite dedicated to the Asia's First Love and Idol, Kim Kai.
His named his fansite Bookbear. Its name represented Kai the best. The artist was a book lover and the public tended to link his image with a sleepy bear.
One wouldn't expect him to dedicate half of his time to an idol rather than go clubbing with his friends. He had a bitchy expression on his face almost 24/7, and when he was smiley, his friends wouldn't stop cooing over him.
He had been present in a lot of music shows and official events. He had enough money to keep up with Kai's schedule. He yet had to attend a fansign. That being the only aspect where it seemed his luck was reduced to a null level. It always made him bitter, but the issue was quickly forgotten when he and his camera were able to capture the greatest of Kai... After all, he did own a prestigious website.
There were times where Sehun wondered why he decided to create a fansite. A few years ago he shared the same idea with his friend Chanyeol, only crazy fangirls would dedicate their life to someone who might never feel the same way as them.
Perhaps Kai's charms -body and personality- got him whipped. Hard. Yeah, that was the main reason.
So there he was, behind a huge crowd, trying to take pictures. He was aware that he did it not only because he was infatuated with Kai; it was no secret that photography was one of his passions. Likewise, the mix between his two favourite things was merely exquisite.
"You know, you're such a mess. This is screwed up. Ha! Can you imagine what your parents would do to you if they knew what you're into?" Chanyeol snorted as he amusedly watched Sehun doing ninja moves in order to take perfect pictures.
"Stop it! Would you?" Sehun glared at his best friend. "It would take them years to find out. Plus, it's not like I spend all my money on him... Not at all." He shrugged.
"Are you counting your trips? I'm quite sure traveling from one country to another to witness his concert, that you've already seen a hundred times, is more than just spending a little amount of money."
"Why are you complaining, though? I thought you liked it when I invite you to travel with me."
Chanyeol's grin disappeared from his face.
"That's more like it." Sehun smirked at his poker-faced friend. "Besides, keep in mind what I'm going to say... More than just doing this 'mess' for a personal benefit, I help International fans to know what's going on with Kai. It's no bad."
"Awww, you're so sweet." Chanyeol formed a heart with his hands. "May you receive the whole love that exists in the universe." He teased. "But yeah, whatever. You win, fine?"
"You're impossible, but thank you." Sehun gave him a quick hug before returning his attention toward a certain tan male who was beautifying the red carpet.
He's so breathtaking, thought Sehun while looking at him, at Kim Kai. He was posing for the fansite masters.
If Sehun was excluded, all of them were female.
Although Sehun was the only male fansite master, his muse didn't acknowledge his existence at all. During events, Kai would smile at his direction but they were still missing eye contact- they were still missing something that would delight Sehun's existence.
Sehun wanted so bad to shine above the rest. He was exasperated.
世界
"Kai! Kai-ssi! There are strong rumours about your comeback, which is supposedly next week. Is this correct?" An MBC reporter asked, trying to maintain her balance as she was being squeezed by the savage crowd.
"Well, I wanted it to be a surprise but since you guys rushed it, I might as well confirm those rumours." Jongin flashed a teasing smile.
"Could you please tell us your newest album's name?"
"Ah! I'm sorry but I already gave you a huge spoiler. Believe me, the wait is going to be worth it."
"Not even a hint?" The woman raised her eyebrows.
"Flowers" The celebrity playfully said. "Do you like them? If yes, then you may like my recent work." Kai's intense gaze focused on the camera. "Are you that excited?" He commented as pure joy started shining in his eyes.
"Of course! Don't you have any message for your fans?"
"As usual, I want to thank them for their amazing support and love. Without them, it wouldn't be possible for me to be right here. I promise you guys I'm going to give you a high quality album." He said and made a little heart with his fingers as more screams could be heard.
"Look at them, you're very loved."
"I am." Kai agreed, his eyes scanning his surroundings. Until a few months ago, he decided he would start to analyse the crowd. He saw tons of gorgeous faces, girls dressed up all beautiful even though the majority of them were only there to show support because they weren't capable of entering such a fancy event.
As he inspected his fans, he caught a glimpse of magnificent eyes.
Their colour was a pretty brown. But that's wasn't all of it, he detected something different (perhaps, more admiration than desire) in them. He lifted his head a little bit more and he saw a peculiar male among the sea of women. He instantly felt curious when he discovered that those eyes belonged to him, a good-looking young guy.
However, his eyes widened when he saw the camera that the guy was holding.
A fan? This is new... Kai concluded.
"Kai? Kai-ssi? Did you listen to what I said?" The reporter broke Kai's train of thought.
"Uhm... Sorry, could you please repeat it?" Kai asked with a shy smile.
"The media is curious whether you have a hidden lover or not? There must be a massive inspiration behind your songs".
"Actually, I don't." Kai chuckled. "I always put passion in every lyric. There's not even one meaningless song to me. They all are special. I think that I write love songs because when I really have a lover, then I can serenade one song that's totally written by me!"
The reporter seemed unimpressed, as if Kai gave her an expected answer. "Ah! Kai! You're as mysterious as ever," she grinned "but thank you for taking your time and conceding us this brief interview." The woman said, now facing the camera. "This is it, ladies and gentlemen. Our favourite knight is returning next week! Make sure to show him lots of love!"
Kai bowed and entered the cinema, for he was attending a movie premier. Although he couldn't remember the name of the film he would watch.
Suddenly, his thoughts were directed to a certain boy... He is probably taking pictures for her sister, he shrugged, he may even be a Dispatch worker, he chuckled. It seemed logic. It's wasn't because he hadn't any fanboys, but it was rare to find a male fansite master.
He shook his head and decided to enjoy the rest of the night. He had a rough schedule ahead of him.
世界
"Did you see that? Did you fucking see that?" Sehun said to his best friend.
Sehun was feeling dizzy, not in a bad way though.
After the event ended, the tall males decided to take a break at Chanyeol's apartment, he lived with other two guys whose names were Kyungsoo and Minseok.
Sehun lived alone. Well, kind of.
He shared a big house with his high school friend, Junmyeon. Both knew each other since they were ten years old. They had a nice relationship, so when they found out they wanted to assist to the same University, with the exception that Sehun would choose online classes, the two planned on living together. Thus, they'd divide the house maintenance.
After almost two years, Junmyeon would often be flying back and forth.
First, his career required him to travel more than what he wanted to, he took courses that assured him would make him an excellent professional. Second, his family moved to Japan. So when he didn't have any classes or courses to be taken care of, he'd buy a plane ticket and would only tell Sehun a thousands of 'sorry' and 'Chanyeol doesn't mind if you're in apartment, right?'... Of course, Sehun was a good friend and always listened to what his hyungs told him.
Sehun squeezed his eyes shut.
"Sehun, calm down." Chanyeol lightly patted his pal's shoulder, at which Sehun blinked.
"I know, I know. The Kim Kai finally looked at you. I must congratulate you... You just achieved every fansite master's dream." He was happy for his friend; it was about time he received a kind gesture in return. Not that Kai was rude to Sehun, but he disliked the idea of him being ignored by his idol. It must hurt.
"He saw me. Yeol, what a wonderful time to be alive! Ha, I'm not even sure if I took quality pictures... But who cares?" Sehun said with excitement. He didn't expect to be noticed among the mass, for he had been at other events and he seemed invisible for his Kai. However, that day the odds were in his favour.
He knew he would always remember that night, Kai looked extremely handsome and he, for the first time ever, noticed Sehun.
"So tonight you won't upload any previews, or what are you planning to do?" Chanyeol inquired.
"Maybe I will upload a collage with two or three pictures. Two times." Sehun quickly took his phone out of his pocket, synchronising his camera with the device, and started doing his collage. When he finished, he added his logo "Bookbear - For Kim Kai, with endless love."
Being the incredible strict master-nim he was (according to Chanyeol), Sehun had SNS accounts were he uploaded in an ordered manner all of his Kai's previews and HQs. He was a mess on Weibo though, his cousin Yixing has been absent during two weeks so Sehun didn't have Mandarin lessons for that amount of time and he was just a starter, he had a lot to learn. Twitter was his best ally, "Bookbear0112" had more than two hundred thousand followers. It was Sehun's baby, he truly liked using Twitter.
"Done!" Sehun said with a raised fist. "I'm so happy, Yeol! With the way things are going on, I can probably attend my first fansign ever in the next two weeks! You know, now that Kai will have a comeback."
"Of course you're happy. How long has it been since the last time you called me Yeol? Mmmm... Yes, it's been a long time, Se- ouch! The fuck!" Chanyeol growled as he rubbed his left arm, where Sehun just hit him.
"Sehun! Chanyeol! Shut up! I'm trying to sleep!" Kyungsoo shouted from the room next to Chanyeol's, the walls were thin enough to permit a fluid conversation.
Indeed, the clock on the nightstand marked two a.m.
"Sorry!" Both boys answered, they knew better than to mess up with Chanyeol's roommate. After whispering few words full of 'love' to each other, they went to sleep. Sehun had a huge smile plastered on his face...
It's getting better...
世界
"You've got everything set up?" Even though Minseok didn't like the way Sehun expressed his love and admiration for Kai, he had to admit it made the boy happy so he let it be. Also, his roommate's best friend was very responsible with his university's duties, thus it meant he did a great balance between his 'kAi I LOVEYOU UUU, let mEe father yor kidsjcmcmdmd' side with his real life.
Sehun reviewed the list written on his iPhone notes.
Camera - checked.
Backpack - checked.
KIM KAI official lightstick - checked.
KIM KAI physical album & digital download voucher - checked.
KIM KAI fanclub card - checked.
I.D. - checked.
Kai fulfilled his promise, he had a comeback a week after the interview with MBC. The name of his newest album was "Of love and other types of poison". Since it was Kai who released the album, Sehun's brains registered it as cool. If it was from any other artist, there were high probabilities he would thought the title was too much for his likings.
"Yeah! I have all the requirements to enter a music show. Let's go!" Sehun said before storming out of the apartment, Minseok quietly followed him.
Minseok drove all the way to Inkigayo. Sehun knew he was in a risky situation since music shows didn't allow fansite masters to take photos from their favourite artist's performance, but he went for it anyway. It was an easy job to fool security guards, if you were intelligent enough.
Once they reached their destination, Minseok wished Sehun good luck and drove back to his apartment, where a delicious meal prepared by Kyungsoo and a sleepy Chanyeol (even if it was past afternoon) were waiting for him. Sehun got in line just in time. There were only fifty fans waiting for the doors to open, but a few minutes later a bunch of people arrived at the place.
While waiting for his turn, he appreciated Kai's album. It contained photographs of Kai with flowers as the background. A lot of flowers were displayed, and if it was possible, they made Kai's image more alluring.
"Isn't he precious?" A stranger whispered in his ear.
Sehun got startled. "Excuse me?! Who do you think you are you-" wait, Sehun turned his face... a guy?
"Surprise!" The mysterious boy laughed. "Don't worry, master-nim." He winked at Sehun. "I'm simply curious. You know? It's weird to see a male fansite master, I'm one, in case you didn't notice." He secretly showed his camera. "PríncipeEncantador... And you are?"
Yes, it was definitely not common to someone like Sehun. He blinked. "Bookbear."
"The Bookbear? Wow! Forgive me, my King." He bowed at Sehun and the Highness almost rolled his eyes. "My name's Baekhyun,"The weird guy-- no, Baekhyun smiled "really, I'm happy I finally met the one behind Bookbear. You know? Your site is well-known in the fandom." Then, Baekhyun's eyes widened. "W-wait! How is it that you're not creating more fuzz?" He realised. "I mean, no offence, but as a guy, a handsome one- ehem, how is it that the rest of fansite masters are ignoring you?!"
Sehun awkwardly caressed his nape, that was an issue he found hard to explain. "To be honest, I'm not sure. I mean, I... I've been here since the beginning, but I barely speak with the others" He then remembered, "One time a girl confused me with a Dispatch paparazzi" He laughed "I never corrected her. I prefer to let them believe what they want. At the end of the day, I know who I am".
"I think that explains everything" Baekhyun teased. "Nice story. Anyway, what's your name?"
Was it safe to tell to this Baekhyun his name? Maybe it wasn't, but he was tired of being an outsider. "I'm Sehun. And don't you worry, peasant, you're forgiven." He teasingly smiled at his probably new friend. "You're new, right? I've never seen you before." He gestured toward the crowd.
"Hmmm" Baekhyun stroked his chin, wanting to remember the moment he decided to become a fansite master, "I'm kind of new, yeah" he shrugged "I started liking Kai since his debut days but I didn't have the money nor the time to own a fansite. Recently I started working and when I have a little bit of free time, I like to see what's up with Kai, just like now".
"It's interesting, isn't it? Good luck, Baekhyun. Who knows, you may be a huge fansite master in the future" Sehun encouraged him, he knew there were occasions when being a fansite owner was more stressful than anything else.
"Thank you, Sehun." Baekhyun placed his arm around the fansite master's shoulders. "Let's wait together, there's still a long line."
世界
Once they entered the studio, it felt overwhelming to Sehun to stand once again in front of Kim Kai. As odd as it sounds, he never got used to that feeling. He still got nervous when seeing his idol. He still tiptoed to have a greater view of Kai, although he was already tall enough. He still got goosebumps when he heard hundreds of voices chanting the same name.
Maybe he wasn't an ordinary fansite master after all.
He wanted to have more control over his emotions, he knew he could scare someone when being too expressive.
However, deep inside he believed that was what made him different from the rest.
He seemed to be a serious guy, it was a simple facade. But when he was genuinely interested he could puke rainbows, he thought. Why should he lie? It's just that he thought not everybody deserved to see that side of him. He preferred to be safe behind his false attitude, he didn't need any heartache.
Although he wasn't sure which side he should show Kai, if he ever got a chance to personally greet him.
Sehun was amazed. He was fascinated by Kai's recent song, "Didn't imagine you would..." The song told the story of a boy suffering the betrayal of his lover. The rhythm was alluring, it was sensual. The singer provided a high quality song, per usual. He claimed number one spot on real-time music charts with his recent release.
The stage was adorned with flowers, specially Gardenias. It was decorated with Roses, too. Sehun felt as if he was in Fairyland, everything was pretty fancy.
And let's not talk about Kai! Sehun knew he probably seemed hypnotised, perhaps he was drooling.
Kai wore a nice black suit. He looked so sexy with his hair pushed back. Sehun swore he always did it on purpose, to wear simply clothes yet look absolutely enchanting. Kai's movements were smooth and delightful, rolling his hips while holding his microphone and smirking at the audience. He knew the power he had over his fans, and he never wasted it. Indeed, a lot of people would agree to the next statement, "When the Kim Kai dances, it is as if he is giving you a private show."
"It's as if he's going to fuck with you" Said Chanyeol once.
Call him a horny guy (or a baby faced pervert, in Chanyeol's perspective) but Sehun couldn't agree more.
Ironic, considering the fact that instead of having a lustful gaze, his stare resembled more of a teenager looking at her crush when he says 'hi'. 'He said hi, we're getting married!!!11!', that kind.
"Holy, I thought he couldn't get any hotter" Baekhyun was standing next to Sehun, as he said so, it reminded the latter to hold his camera and start capturing Kai's performance. "Well, year after year he gets better, huh?" Sehun stated.
Both males turned their faces and gave Kai their full attention.
"Yes!!!! I'm feeling your passion, Kai! Wooooooooho!" Baekhyun shouted as loud as he could.
Geez. Sehun decided to pretend Baekhyun wasn't with him at all. Instead, he continued taking his pictures.
When the performance ended, Kai blew kisses to his fans. Anyhow, as Sehun was still taking his pictures, he got to immortalise the exact instant Kai eyed him. He looked right at his camera.
So you're here
The singer was captivated by his fansite master's face since he the first time he saw him back at a movie premier. Kai couldn't deny he was a looker.
He decided a bit of play wouldn't hurt anyone, so he maintained their eye-camera contact and winked only for him, only for that handsome boy being clutched by a group of girls. Albeit the crowd went wild thinking it merely was an act of his seductive nature.
Moreover, when Sehun was looking at his pictures and Kai was waving goodbye at the fans, the first one almost choked on air.
Sehun stared in awe at his photos. His muse looked absolutely appealing but that wasn't the main reason as of why he felt shy and his cheeks flushed a pretty shade of pink. There was a particular amount of pictures where he clearly appreciated how Kai's gaze was aimed at him, he was seductively biting his lower lip too.
Sehun raised his eyes and saw how Kai had his back facing him, he was walking to the music show's backstage while his manager that was beside him was giving him some orders and what nots.
Abruptly, the idol stopped in his track and looked over to the sea of people once again, ignoring his managers' attempts of getting him back to work. He wanted to go for a little more.
He searched in the audience for that boy who made him feel an extreme curiosity. Kai knew it wasn't that usual to have a male fansite master, he even thought of the probability of him being a Dispatch paparazzi. However, deep inside he liked the idea of the guy being a real aficionado. He wanted to try out his luck.
Once he found him, it was easy for Kai to kept the eye-contact as the boy already was eagerly looking at him. Kai briefly studied the eyes that were full of excitement and affection. He concluded that they should be on the list of 'the most beautiful pair of eyes he has ever seen'. It made him genuinely smile. He always felt grateful for the love and support his fans gave him. But knowing that there was a boy who seemed totally smitten for him, and the chances he had a site dedicated to him were high, made Kai a little too captivated.
He gave him a gentle smile, then he continued listening to his manager.
Kai decided that he approved of the boy.
Sehun was sure he would have been on the floor if Baekhyun wasn't there holding him tight and eyeing him as if he had grown three heads. "You, lucky bastard" his newest friend whispered "Care to explain how that happened?" Baekhyun wanted answers, he wouldn't let Sehun go away easily.
Sadly, not even Sehun could comprehend what the heck just happened. He was waiting for the moment his alarm of 7:45 a.m. would wake him up.
It never occurred.
世界
Three weeks after the incident, Sehun still couldn't believe how things changed with Kai.
All that time he diligently went to every single event of him. Making sure to never miss a moment of that precious brand new era. An era that was kind enough to let him feel connected with Kai in a more personal level, for he never thought he would ever have had a freaking lot of eye-contact and an exchange of mischievous smiles.
The odds were in his favour.
Every music show contained a different surprise.
For example, when Kai was performing his new song in The Show, the singer directly pointed at Sehun when he sang one of the naughtiest lines...
"You, the one who I want to defile. You, the only one who appears in my dreams."
He also wouldn't forget Kai's dancing, how his hips were absolutely alluring. When the beat dropped in the song, Kai did a powerful thrust and then processed to laugh. It was almost a cynic laugh.
Ah, he perfectly knew how to use his body to express himself.
What a little tease.
He was aware that it made him no different. No matter how much he wanted to. He thought that everyone who truly was a dedicated fan, at some point, would be living the dream (a.k.a being capable of creating memories with his idol, events that would only be known between them).
Everything felt a little too surreal.
Even when he spent time with his friends, they could notice how Sehun's enthusiasm was kind of collapsed, not in a bad way though. It was as if the boy had experienced something that made his emotions numb.
The last week consisted of Sehun letting go his shocked state and deciding to simply live the dream.
So there he was... Patiently waiting alongside Baekhyun. The boys were outside Mnet Countdown studio. Mnet had the privilege of providing Kai's Goodbye Stage. Bookbear and PríncipeEncantador were ready to later provoke nose bleeds and heart attacks with the help of their weapons, their beloved cameras.
"It's not as if I'm going to have a chance with him, will I?" Sehun said half excited half panicked to Baekhyun. The other fansite master was biting his nails, mildly distracted but paying attention to Sehun nonetheless.
"Who knows? There are 50% of probabilities that you may get closer with him. Don't expect much though" Baekhyun warned "Kai is a cute ball of fluffiness with his fans but that doesn't mean he is like that in all aspects of his life. You know..." He sighed "we tend to idealise our crush, but he's only human. Keep it in mind."
Sehun agreed. As much as he wanted to feel like the only boy in the world (at least, in Kai's world), he decided to be cautious. A heartbreak was a heartbreak.
"I know, Baek," He entwined said male's fingers with his "thank you for being with me all this time. I know we share similar interests, but I truly think of you as a friend. A fantastic one".
"A fucking fabulous one" Baekhyun corrected. Then, his gaze diverted to Sehun's face and he remembered something he was curious about since the first time he met a certain guy when he picked up Sehun to attend a TVC Special.
"Yeah, I'm the best one" he started, "but how's the one that was at your apartment? Last Thursday, I believe".
"How is he? Or... Who is he, do you mean?" Sehun inquires, shrieking.
"Yah! I'm just trying to socialise more by getting to know your friends. Aren't you thrilled? I'm trying, you know", Baekhyun was greatly offended. Most likely, embarrassed.
"Well, if you say so... How kind of you, though!" Sehun wiggled his eyebrows in a feigned way. "Who are you referring to? I- well, the apartment isn't my proper domicile but yeah, I kind of spend most of my time there anyways" he peeked around the street just in time to see more fans arriving at the place, "are you referring to Chanyeol? The tall guy whose facial expression consists of apparently being in awestruck 24/7?"
"In awestruck? C'mon! He's fine, man, he is so damn fine" Baekhyun contradicted "Fight me".
Sehun didn't know whether to laugh or cry hot tears of anger.
How did Bakehyun dare to remark that Chanyeol was way hotter than him?
As reality hit Baekhyun hard, he strutted away from Sehun. He wanted to avoid the awkwardness that would surely follow his confession. Lucky him, as Sehun cackled and started shouting his name, an executive asked for the fans' attention.
"Kai fans! Please, Kai fans, pay attention to what I'm going to say because I'm not going to repeat it" the man exclaimed as he studied the crowd "You may already know, today's Kai's Goodbye Stage" fans were whining "Silence! So... He has a special announcement for you all! Please wait until we reveal our winner from this week. Kai will come back after that... Got it?"
It was amusing seeing all the fans nodding. A few of them were crying, the emotion being too much to contain.
"Saved by the bell," was the only phrase Sehun whispered to Baekhyun before they entered the music show instalments.
世界
"I'm nervous," Sehun said out of the blue.
"Why? Is it because you're afraid he might make a move on you? Ah! don't be shy I-"
"Ugh no! Well, not in that sense," Sehun observed a few fans retouching their makeup. "I guess it's just sadness? It will be until the next few months that he will release new music. I don't want this" he gestured with his hand his camera, showing off the latest Kai pictures he took, "to end".
"So you don't like the idea of him forgetting who you are?" Baekhyun understood Sehun. After all, even Sehun knew that by getting a little bit of recognition by Kai's side, it didn't mean he'd maintain a sort of contact with the idol.
"Yes... I think so" Sehun sighed.
"Don't let it consume you! Just enjoy it while it lasts," Baekhyun playfully smacked an anxious Sehun on his forehead.
"Don't ruin my face! You just said it! If I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts, I might as well be appealing," he grunted.
Suddenly, all the lights went off. A sweet sound followed, a violinist was transmitting her emotions. It sounded passionate, yet melancholic. If you could relate it with something, that something would be the precise instant when lovers were tightly hugging each other, not wanting to bid their goodbyes.
Sehun felt ridiculous, but he momentarily imagined himself and Kai as a couple dancing to the rhythm.
Kai's performance was one of the best ones in his career, perhaps. He always knew how to communicate with his dancing skills, but that day he danced with so much passion and concentration that not even a scream could be heard. Everybody's attention entirely focused on Kai. Not daring to interrupt his stage.
Even Sehun stopped taking pictures. He simply admired the guy in front of him. Forgetting for a brief moment that he was an idol. Instead, he thought of him as a masterpiece.
When the music ended, the spectators were a little late when it came to give the artist a round of applause. How could you blame them, though? They were dazed, in general, by Kai's existence.
"Is this a dream? Or is this our reality?" Baekhyun pinched his left thigh.
"Uhm, I think this is real life," Sehun's voice cracked. He was greatly impressed, although he was aware of Kai's abilities, he witnessed how talented Kai got as the time went by.
"Punch me," Baekhyun tugged Sehun's t-shirt, almost whimpering "ugh! It's- I mean, why is he so perfect? Not fair!! We're suffering, aren't we?"
Alright, Baekhyun was a lowkey drama lover.
"Wait, what?"
Before Sehun could continue on rambling about what the heck was going on with his friend, a female spoke loudly.
"Guys! Kai's going to come back in forty minutes, hopefully he will take this week's trophy home. Until then, enjoy the rest of the acts".
For forty minutes Sehun watched a lot of groups perform, he felt overwhelmed by the amount of rookies. It's not that he didn't want new idols for the upcoming generations, it's just that he lost count on how many rookies debuted per year, or per month.
Am I getting too old?
"Good evening, South Korea!" Irene, current MC of Mnet Countdown, greeted "this week has been a tough fight for the number one spot. Are you ready to congratulate the winner?"
Loud cheers filled the place.
"The battle is between Kim Kai and Boy's Generation! Should we proceed to show the results?"
The MC announced the points each artist had, and after confirming that Kai was the winner of the week, confetti and flowers were thrown at his direction. A special way of saying thank you for his hard work.
"Thank you! It's been a though week, it's pretty hard to say goodbye to you guys. I'm sure I'll miss you a lot. Although I have a tight schedule, the promotion of a new album is the funniest thing to do!" Kai commented, sighing profoundly.
Aside his passion, what made Kai special was that he genuinely seemed to care about his fans.
"We love you!"
"Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!"
"Kai oppa, you're my everything!"
He smiled sheepishly, he would never get tired of hearing his admirers' confessions.
"I'm familiar with how you guys feel! I once was a fan, you know, right? My dream was to perform next to Michael Jackson," he paused for a few seconds "but know that I have you, you are my dream". Of course Kai loved to practice the correct ways of flirting.
"So, the things is... I have a surprise! But wait, wait" he laughed when his ears captured the fans screams and cries, some sounds between those. "I'm going to hold a fanmeeting party, uh... "Yours", that's the name"
Mine
As if...
It's ok to pretend, isn't it?
"Please, visit my official page to check out all the details. I promise you! you won't regret it"
Kai wasn't a fan of the famous aegyo, which is when someone behaves in a coquette-ish -and maybe childish- manner. He himself knew he lacked of cute characteristics, but at least he tried.
Yeah. The Kim Kai did the bbuing bbuing.
"Please?"
He swore he saw a fan fainting.
But once again, he caught a glimpse of a beautiful set of features. Features that for the last weeks had been chasing his mind, perhaps too much for his liking. Wasn't it supposed to be fun? Seducing and confuse someone else's mind?
He didn't consider himself a playboy. But he knew he was no saint.
However, he had felt so stressed for the past few months prior to his comeback.
Kai do this, Kai do that, Kai you better get shit together...
He only wanted to leave his routine, and probably be more daring. But he didn't expect the tide of his game to change.
It didn't fit with his image.
The strategy of fooling around with random girls or boys, even.
At least, not with the image he displayed offstage.
The real Kim Kai.
Kim Jongin.
世界
Sehun had a deep conversation with Chanyeol later that night. They were sitting on the benches outside the apartment, the garden was a rather calm location to distract themselves from the real world.
Or it depends, if you think two boys discussing strategies to get into a hot celebrity's pants was deep, then it surely was.
"So, is he giving you the green light?"
"I don't know?" Sehun laid his head on his right hand, and yawned "I'm planning to attend his fanmeet though. From what I understood, he will be lurking around the place, I may encounter him" he straighten his posture and his eyes gleamed.
"You must look the best possible, you don't wish to be defeated by an army of crazy girls... Do you?" Chanyeol looked directly into the eyes of friend.
"It's not like any of us has a chance with him,"
It hurt.
"Goodnight, Yeol"
"Ah, sorry... I didn't-"
"It doesn't matter. Don't feel burdened. I'm thankful I have you guys to control my fantasies"
Not even a word was uttered after Sehun left the garden, and Chanyeol, behind.
世界
"You don't need to go, you HAVE to go," A furious Baekhyun almost yelled at Sehun, who was hiding behind a bathroom door.
Very immature, per se.
The night after conversing with Chanyeol, it took a while before Sehun fell asleep.
He sent his application form in order to attend Kai's special event, at two in the morning. He was anxious. He even had to call Baekhyun, who greeted him with a gracious "what the fuck, do you even know what time is it?"
They spent some minutes arguing about true friendship.
Then, it was decided that if both were selected, they'd plan something to get Kai's attention. Baekhyun suggested a rather violent strategy, it was quickly discarded.
It didn't went the way they wanted it though, Sehun was the only one who got an email.
He was scrolling drown his iPhone when a certain notification made him feel all giddy and he almost lost his sanity. Perhaps that's why he spilled his morning coffee on Kyungsoo's cookbook. The other was preparing a healthy breakfast, but as soon as he saw the mess the boy did, he had to count from ten to zero, he practically felt himself bubbling up with anger.
The not-so-pleasant emotion dissipated when Sehun hugged him tight and ah, the boy even had a glassy stare.
"And you're clinging on to me like a baby koala because..."
"I did it! I'm in!"
"I'm not a prophet, Sehun. Mind to explain?" Kyungsoo rested a hand Sehun's back and caress it indolently to make Sehun a bit serene.
"I just received an email from Kai's staff! Here! Read it!" Sehun shoved his phone in Kyungsoo's face.
How bad he didn't realise his front camera was on, poor Kyung. He noticed how weird his hair looked, he forgot to comb it before heading toward his beloved kitchen.
"Sehun! Show me the email, I don't need to appreciate my face. I know I'm handsome but I'm humble too" Kyungsoo attempted to joke with his thrilled friend.
"Ah! I'm sorry!" Sehun giggled and then proceed to give Kyungsoo his phone. This time, he opened the right app.
Kyungsoo's eyes widened even more than the usual when in fact, he read the invitation Kai's staff sent to Sehun. He couldn't help but now be the one that hugged Sehun and muttered some sincere words, "I'm glad, Sehun. You made it"
Nonetheless, those moments were long forgotten.
Sehun was hiding in Chanyeol's bathroom.
Inhaling, then exhaling.
It was the big day when he decided not to go to the awaited event. He was fucking hyperventilating.
It was easier said than done.
"Call me an idiot" Sehun said loudly, for 'his fansite's other half' could listen to him "but Baekhyun, I don't think I'll have the guts to even breath when I see him".
"At least you'd die from happiness!" Baekhyun face-palmed so hard he almost highfived with a confused Chanyeol, said guy was standing behind the petit boy.
"Yeah, that's because you wouldn't be surrounded by another two hundred and forty-nine females! Do you-" Sehun's voice cracked "do you have an idea of how awkward the event will be for me, the whole night?"
Baekhyun then lowered his head, and sighed profoundly.
But he understood what Sehun meant to say.
He faced a similar situation when he first joined Kai's fandom. As far as he knew, half of South Korea's female population were in love with the idol. He came from a pretty much rich family, and he decided to buy a decent camera to take pictures when seeing Kai in person. Soon, a little action took him to a different level when he created a blog to post all of his adventures.
Yet, he still felt like an intruder.
Baekhyun pressed his back against the firm wood of the door as he slid down to sit on the floor.
"Uhm... Do you want me to help you?" Chanyeol asked, he didn't know the guy, but it was undeniable how close he was to Sehun.
"No, this will be a talk between professional stalkers in denial. Thanks, though" Baekhyun's beautiful hands motioned for Chanyeol to go to the living room, where Minseok and Kyungsoo exchanged knowing glances.
He shooed Chanyeol away. With manners, obviously.
"Ah, you see... Sehun, I'm aware of your nervousness and you probably want to throw yourself off a cliff... But, please, this an opportunity that comes once in a lifetime!"
Baekhyun's heart nearly broke when he heard Sehun's sobs. It was terrible to see his friend in such a state. He'd do everything in his power to comfort him.
"I know... And that's what making me see red everywhere!"
"Wait, are you sick?"
"No, Baekhyun. I'm mad, I'm mad at my pathetic self-"
"Woah, slow down there..."
"Sorry" Sehun sniffed.
"You're not pathetic. We're not pathetic, got it? You're scared because you don't know how Kai will react when he spots you, among a group of girls, but you know what? Screw it! You yourself said a few weeks ago that you'd be living the dream. It doesn't matter if you're a guy. Heck, I also wouldn’t mind if I had a fansite master just like you! Kai should feel blessed he has someone like you! Hmm? Plus, he already acknowledges your existence! I mean, those glances and those fucking kisses he blows at you, and I mean it. As crazy as it sounds, but those special brief moments are meant for you. Don't let anyone take your dreams away from you. You've worked hard, and you deserve to meet Kai. Please".
By the time Bakehyun finished his emotional speech, he already was standing firmly on his feet. He noticed how the attention of Sehun's friend was on him, too. They observed him with cautiousness, admiring the brave spirit he possessed.
Little by little, Sehun opened the door, peeking his head out.
His eyes were puffy and red, clear signs of his previous crying session. He looked wrecked, it only made Baekhyun to quickly reach Sehun and gently hold his face with his hands.
"Is it better now?"
"Yes, it is," Sehun was grateful he had such wonderful friends he could count on with. "Thank you, Baekhyun hyung" he grinned idiotically.
"Yah! You've never used the honorifics when you're speaking to me, don't use them now," Baekhyun dropped his left hand to rest on Sehun's shoulder and gave him a gentle squeeze.
Sehun nodded, he after persuaded his hyungs to help him. After all, he still didn't have a proper outfit.
Baekhyun almost yelled for the second time in a single day.
"And you say this, like," Baekhyun twisted his wrist and glanced at his newly acquired watch "three and half hours before the fanmeeting. Great".
"There's plenty of time! I was ready for my high school's graduation ceremony exactly forty minutes before it started," Minseok announced proudly, Chanyeol replied with a "That's nothing, I was ready fifteen minutes before. I was busy with this girl you see-"
"Shut up!" Kyungsoo hissed. He grabbed Chanyeol by his ear and gestured at Sehun "let's not make this a 'Who got ready for the party in the less amount of time' competition, shall we?"
"You mom," Baekhyun laughed hard and lightly slapped his knee when crouching down from not being able to contain his emotions "and saviour".
Sehun examined the scene in front of him. His jaw sort of fell when he watched how Baekhyun winked at Chanyeol, the stoic giant now with a conflicted facial expression.
"He tames you, eh? It'd be fun to be in his place! Not in this instant, though. We have some work to do!" He rushed out of the hall they were talking in, and left a perplexing Chanyeol and a group of friends making fun of him.
"For real, we need to buy Sehun a suit for the occasion".
世界
"You're rich, but damn..."
"Coex Mall? It's not that expensive!"
"Speak all by yourself, heir. There are people, like me, who cannot party till the sun's down,"
"Chanyeol,"
"Right, let's finish this quickly and get yourself a nice suit. To impress and to provoke".
"Chanyeol,"
"Guys, stop!" Baekhyun interrupted the dispute between Sehun and Chanyeol, "we have two hours and eighteen minutes left... From what we have seen, it's unquestionable, Kai swings both ways. Maybe he swings more with- Uhm- he may prefer the d over a p,"
"The d over a p?" Chanyeol huffed, his nostrils flared a tad bit "with those sinful hips, he better be a top otherwise I'll be hugely disappointed. Sehun, once you successfully seduce him, you must tell me your respective roles, s'right?"
Smack.
"Yeah, yeah. Whatever" Sehun crossed his arms and let out an exasperated groan "you guys got me all hyped up, don't cut my wings off".
"I've check on the Internet a few stores already, it shouldn't take us more than thirty minutes to purchase a new - and stylish - getup".
Baekhyun didn't lie.
He literally dragged the taller males and guided them by throughout the mall. In less than a blink of an eye, he was nudging clothes in Sehun's arms.
Subsequently, they found a perfect outfit.
"Really, if Kai doesn't want to ravish you and make you all his... I'll close my fansite" Baekhyun deadpanned.
Sehun looked ethereal.
It was more of a makeover what Baekhyun did to him, though.
His hair was now a shocking silver. The dye, one time use only - when the hair's washed, the colour will completely fade -, done by an act of impulse. And by an act of a mental breakdown...
"I'm so basic," Sehun whimpered.
"If you're basic, then what the heck is Chanyeol?"
"I can hear you, Kyungsoo," Chanyeol made his way till he stood next to his roommate, and tried to shoot him an accusing glare. "But if you're conflicted, Sehun, you can always try out something new".
He did follow Chanyeol's advice.
The silver contrasted with his black suit, although his coat shined in an interesting and elegant way, making him more appealing to the eye. He'd personify the temptation, just with how the tight pants hugged his long legs and revealed the silhouette of his subtle bottom.
Baekhyun insisted on using eyeliner, an essential for "giving a I-want-you-now look yet, not directly displaying your desire", creating thick kohl lines to complete Sehun's fierce attire.
"You'll get laid. If not by Kai, at least one of the girls will be interested in you! That's my kid!" Chanyeol, who was backed to the wall, putted his hands in front of his mouth and chin. Trying hard not to squeal at his kid's image.
"Uhm, thank you?"
"You're ready. That's what matters". Baekhyun's tone turned serious, "it's forty-five minutes till the party starts, let's go".
世界
When standing right outside the venue, Sehun didn't hide a mischievous grin.
He was nervous, sure. But now the adrenaline was winning the silent battle.
He felt the curious eyes of the girls set on him, he'd care if they were either judging him or adoring him, all he had on his mind was one goal.
One person.
Kim Kai.
And once inside, the atmosphere was rather cool.
It was an actual party, all fancy and offering wine glasses to enjoy the chit chatting. It was no normal fanmeeting. The occasion matched more with the description of a formal graduation party.
The speakers played loud music. The illumination was tender and the place looked half romantic and half with a clubbing vibe.
Sehun thought he may be in the wrong venue.
It was until he heard screams when he knew he was in the same ratio as Kai.
He stood still for a few heartbeats, he felt nauseous. He suddenly remembered his first date back in High School, with a girl he barely liked but due to Chanyeol’s insistence he had no other choice, but to attend the oh-so-awaited date. He remembered it clearly because he disliked it.
He was sure he’d always remember the moment he was currently experiencing. Not because he didn’t like it. He liked it. A fucking lot.
“Breathe. If you feel like exploding, congrats, it means you’re alive,” were the ‘soothing’ words Baekhyun told him before they reached their destination. The best hall for hosting parties in Seoul, Palacio.
He briefly closed his eyes and imagined a paradise. By paradise, he imagined himself and Kai gossiping with each other, forgetting the world around them… Ah, he relaxed.
But one thing was true, why imagine it when it could actually happen?
It was his opportunity, once in a lifetime. He should better make as much as he could; for he didn’t know if he could either befriend the celebrity or simply pass as another fan.
Here I come
He sauntered toward his target, and a girl thought it was a good idea to ask him “Excuse me, do you know where is the bathroom?”
Sehun tilted his head, raising both of his eyebrows. He incredulously replied, “Me?”
“Well, besides you and me, everyone’s hovering around Kai”
“Ah. Yes, I see…” He lied, he was focusing on Kai only that he didn’t notice the crowd, the wild crowd who almost ate Kai.
“So… Where are they?”
“I don’t know; I don’t work here. Why don’t you ask a waitress the same question?” Sehun recognized how rude he sounded, but for a moment it didn’t matter.
“Calm down, fanboy in disguise,” The girl challenged him.
“If I was in disguise, I wouldn’t even be here,” ha, take that “Weren’t you searching for the bathrooms. Anyway?”
“If you weren’t in disguise, you’d throw yourself at Kai just like the rest. It’s pretty clear, your eyes betray you”. Ha, never mind.
Sehun didn’t have a comeback for her statement, and he was embarrassed. It relieved him the fact he wasn’t the only one wanting to demonstrate Kai affection. Of course, he thought the perfect way to display his love was watching from far away.
“The bathrooms are at right, the last rooms”.
“Thank you” the sassy girl giggled, and gave Sehun a somewhat friendly smile. “I’m Sooyoung! And for the love of God, make your move already!” She did a poor attempt of a bow. She turned around, her gait reminded Sehun of an overly hyped bunny, and swiftly disappeared in the endless corridors.
That was strange
Sehun sighed, he knew that the night couldn’t end if something strange didn’t happen.
‘Make your move already’? Does she presume I’m here to get some chicks or what?
Moving on, he carried on with his plan.
Where is he? C’mon! Just five minutes ago he was being crowded and now he’s nowhere to be found?
Sehun inspected the venue.
Girls were fangirling right here and there. He caught some “He’s so smocking hot!! How am I supposed to survive for the next three hours?” and let’s not forget, “He was totally looking at me! You-“ Not even in public places the drama could be avoided.
Sehun deeply regretted not being able to watch Kai’s magnificent entrance. How much he wished he was right beside him, probably holding his left arm. Giving him a tender peck on the lips. Proudly screaming their love, so the whole wide world witnesses the right way of loving your other half…
If there’s something Sehun could do for hours, and not getting tired, was daydreaming. Perhaps it was a huge defect. The civilization could become mad yet it would most likely take him hours to find out.
Hence, it mildly shocked him when he felt a pair of big hands grabbing him by his arm and a sexy as hell voice mumbling over and over again a mantra, which consisted of “I’m sorry” “It’s so dark here, I… I should’ve been more careful!”
A lot of apologies weren’t necessary. He opened his mouth to tell the worried stranger to don’t lose his/her shit.
He didn’t manage to utter a simply sound, though.
The worried stranger wasn’t a stranger at all.
That’s because the stranger in front of him was none other than Kim Kai.
Sehun gulped. His heart skipped a beat. He was probably dead by then, or so he thought.
“Uhm… are you alright?” The angel-like voice asked.
“Me?” Sehun felt like Christmas day came earlier.
“Well, I didn’t spill my cup of wine on anyone else, did I?” Kai snorted awkwardly, he was actually trying to explode the stiffed bubble that surrounded him and his fansite master - not like Kai recognised the dazzling boy…
Or maybe Kai already knew more than just a tad bit.
Kai was in denial though. He had been indirectly stalking the boy.
Thanks to his good friend, Kim Hyoyeon - a worker at the music show locations, he assured himself that the boy was indeed a fansite master. At first, he had the impression Hyoyeon was making a fool out of him… Why would a gorgeous guy waste his time chasing him? He must really like you, was all his manager -Lee Donghae- said.
Yeah, when he was promoting his recent music he saw the tall male quite often. He saw him with a camera, too. But deep inside, Kai wanted to believe the guy was there just for the love of music… not because he was infatuated with him.
Heck! Kai even openly flirted with him.
It was on his last day of promotion when he discovered such wonderful fact.
Amusedly, Kai loved the idea of the drop-dead handsome guy being his fan. So, when he announced the fanmeeting, he secretly hoped he would be selected and get in.
Kai, through the years, memorised his fans’ faces. Not all of them, but he did his best. It surprised him how he didn’t notice the male fansite master previously. He probably was too distracted to scan the mob, but he thanked God his team told him to start to analyse them… the public.
He was risking way too much. He knew it.
And ridiculously, he got attached to the male with serious features. To the male that had a straight nose, pretty pink lips, and marvellous brown eyes. He didn’t know what to feel, because they never had any type of contact -besides the visual one.
And now, there he was.
Not sure if should he feel either happy or in fear, having thousands of pairs of eyes on you when being with your almost-crush wasn’t enjoyable. No.
“But yes… I’m sorry, your clothes seem new. I’m so ashamed”. Kai lowered his gaze a bit.
What a great start
“Oh no, it’s no problem!” You could step on me and I would still be thankful “Hehe. Are you enjoying the night?” yes Sehun, smooth.
“I am! It’s good to get to know you, guys. I mean, you’re my fan, right?”
“Ah, yeah- I mean, I am”.
“Awesome. And what do you think? Is the event of your liking? Do I look handsome enough?” Kai may be crossing the line. But it was now or never.
“It’s great, yes. It is. You know, I’m Sehun, I’ve been liking you since the beginning… I think I’m perhaps dreaming!” Sehun wanted to maintain his cool image, but he couldn’t help it! He was showing his eye smile off, not on purpose. He felt genuinely happy, even if he had no personal relation with the idol. He just felt somewhat more alive.
Sehun kept rambling on about his ceaseless love and admiration for the singer, and Kai’s heart inflated with a tender feeling.
The fanboy then shut up. He blushed. “I’m sorry, you didn’t ask about me and I just began to tell you the story of my life,”
“I never told you to stop” Kai smirked. As matter of a fact, he didn’t mind if the boy- no, if Sehun, talked about the most random topic with him. He would listen to him, either way.
“Oh,”
“Kai! Kai-ssi! Get your ass moving! You’ll be given your speech in five minutes!” A guy not too old, Sehun noticed, appeared and yanked Kai by his shoulders.
“Excuse me, Sehun,” He remembered my name asdjkfnlrl “I got to go. I’m enchanted to meet you,” Kai then hugged him “it’s nice to know I have male fans too, and handsome on top of that!”
Kai broke the hug and headed toward his manager.
Sehun pinched his hand. And he proved himself he didn’t hallucinated. The Kim Kai hugged him. He remembered his name, too.
He didn’t care of the confused and a little bit jealous stares directed at him, all he could see were the stars. And he thought he was 100% seeing the nirvana.
The rest of the night went wonderful.
Chanyeol was right, by the way.
When the music changed its tunes to a more danceable one, he didn’t hesitate. Sehun owned the dance floor. A great amount of girls took turns to have an opportunity and dance with the mysterious man who could compete with Kai’s looks. Perchance, Sehun developed his own fanbase.
Kai did his best and tried to have a chit-chat with all the attendees. From time to time, Sehun stole his attention, he was captivated. No doubt, he danced incredibly. And oh, how much Kai wanted to dance with him. For the sake of their own good, he resisted his urges.
Kai liked the sharp moves, in occasions those were smooth. However, the fansite master kind of hypnotized him.
When the clock hit eleven o’clock, there were thirty minutes before the event ended. Both, Kai and Sehun, were exhausted. Kai had to interact with everyone, while Sehun danced like there was no tomorrow.
Sehun strolled around the place and found a comforting spot. It was pretty distanced from the wild dance floor. He had no energy left. The adrenaline from his previous encounter with Kai already wasted.
The place was lit by the moonlight, and a certain idol found what his was looking for. Kai managed to sneak from the intrusive eyes of others. He needed to establish some sort of contact with his fan.
“Are you lost?”
Sehun was startled for a moment, he then caught his breath. “No, thanks for worrying-“
Once again, when he recognised the voice he felt nervous. He wasn’t expecting to encounter Kai. Not that it was bad, though.
One | Two
Prompt: #31
Rating: PG-15
Length: ~15900 words
Side pairings: Chanyeol/Baekhyun
Summary: Sehun was infatuated with Kai; it was no secret that photography was one of his passions. Likewise, the mix between his two favourite things was merely exquisite.
Warning(s): Slight mentions of alcohol, slight(?) angst, foul language {and some lame jokes}.
Notes: Thank you so much, you, who created the fabulous prompt #31. Hopefully you’ll like what I wrote, I promise you I did my best! Well, hopefully all of you who’ll read this, ehm - thing - will like it!:) Any feedback is greatly appreciated.
Enjoy!
"Get out of the way!"
"Don't push!"
"Hey! Don't ruin my pictures!"
As much as Sehun hated listening to the same things all over again, which basically consisted of screaming, he always found a reason of bearing them. At least, he was aware of the fact if he wanted to see his precious ray of sunshine, he needed to endure some pushes, scratches and sometimes, in extreme situations, a little bit of kicks.
Sehun was a normal guy, really. If you had to know three basic aspects of his life, those would be the following: he was twenty-two years old, studied online, and loved bubble tea. The only extraordinary aspect being that a year ago he started running a fansite dedicated to the Asia's First Love and Idol, Kim Kai.
His named his fansite Bookbear. Its name represented Kai the best. The artist was a book lover and the public tended to link his image with a sleepy bear.
One wouldn't expect him to dedicate half of his time to an idol rather than go clubbing with his friends. He had a bitchy expression on his face almost 24/7, and when he was smiley, his friends wouldn't stop cooing over him.
He had been present in a lot of music shows and official events. He had enough money to keep up with Kai's schedule. He yet had to attend a fansign. That being the only aspect where it seemed his luck was reduced to a null level. It always made him bitter, but the issue was quickly forgotten when he and his camera were able to capture the greatest of Kai... After all, he did own a prestigious website.
There were times where Sehun wondered why he decided to create a fansite. A few years ago he shared the same idea with his friend Chanyeol, only crazy fangirls would dedicate their life to someone who might never feel the same way as them.
Perhaps Kai's charms -body and personality- got him whipped. Hard. Yeah, that was the main reason.
So there he was, behind a huge crowd, trying to take pictures. He was aware that he did it not only because he was infatuated with Kai; it was no secret that photography was one of his passions. Likewise, the mix between his two favourite things was merely exquisite.
"You know, you're such a mess. This is screwed up. Ha! Can you imagine what your parents would do to you if they knew what you're into?" Chanyeol snorted as he amusedly watched Sehun doing ninja moves in order to take perfect pictures.
"Stop it! Would you?" Sehun glared at his best friend. "It would take them years to find out. Plus, it's not like I spend all my money on him... Not at all." He shrugged.
"Are you counting your trips? I'm quite sure traveling from one country to another to witness his concert, that you've already seen a hundred times, is more than just spending a little amount of money."
"Why are you complaining, though? I thought you liked it when I invite you to travel with me."
Chanyeol's grin disappeared from his face.
"That's more like it." Sehun smirked at his poker-faced friend. "Besides, keep in mind what I'm going to say... More than just doing this 'mess' for a personal benefit, I help International fans to know what's going on with Kai. It's no bad."
"Awww, you're so sweet." Chanyeol formed a heart with his hands. "May you receive the whole love that exists in the universe." He teased. "But yeah, whatever. You win, fine?"
"You're impossible, but thank you." Sehun gave him a quick hug before returning his attention toward a certain tan male who was beautifying the red carpet.
He's so breathtaking, thought Sehun while looking at him, at Kim Kai. He was posing for the fansite masters.
If Sehun was excluded, all of them were female.
Although Sehun was the only male fansite master, his muse didn't acknowledge his existence at all. During events, Kai would smile at his direction but they were still missing eye contact- they were still missing something that would delight Sehun's existence.
Sehun wanted so bad to shine above the rest. He was exasperated.
世界
"Kai! Kai-ssi! There are strong rumours about your comeback, which is supposedly next week. Is this correct?" An MBC reporter asked, trying to maintain her balance as she was being squeezed by the savage crowd.
"Well, I wanted it to be a surprise but since you guys rushed it, I might as well confirm those rumours." Jongin flashed a teasing smile.
"Could you please tell us your newest album's name?"
"Ah! I'm sorry but I already gave you a huge spoiler. Believe me, the wait is going to be worth it."
"Not even a hint?" The woman raised her eyebrows.
"Flowers" The celebrity playfully said. "Do you like them? If yes, then you may like my recent work." Kai's intense gaze focused on the camera. "Are you that excited?" He commented as pure joy started shining in his eyes.
"Of course! Don't you have any message for your fans?"
"As usual, I want to thank them for their amazing support and love. Without them, it wouldn't be possible for me to be right here. I promise you guys I'm going to give you a high quality album." He said and made a little heart with his fingers as more screams could be heard.
"Look at them, you're very loved."
"I am." Kai agreed, his eyes scanning his surroundings. Until a few months ago, he decided he would start to analyse the crowd. He saw tons of gorgeous faces, girls dressed up all beautiful even though the majority of them were only there to show support because they weren't capable of entering such a fancy event.
As he inspected his fans, he caught a glimpse of magnificent eyes.
Their colour was a pretty brown. But that's wasn't all of it, he detected something different (perhaps, more admiration than desire) in them. He lifted his head a little bit more and he saw a peculiar male among the sea of women. He instantly felt curious when he discovered that those eyes belonged to him, a good-looking young guy.
However, his eyes widened when he saw the camera that the guy was holding.
A fan? This is new... Kai concluded.
"Kai? Kai-ssi? Did you listen to what I said?" The reporter broke Kai's train of thought.
"Uhm... Sorry, could you please repeat it?" Kai asked with a shy smile.
"The media is curious whether you have a hidden lover or not? There must be a massive inspiration behind your songs".
"Actually, I don't." Kai chuckled. "I always put passion in every lyric. There's not even one meaningless song to me. They all are special. I think that I write love songs because when I really have a lover, then I can serenade one song that's totally written by me!"
The reporter seemed unimpressed, as if Kai gave her an expected answer. "Ah! Kai! You're as mysterious as ever," she grinned "but thank you for taking your time and conceding us this brief interview." The woman said, now facing the camera. "This is it, ladies and gentlemen. Our favourite knight is returning next week! Make sure to show him lots of love!"
Kai bowed and entered the cinema, for he was attending a movie premier. Although he couldn't remember the name of the film he would watch.
Suddenly, his thoughts were directed to a certain boy... He is probably taking pictures for her sister, he shrugged, he may even be a Dispatch worker, he chuckled. It seemed logic. It's wasn't because he hadn't any fanboys, but it was rare to find a male fansite master.
He shook his head and decided to enjoy the rest of the night. He had a rough schedule ahead of him.
世界
"Did you see that? Did you fucking see that?" Sehun said to his best friend.
Sehun was feeling dizzy, not in a bad way though.
After the event ended, the tall males decided to take a break at Chanyeol's apartment, he lived with other two guys whose names were Kyungsoo and Minseok.
Sehun lived alone. Well, kind of.
He shared a big house with his high school friend, Junmyeon. Both knew each other since they were ten years old. They had a nice relationship, so when they found out they wanted to assist to the same University, with the exception that Sehun would choose online classes, the two planned on living together. Thus, they'd divide the house maintenance.
After almost two years, Junmyeon would often be flying back and forth.
First, his career required him to travel more than what he wanted to, he took courses that assured him would make him an excellent professional. Second, his family moved to Japan. So when he didn't have any classes or courses to be taken care of, he'd buy a plane ticket and would only tell Sehun a thousands of 'sorry' and 'Chanyeol doesn't mind if you're in apartment, right?'... Of course, Sehun was a good friend and always listened to what his hyungs told him.
Sehun squeezed his eyes shut.
"Sehun, calm down." Chanyeol lightly patted his pal's shoulder, at which Sehun blinked.
"I know, I know. The Kim Kai finally looked at you. I must congratulate you... You just achieved every fansite master's dream." He was happy for his friend; it was about time he received a kind gesture in return. Not that Kai was rude to Sehun, but he disliked the idea of him being ignored by his idol. It must hurt.
"He saw me. Yeol, what a wonderful time to be alive! Ha, I'm not even sure if I took quality pictures... But who cares?" Sehun said with excitement. He didn't expect to be noticed among the mass, for he had been at other events and he seemed invisible for his Kai. However, that day the odds were in his favour.
He knew he would always remember that night, Kai looked extremely handsome and he, for the first time ever, noticed Sehun.
"So tonight you won't upload any previews, or what are you planning to do?" Chanyeol inquired.
"Maybe I will upload a collage with two or three pictures. Two times." Sehun quickly took his phone out of his pocket, synchronising his camera with the device, and started doing his collage. When he finished, he added his logo "Bookbear - For Kim Kai, with endless love."
Being the incredible strict master-nim he was (according to Chanyeol), Sehun had SNS accounts were he uploaded in an ordered manner all of his Kai's previews and HQs. He was a mess on Weibo though, his cousin Yixing has been absent during two weeks so Sehun didn't have Mandarin lessons for that amount of time and he was just a starter, he had a lot to learn. Twitter was his best ally, "Bookbear0112" had more than two hundred thousand followers. It was Sehun's baby, he truly liked using Twitter.
"Done!" Sehun said with a raised fist. "I'm so happy, Yeol! With the way things are going on, I can probably attend my first fansign ever in the next two weeks! You know, now that Kai will have a comeback."
"Of course you're happy. How long has it been since the last time you called me Yeol? Mmmm... Yes, it's been a long time, Se- ouch! The fuck!" Chanyeol growled as he rubbed his left arm, where Sehun just hit him.
"Sehun! Chanyeol! Shut up! I'm trying to sleep!" Kyungsoo shouted from the room next to Chanyeol's, the walls were thin enough to permit a fluid conversation.
Indeed, the clock on the nightstand marked two a.m.
"Sorry!" Both boys answered, they knew better than to mess up with Chanyeol's roommate. After whispering few words full of 'love' to each other, they went to sleep. Sehun had a huge smile plastered on his face...
It's getting better...
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"You've got everything set up?" Even though Minseok didn't like the way Sehun expressed his love and admiration for Kai, he had to admit it made the boy happy so he let it be. Also, his roommate's best friend was very responsible with his university's duties, thus it meant he did a great balance between his 'kAi I LOVEYOU UUU, let mEe father yor kidsjcmcmdmd' side with his real life.
Sehun reviewed the list written on his iPhone notes.
Camera - checked.
Backpack - checked.
KIM KAI official lightstick - checked.
KIM KAI physical album & digital download voucher - checked.
KIM KAI fanclub card - checked.
I.D. - checked.
Kai fulfilled his promise, he had a comeback a week after the interview with MBC. The name of his newest album was "Of love and other types of poison". Since it was Kai who released the album, Sehun's brains registered it as cool. If it was from any other artist, there were high probabilities he would thought the title was too much for his likings.
"Yeah! I have all the requirements to enter a music show. Let's go!" Sehun said before storming out of the apartment, Minseok quietly followed him.
Minseok drove all the way to Inkigayo. Sehun knew he was in a risky situation since music shows didn't allow fansite masters to take photos from their favourite artist's performance, but he went for it anyway. It was an easy job to fool security guards, if you were intelligent enough.
Once they reached their destination, Minseok wished Sehun good luck and drove back to his apartment, where a delicious meal prepared by Kyungsoo and a sleepy Chanyeol (even if it was past afternoon) were waiting for him. Sehun got in line just in time. There were only fifty fans waiting for the doors to open, but a few minutes later a bunch of people arrived at the place.
While waiting for his turn, he appreciated Kai's album. It contained photographs of Kai with flowers as the background. A lot of flowers were displayed, and if it was possible, they made Kai's image more alluring.
"Isn't he precious?" A stranger whispered in his ear.
Sehun got startled. "Excuse me?! Who do you think you are you-" wait, Sehun turned his face... a guy?
"Surprise!" The mysterious boy laughed. "Don't worry, master-nim." He winked at Sehun. "I'm simply curious. You know? It's weird to see a male fansite master, I'm one, in case you didn't notice." He secretly showed his camera. "PríncipeEncantador... And you are?"
Yes, it was definitely not common to someone like Sehun. He blinked. "Bookbear."
"The Bookbear? Wow! Forgive me, my King." He bowed at Sehun and the Highness almost rolled his eyes. "My name's Baekhyun,"The weird guy-- no, Baekhyun smiled "really, I'm happy I finally met the one behind Bookbear. You know? Your site is well-known in the fandom." Then, Baekhyun's eyes widened. "W-wait! How is it that you're not creating more fuzz?" He realised. "I mean, no offence, but as a guy, a handsome one- ehem, how is it that the rest of fansite masters are ignoring you?!"
Sehun awkwardly caressed his nape, that was an issue he found hard to explain. "To be honest, I'm not sure. I mean, I... I've been here since the beginning, but I barely speak with the others" He then remembered, "One time a girl confused me with a Dispatch paparazzi" He laughed "I never corrected her. I prefer to let them believe what they want. At the end of the day, I know who I am".
"I think that explains everything" Baekhyun teased. "Nice story. Anyway, what's your name?"
Was it safe to tell to this Baekhyun his name? Maybe it wasn't, but he was tired of being an outsider. "I'm Sehun. And don't you worry, peasant, you're forgiven." He teasingly smiled at his probably new friend. "You're new, right? I've never seen you before." He gestured toward the crowd.
"Hmmm" Baekhyun stroked his chin, wanting to remember the moment he decided to become a fansite master, "I'm kind of new, yeah" he shrugged "I started liking Kai since his debut days but I didn't have the money nor the time to own a fansite. Recently I started working and when I have a little bit of free time, I like to see what's up with Kai, just like now".
"It's interesting, isn't it? Good luck, Baekhyun. Who knows, you may be a huge fansite master in the future" Sehun encouraged him, he knew there were occasions when being a fansite owner was more stressful than anything else.
"Thank you, Sehun." Baekhyun placed his arm around the fansite master's shoulders. "Let's wait together, there's still a long line."
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Once they entered the studio, it felt overwhelming to Sehun to stand once again in front of Kim Kai. As odd as it sounds, he never got used to that feeling. He still got nervous when seeing his idol. He still tiptoed to have a greater view of Kai, although he was already tall enough. He still got goosebumps when he heard hundreds of voices chanting the same name.
Maybe he wasn't an ordinary fansite master after all.
He wanted to have more control over his emotions, he knew he could scare someone when being too expressive.
However, deep inside he believed that was what made him different from the rest.
He seemed to be a serious guy, it was a simple facade. But when he was genuinely interested he could puke rainbows, he thought. Why should he lie? It's just that he thought not everybody deserved to see that side of him. He preferred to be safe behind his false attitude, he didn't need any heartache.
Although he wasn't sure which side he should show Kai, if he ever got a chance to personally greet him.
Sehun was amazed. He was fascinated by Kai's recent song, "Didn't imagine you would..." The song told the story of a boy suffering the betrayal of his lover. The rhythm was alluring, it was sensual. The singer provided a high quality song, per usual. He claimed number one spot on real-time music charts with his recent release.
The stage was adorned with flowers, specially Gardenias. It was decorated with Roses, too. Sehun felt as if he was in Fairyland, everything was pretty fancy.
And let's not talk about Kai! Sehun knew he probably seemed hypnotised, perhaps he was drooling.
Kai wore a nice black suit. He looked so sexy with his hair pushed back. Sehun swore he always did it on purpose, to wear simply clothes yet look absolutely enchanting. Kai's movements were smooth and delightful, rolling his hips while holding his microphone and smirking at the audience. He knew the power he had over his fans, and he never wasted it. Indeed, a lot of people would agree to the next statement, "When the Kim Kai dances, it is as if he is giving you a private show."
"It's as if he's going to fuck with you" Said Chanyeol once.
Call him a horny guy (or a baby faced pervert, in Chanyeol's perspective) but Sehun couldn't agree more.
Ironic, considering the fact that instead of having a lustful gaze, his stare resembled more of a teenager looking at her crush when he says 'hi'. 'He said hi, we're getting married!!!11!', that kind.
"Holy, I thought he couldn't get any hotter" Baekhyun was standing next to Sehun, as he said so, it reminded the latter to hold his camera and start capturing Kai's performance. "Well, year after year he gets better, huh?" Sehun stated.
Both males turned their faces and gave Kai their full attention.
"Yes!!!! I'm feeling your passion, Kai! Wooooooooho!" Baekhyun shouted as loud as he could.
Geez. Sehun decided to pretend Baekhyun wasn't with him at all. Instead, he continued taking his pictures.
When the performance ended, Kai blew kisses to his fans. Anyhow, as Sehun was still taking his pictures, he got to immortalise the exact instant Kai eyed him. He looked right at his camera.
So you're here
The singer was captivated by his fansite master's face since he the first time he saw him back at a movie premier. Kai couldn't deny he was a looker.
He decided a bit of play wouldn't hurt anyone, so he maintained their eye-camera contact and winked only for him, only for that handsome boy being clutched by a group of girls. Albeit the crowd went wild thinking it merely was an act of his seductive nature.
Moreover, when Sehun was looking at his pictures and Kai was waving goodbye at the fans, the first one almost choked on air.
Sehun stared in awe at his photos. His muse looked absolutely appealing but that wasn't the main reason as of why he felt shy and his cheeks flushed a pretty shade of pink. There was a particular amount of pictures where he clearly appreciated how Kai's gaze was aimed at him, he was seductively biting his lower lip too.
Sehun raised his eyes and saw how Kai had his back facing him, he was walking to the music show's backstage while his manager that was beside him was giving him some orders and what nots.
Abruptly, the idol stopped in his track and looked over to the sea of people once again, ignoring his managers' attempts of getting him back to work. He wanted to go for a little more.
He searched in the audience for that boy who made him feel an extreme curiosity. Kai knew it wasn't that usual to have a male fansite master, he even thought of the probability of him being a Dispatch paparazzi. However, deep inside he liked the idea of the guy being a real aficionado. He wanted to try out his luck.
Once he found him, it was easy for Kai to kept the eye-contact as the boy already was eagerly looking at him. Kai briefly studied the eyes that were full of excitement and affection. He concluded that they should be on the list of 'the most beautiful pair of eyes he has ever seen'. It made him genuinely smile. He always felt grateful for the love and support his fans gave him. But knowing that there was a boy who seemed totally smitten for him, and the chances he had a site dedicated to him were high, made Kai a little too captivated.
He gave him a gentle smile, then he continued listening to his manager.
Kai decided that he approved of the boy.
Sehun was sure he would have been on the floor if Baekhyun wasn't there holding him tight and eyeing him as if he had grown three heads. "You, lucky bastard" his newest friend whispered "Care to explain how that happened?" Baekhyun wanted answers, he wouldn't let Sehun go away easily.
Sadly, not even Sehun could comprehend what the heck just happened. He was waiting for the moment his alarm of 7:45 a.m. would wake him up.
It never occurred.
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Three weeks after the incident, Sehun still couldn't believe how things changed with Kai.
All that time he diligently went to every single event of him. Making sure to never miss a moment of that precious brand new era. An era that was kind enough to let him feel connected with Kai in a more personal level, for he never thought he would ever have had a freaking lot of eye-contact and an exchange of mischievous smiles.
The odds were in his favour.
Every music show contained a different surprise.
For example, when Kai was performing his new song in The Show, the singer directly pointed at Sehun when he sang one of the naughtiest lines...
"You, the one who I want to defile. You, the only one who appears in my dreams."
He also wouldn't forget Kai's dancing, how his hips were absolutely alluring. When the beat dropped in the song, Kai did a powerful thrust and then processed to laugh. It was almost a cynic laugh.
Ah, he perfectly knew how to use his body to express himself.
What a little tease.
He was aware that it made him no different. No matter how much he wanted to. He thought that everyone who truly was a dedicated fan, at some point, would be living the dream (a.k.a being capable of creating memories with his idol, events that would only be known between them).
Everything felt a little too surreal.
Even when he spent time with his friends, they could notice how Sehun's enthusiasm was kind of collapsed, not in a bad way though. It was as if the boy had experienced something that made his emotions numb.
The last week consisted of Sehun letting go his shocked state and deciding to simply live the dream.
So there he was... Patiently waiting alongside Baekhyun. The boys were outside Mnet Countdown studio. Mnet had the privilege of providing Kai's Goodbye Stage. Bookbear and PríncipeEncantador were ready to later provoke nose bleeds and heart attacks with the help of their weapons, their beloved cameras.
"It's not as if I'm going to have a chance with him, will I?" Sehun said half excited half panicked to Baekhyun. The other fansite master was biting his nails, mildly distracted but paying attention to Sehun nonetheless.
"Who knows? There are 50% of probabilities that you may get closer with him. Don't expect much though" Baekhyun warned "Kai is a cute ball of fluffiness with his fans but that doesn't mean he is like that in all aspects of his life. You know..." He sighed "we tend to idealise our crush, but he's only human. Keep it in mind."
Sehun agreed. As much as he wanted to feel like the only boy in the world (at least, in Kai's world), he decided to be cautious. A heartbreak was a heartbreak.
"I know, Baek," He entwined said male's fingers with his "thank you for being with me all this time. I know we share similar interests, but I truly think of you as a friend. A fantastic one".
"A fucking fabulous one" Baekhyun corrected. Then, his gaze diverted to Sehun's face and he remembered something he was curious about since the first time he met a certain guy when he picked up Sehun to attend a TVC Special.
"Yeah, I'm the best one" he started, "but how's the one that was at your apartment? Last Thursday, I believe".
"How is he? Or... Who is he, do you mean?" Sehun inquires, shrieking.
"Yah! I'm just trying to socialise more by getting to know your friends. Aren't you thrilled? I'm trying, you know", Baekhyun was greatly offended. Most likely, embarrassed.
"Well, if you say so... How kind of you, though!" Sehun wiggled his eyebrows in a feigned way. "Who are you referring to? I- well, the apartment isn't my proper domicile but yeah, I kind of spend most of my time there anyways" he peeked around the street just in time to see more fans arriving at the place, "are you referring to Chanyeol? The tall guy whose facial expression consists of apparently being in awestruck 24/7?"
"In awestruck? C'mon! He's fine, man, he is so damn fine" Baekhyun contradicted "Fight me".
Sehun didn't know whether to laugh or cry hot tears of anger.
How did Bakehyun dare to remark that Chanyeol was way hotter than him?
As reality hit Baekhyun hard, he strutted away from Sehun. He wanted to avoid the awkwardness that would surely follow his confession. Lucky him, as Sehun cackled and started shouting his name, an executive asked for the fans' attention.
"Kai fans! Please, Kai fans, pay attention to what I'm going to say because I'm not going to repeat it" the man exclaimed as he studied the crowd "You may already know, today's Kai's Goodbye Stage" fans were whining "Silence! So... He has a special announcement for you all! Please wait until we reveal our winner from this week. Kai will come back after that... Got it?"
It was amusing seeing all the fans nodding. A few of them were crying, the emotion being too much to contain.
"Saved by the bell," was the only phrase Sehun whispered to Baekhyun before they entered the music show instalments.
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"I'm nervous," Sehun said out of the blue.
"Why? Is it because you're afraid he might make a move on you? Ah! don't be shy I-"
"Ugh no! Well, not in that sense," Sehun observed a few fans retouching their makeup. "I guess it's just sadness? It will be until the next few months that he will release new music. I don't want this" he gestured with his hand his camera, showing off the latest Kai pictures he took, "to end".
"So you don't like the idea of him forgetting who you are?" Baekhyun understood Sehun. After all, even Sehun knew that by getting a little bit of recognition by Kai's side, it didn't mean he'd maintain a sort of contact with the idol.
"Yes... I think so" Sehun sighed.
"Don't let it consume you! Just enjoy it while it lasts," Baekhyun playfully smacked an anxious Sehun on his forehead.
"Don't ruin my face! You just said it! If I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts, I might as well be appealing," he grunted.
Suddenly, all the lights went off. A sweet sound followed, a violinist was transmitting her emotions. It sounded passionate, yet melancholic. If you could relate it with something, that something would be the precise instant when lovers were tightly hugging each other, not wanting to bid their goodbyes.
Sehun felt ridiculous, but he momentarily imagined himself and Kai as a couple dancing to the rhythm.
Kai's performance was one of the best ones in his career, perhaps. He always knew how to communicate with his dancing skills, but that day he danced with so much passion and concentration that not even a scream could be heard. Everybody's attention entirely focused on Kai. Not daring to interrupt his stage.
Even Sehun stopped taking pictures. He simply admired the guy in front of him. Forgetting for a brief moment that he was an idol. Instead, he thought of him as a masterpiece.
When the music ended, the spectators were a little late when it came to give the artist a round of applause. How could you blame them, though? They were dazed, in general, by Kai's existence.
"Is this a dream? Or is this our reality?" Baekhyun pinched his left thigh.
"Uhm, I think this is real life," Sehun's voice cracked. He was greatly impressed, although he was aware of Kai's abilities, he witnessed how talented Kai got as the time went by.
"Punch me," Baekhyun tugged Sehun's t-shirt, almost whimpering "ugh! It's- I mean, why is he so perfect? Not fair!! We're suffering, aren't we?"
Alright, Baekhyun was a lowkey drama lover.
"Wait, what?"
Before Sehun could continue on rambling about what the heck was going on with his friend, a female spoke loudly.
"Guys! Kai's going to come back in forty minutes, hopefully he will take this week's trophy home. Until then, enjoy the rest of the acts".
For forty minutes Sehun watched a lot of groups perform, he felt overwhelmed by the amount of rookies. It's not that he didn't want new idols for the upcoming generations, it's just that he lost count on how many rookies debuted per year, or per month.
Am I getting too old?
"Good evening, South Korea!" Irene, current MC of Mnet Countdown, greeted "this week has been a tough fight for the number one spot. Are you ready to congratulate the winner?"
Loud cheers filled the place.
"The battle is between Kim Kai and Boy's Generation! Should we proceed to show the results?"
The MC announced the points each artist had, and after confirming that Kai was the winner of the week, confetti and flowers were thrown at his direction. A special way of saying thank you for his hard work.
"Thank you! It's been a though week, it's pretty hard to say goodbye to you guys. I'm sure I'll miss you a lot. Although I have a tight schedule, the promotion of a new album is the funniest thing to do!" Kai commented, sighing profoundly.
Aside his passion, what made Kai special was that he genuinely seemed to care about his fans.
"We love you!"
"Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!"
"Kai oppa, you're my everything!"
He smiled sheepishly, he would never get tired of hearing his admirers' confessions.
"I'm familiar with how you guys feel! I once was a fan, you know, right? My dream was to perform next to Michael Jackson," he paused for a few seconds "but know that I have you, you are my dream". Of course Kai loved to practice the correct ways of flirting.
"So, the things is... I have a surprise! But wait, wait" he laughed when his ears captured the fans screams and cries, some sounds between those. "I'm going to hold a fanmeeting party, uh... "Yours", that's the name"
Mine
As if...
It's ok to pretend, isn't it?
"Please, visit my official page to check out all the details. I promise you! you won't regret it"
Kai wasn't a fan of the famous aegyo, which is when someone behaves in a coquette-ish -and maybe childish- manner. He himself knew he lacked of cute characteristics, but at least he tried.
Yeah. The Kim Kai did the bbuing bbuing.
"Please?"
He swore he saw a fan fainting.
But once again, he caught a glimpse of a beautiful set of features. Features that for the last weeks had been chasing his mind, perhaps too much for his liking. Wasn't it supposed to be fun? Seducing and confuse someone else's mind?
He didn't consider himself a playboy. But he knew he was no saint.
However, he had felt so stressed for the past few months prior to his comeback.
Kai do this, Kai do that, Kai you better get shit together...
He only wanted to leave his routine, and probably be more daring. But he didn't expect the tide of his game to change.
It didn't fit with his image.
The strategy of fooling around with random girls or boys, even.
At least, not with the image he displayed offstage.
The real Kim Kai.
Kim Jongin.
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Sehun had a deep conversation with Chanyeol later that night. They were sitting on the benches outside the apartment, the garden was a rather calm location to distract themselves from the real world.
Or it depends, if you think two boys discussing strategies to get into a hot celebrity's pants was deep, then it surely was.
"So, is he giving you the green light?"
"I don't know?" Sehun laid his head on his right hand, and yawned "I'm planning to attend his fanmeet though. From what I understood, he will be lurking around the place, I may encounter him" he straighten his posture and his eyes gleamed.
"You must look the best possible, you don't wish to be defeated by an army of crazy girls... Do you?" Chanyeol looked directly into the eyes of friend.
"It's not like any of us has a chance with him,"
It hurt.
"Goodnight, Yeol"
"Ah, sorry... I didn't-"
"It doesn't matter. Don't feel burdened. I'm thankful I have you guys to control my fantasies"
Not even a word was uttered after Sehun left the garden, and Chanyeol, behind.
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"You don't need to go, you HAVE to go," A furious Baekhyun almost yelled at Sehun, who was hiding behind a bathroom door.
Very immature, per se.
The night after conversing with Chanyeol, it took a while before Sehun fell asleep.
He sent his application form in order to attend Kai's special event, at two in the morning. He was anxious. He even had to call Baekhyun, who greeted him with a gracious "what the fuck, do you even know what time is it?"
They spent some minutes arguing about true friendship.
Then, it was decided that if both were selected, they'd plan something to get Kai's attention. Baekhyun suggested a rather violent strategy, it was quickly discarded.
It didn't went the way they wanted it though, Sehun was the only one who got an email.
He was scrolling drown his iPhone when a certain notification made him feel all giddy and he almost lost his sanity. Perhaps that's why he spilled his morning coffee on Kyungsoo's cookbook. The other was preparing a healthy breakfast, but as soon as he saw the mess the boy did, he had to count from ten to zero, he practically felt himself bubbling up with anger.
The not-so-pleasant emotion dissipated when Sehun hugged him tight and ah, the boy even had a glassy stare.
"And you're clinging on to me like a baby koala because..."
"I did it! I'm in!"
"I'm not a prophet, Sehun. Mind to explain?" Kyungsoo rested a hand Sehun's back and caress it indolently to make Sehun a bit serene.
"I just received an email from Kai's staff! Here! Read it!" Sehun shoved his phone in Kyungsoo's face.
How bad he didn't realise his front camera was on, poor Kyung. He noticed how weird his hair looked, he forgot to comb it before heading toward his beloved kitchen.
"Sehun! Show me the email, I don't need to appreciate my face. I know I'm handsome but I'm humble too" Kyungsoo attempted to joke with his thrilled friend.
"Ah! I'm sorry!" Sehun giggled and then proceed to give Kyungsoo his phone. This time, he opened the right app.
Kyungsoo's eyes widened even more than the usual when in fact, he read the invitation Kai's staff sent to Sehun. He couldn't help but now be the one that hugged Sehun and muttered some sincere words, "I'm glad, Sehun. You made it"
Nonetheless, those moments were long forgotten.
Sehun was hiding in Chanyeol's bathroom.
Inhaling, then exhaling.
It was the big day when he decided not to go to the awaited event. He was fucking hyperventilating.
It was easier said than done.
"Call me an idiot" Sehun said loudly, for 'his fansite's other half' could listen to him "but Baekhyun, I don't think I'll have the guts to even breath when I see him".
"At least you'd die from happiness!" Baekhyun face-palmed so hard he almost highfived with a confused Chanyeol, said guy was standing behind the petit boy.
"Yeah, that's because you wouldn't be surrounded by another two hundred and forty-nine females! Do you-" Sehun's voice cracked "do you have an idea of how awkward the event will be for me, the whole night?"
Baekhyun then lowered his head, and sighed profoundly.
But he understood what Sehun meant to say.
He faced a similar situation when he first joined Kai's fandom. As far as he knew, half of South Korea's female population were in love with the idol. He came from a pretty much rich family, and he decided to buy a decent camera to take pictures when seeing Kai in person. Soon, a little action took him to a different level when he created a blog to post all of his adventures.
Yet, he still felt like an intruder.
Baekhyun pressed his back against the firm wood of the door as he slid down to sit on the floor.
"Uhm... Do you want me to help you?" Chanyeol asked, he didn't know the guy, but it was undeniable how close he was to Sehun.
"No, this will be a talk between professional stalkers in denial. Thanks, though" Baekhyun's beautiful hands motioned for Chanyeol to go to the living room, where Minseok and Kyungsoo exchanged knowing glances.
He shooed Chanyeol away. With manners, obviously.
"Ah, you see... Sehun, I'm aware of your nervousness and you probably want to throw yourself off a cliff... But, please, this an opportunity that comes once in a lifetime!"
Baekhyun's heart nearly broke when he heard Sehun's sobs. It was terrible to see his friend in such a state. He'd do everything in his power to comfort him.
"I know... And that's what making me see red everywhere!"
"Wait, are you sick?"
"No, Baekhyun. I'm mad, I'm mad at my pathetic self-"
"Woah, slow down there..."
"Sorry" Sehun sniffed.
"You're not pathetic. We're not pathetic, got it? You're scared because you don't know how Kai will react when he spots you, among a group of girls, but you know what? Screw it! You yourself said a few weeks ago that you'd be living the dream. It doesn't matter if you're a guy. Heck, I also wouldn’t mind if I had a fansite master just like you! Kai should feel blessed he has someone like you! Hmm? Plus, he already acknowledges your existence! I mean, those glances and those fucking kisses he blows at you, and I mean it. As crazy as it sounds, but those special brief moments are meant for you. Don't let anyone take your dreams away from you. You've worked hard, and you deserve to meet Kai. Please".
By the time Bakehyun finished his emotional speech, he already was standing firmly on his feet. He noticed how the attention of Sehun's friend was on him, too. They observed him with cautiousness, admiring the brave spirit he possessed.
Little by little, Sehun opened the door, peeking his head out.
His eyes were puffy and red, clear signs of his previous crying session. He looked wrecked, it only made Baekhyun to quickly reach Sehun and gently hold his face with his hands.
"Is it better now?"
"Yes, it is," Sehun was grateful he had such wonderful friends he could count on with. "Thank you, Baekhyun hyung" he grinned idiotically.
"Yah! You've never used the honorifics when you're speaking to me, don't use them now," Baekhyun dropped his left hand to rest on Sehun's shoulder and gave him a gentle squeeze.
Sehun nodded, he after persuaded his hyungs to help him. After all, he still didn't have a proper outfit.
Baekhyun almost yelled for the second time in a single day.
"And you say this, like," Baekhyun twisted his wrist and glanced at his newly acquired watch "three and half hours before the fanmeeting. Great".
"There's plenty of time! I was ready for my high school's graduation ceremony exactly forty minutes before it started," Minseok announced proudly, Chanyeol replied with a "That's nothing, I was ready fifteen minutes before. I was busy with this girl you see-"
"Shut up!" Kyungsoo hissed. He grabbed Chanyeol by his ear and gestured at Sehun "let's not make this a 'Who got ready for the party in the less amount of time' competition, shall we?"
"You mom," Baekhyun laughed hard and lightly slapped his knee when crouching down from not being able to contain his emotions "and saviour".
Sehun examined the scene in front of him. His jaw sort of fell when he watched how Baekhyun winked at Chanyeol, the stoic giant now with a conflicted facial expression.
"He tames you, eh? It'd be fun to be in his place! Not in this instant, though. We have some work to do!" He rushed out of the hall they were talking in, and left a perplexing Chanyeol and a group of friends making fun of him.
"For real, we need to buy Sehun a suit for the occasion".
世界
"You're rich, but damn..."
"Coex Mall? It's not that expensive!"
"Speak all by yourself, heir. There are people, like me, who cannot party till the sun's down,"
"Chanyeol,"
"Right, let's finish this quickly and get yourself a nice suit. To impress and to provoke".
"Chanyeol,"
"Guys, stop!" Baekhyun interrupted the dispute between Sehun and Chanyeol, "we have two hours and eighteen minutes left... From what we have seen, it's unquestionable, Kai swings both ways. Maybe he swings more with- Uhm- he may prefer the d over a p,"
"The d over a p?" Chanyeol huffed, his nostrils flared a tad bit "with those sinful hips, he better be a top otherwise I'll be hugely disappointed. Sehun, once you successfully seduce him, you must tell me your respective roles, s'right?"
Smack.
"Yeah, yeah. Whatever" Sehun crossed his arms and let out an exasperated groan "you guys got me all hyped up, don't cut my wings off".
"I've check on the Internet a few stores already, it shouldn't take us more than thirty minutes to purchase a new - and stylish - getup".
Baekhyun didn't lie.
He literally dragged the taller males and guided them by throughout the mall. In less than a blink of an eye, he was nudging clothes in Sehun's arms.
Subsequently, they found a perfect outfit.
"Really, if Kai doesn't want to ravish you and make you all his... I'll close my fansite" Baekhyun deadpanned.
Sehun looked ethereal.
It was more of a makeover what Baekhyun did to him, though.
His hair was now a shocking silver. The dye, one time use only - when the hair's washed, the colour will completely fade -, done by an act of impulse. And by an act of a mental breakdown...
"I'm so basic," Sehun whimpered.
"If you're basic, then what the heck is Chanyeol?"
"I can hear you, Kyungsoo," Chanyeol made his way till he stood next to his roommate, and tried to shoot him an accusing glare. "But if you're conflicted, Sehun, you can always try out something new".
He did follow Chanyeol's advice.
The silver contrasted with his black suit, although his coat shined in an interesting and elegant way, making him more appealing to the eye. He'd personify the temptation, just with how the tight pants hugged his long legs and revealed the silhouette of his subtle bottom.
Baekhyun insisted on using eyeliner, an essential for "giving a I-want-you-now look yet, not directly displaying your desire", creating thick kohl lines to complete Sehun's fierce attire.
"You'll get laid. If not by Kai, at least one of the girls will be interested in you! That's my kid!" Chanyeol, who was backed to the wall, putted his hands in front of his mouth and chin. Trying hard not to squeal at his kid's image.
"Uhm, thank you?"
"You're ready. That's what matters". Baekhyun's tone turned serious, "it's forty-five minutes till the party starts, let's go".
世界
When standing right outside the venue, Sehun didn't hide a mischievous grin.
He was nervous, sure. But now the adrenaline was winning the silent battle.
He felt the curious eyes of the girls set on him, he'd care if they were either judging him or adoring him, all he had on his mind was one goal.
One person.
Kim Kai.
And once inside, the atmosphere was rather cool.
It was an actual party, all fancy and offering wine glasses to enjoy the chit chatting. It was no normal fanmeeting. The occasion matched more with the description of a formal graduation party.
The speakers played loud music. The illumination was tender and the place looked half romantic and half with a clubbing vibe.
Sehun thought he may be in the wrong venue.
It was until he heard screams when he knew he was in the same ratio as Kai.
He stood still for a few heartbeats, he felt nauseous. He suddenly remembered his first date back in High School, with a girl he barely liked but due to Chanyeol’s insistence he had no other choice, but to attend the oh-so-awaited date. He remembered it clearly because he disliked it.
He was sure he’d always remember the moment he was currently experiencing. Not because he didn’t like it. He liked it. A fucking lot.
“Breathe. If you feel like exploding, congrats, it means you’re alive,” were the ‘soothing’ words Baekhyun told him before they reached their destination. The best hall for hosting parties in Seoul, Palacio.
He briefly closed his eyes and imagined a paradise. By paradise, he imagined himself and Kai gossiping with each other, forgetting the world around them… Ah, he relaxed.
But one thing was true, why imagine it when it could actually happen?
It was his opportunity, once in a lifetime. He should better make as much as he could; for he didn’t know if he could either befriend the celebrity or simply pass as another fan.
Here I come
He sauntered toward his target, and a girl thought it was a good idea to ask him “Excuse me, do you know where is the bathroom?”
Sehun tilted his head, raising both of his eyebrows. He incredulously replied, “Me?”
“Well, besides you and me, everyone’s hovering around Kai”
“Ah. Yes, I see…” He lied, he was focusing on Kai only that he didn’t notice the crowd, the wild crowd who almost ate Kai.
“So… Where are they?”
“I don’t know; I don’t work here. Why don’t you ask a waitress the same question?” Sehun recognized how rude he sounded, but for a moment it didn’t matter.
“Calm down, fanboy in disguise,” The girl challenged him.
“If I was in disguise, I wouldn’t even be here,” ha, take that “Weren’t you searching for the bathrooms. Anyway?”
“If you weren’t in disguise, you’d throw yourself at Kai just like the rest. It’s pretty clear, your eyes betray you”. Ha, never mind.
Sehun didn’t have a comeback for her statement, and he was embarrassed. It relieved him the fact he wasn’t the only one wanting to demonstrate Kai affection. Of course, he thought the perfect way to display his love was watching from far away.
“The bathrooms are at right, the last rooms”.
“Thank you” the sassy girl giggled, and gave Sehun a somewhat friendly smile. “I’m Sooyoung! And for the love of God, make your move already!” She did a poor attempt of a bow. She turned around, her gait reminded Sehun of an overly hyped bunny, and swiftly disappeared in the endless corridors.
That was strange
Sehun sighed, he knew that the night couldn’t end if something strange didn’t happen.
‘Make your move already’? Does she presume I’m here to get some chicks or what?
Moving on, he carried on with his plan.
Where is he? C’mon! Just five minutes ago he was being crowded and now he’s nowhere to be found?
Sehun inspected the venue.
Girls were fangirling right here and there. He caught some “He’s so smocking hot!! How am I supposed to survive for the next three hours?” and let’s not forget, “He was totally looking at me! You-“ Not even in public places the drama could be avoided.
Sehun deeply regretted not being able to watch Kai’s magnificent entrance. How much he wished he was right beside him, probably holding his left arm. Giving him a tender peck on the lips. Proudly screaming their love, so the whole wide world witnesses the right way of loving your other half…
If there’s something Sehun could do for hours, and not getting tired, was daydreaming. Perhaps it was a huge defect. The civilization could become mad yet it would most likely take him hours to find out.
Hence, it mildly shocked him when he felt a pair of big hands grabbing him by his arm and a sexy as hell voice mumbling over and over again a mantra, which consisted of “I’m sorry” “It’s so dark here, I… I should’ve been more careful!”
A lot of apologies weren’t necessary. He opened his mouth to tell the worried stranger to don’t lose his/her shit.
He didn’t manage to utter a simply sound, though.
The worried stranger wasn’t a stranger at all.
That’s because the stranger in front of him was none other than Kim Kai.
Sehun gulped. His heart skipped a beat. He was probably dead by then, or so he thought.
“Uhm… are you alright?” The angel-like voice asked.
“Me?” Sehun felt like Christmas day came earlier.
“Well, I didn’t spill my cup of wine on anyone else, did I?” Kai snorted awkwardly, he was actually trying to explode the stiffed bubble that surrounded him and his fansite master - not like Kai recognised the dazzling boy…
Or maybe Kai already knew more than just a tad bit.
Kai was in denial though. He had been indirectly stalking the boy.
Thanks to his good friend, Kim Hyoyeon - a worker at the music show locations, he assured himself that the boy was indeed a fansite master. At first, he had the impression Hyoyeon was making a fool out of him… Why would a gorgeous guy waste his time chasing him? He must really like you, was all his manager -Lee Donghae- said.
Yeah, when he was promoting his recent music he saw the tall male quite often. He saw him with a camera, too. But deep inside, Kai wanted to believe the guy was there just for the love of music… not because he was infatuated with him.
Heck! Kai even openly flirted with him.
It was on his last day of promotion when he discovered such wonderful fact.
Amusedly, Kai loved the idea of the drop-dead handsome guy being his fan. So, when he announced the fanmeeting, he secretly hoped he would be selected and get in.
Kai, through the years, memorised his fans’ faces. Not all of them, but he did his best. It surprised him how he didn’t notice the male fansite master previously. He probably was too distracted to scan the mob, but he thanked God his team told him to start to analyse them… the public.
He was risking way too much. He knew it.
And ridiculously, he got attached to the male with serious features. To the male that had a straight nose, pretty pink lips, and marvellous brown eyes. He didn’t know what to feel, because they never had any type of contact -besides the visual one.
And now, there he was.
Not sure if should he feel either happy or in fear, having thousands of pairs of eyes on you when being with your almost-crush wasn’t enjoyable. No.
“But yes… I’m sorry, your clothes seem new. I’m so ashamed”. Kai lowered his gaze a bit.
What a great start
“Oh no, it’s no problem!” You could step on me and I would still be thankful “Hehe. Are you enjoying the night?” yes Sehun, smooth.
“I am! It’s good to get to know you, guys. I mean, you’re my fan, right?”
“Ah, yeah- I mean, I am”.
“Awesome. And what do you think? Is the event of your liking? Do I look handsome enough?” Kai may be crossing the line. But it was now or never.
“It’s great, yes. It is. You know, I’m Sehun, I’ve been liking you since the beginning… I think I’m perhaps dreaming!” Sehun wanted to maintain his cool image, but he couldn’t help it! He was showing his eye smile off, not on purpose. He felt genuinely happy, even if he had no personal relation with the idol. He just felt somewhat more alive.
Sehun kept rambling on about his ceaseless love and admiration for the singer, and Kai’s heart inflated with a tender feeling.
The fanboy then shut up. He blushed. “I’m sorry, you didn’t ask about me and I just began to tell you the story of my life,”
“I never told you to stop” Kai smirked. As matter of a fact, he didn’t mind if the boy- no, if Sehun, talked about the most random topic with him. He would listen to him, either way.
“Oh,”
“Kai! Kai-ssi! Get your ass moving! You’ll be given your speech in five minutes!” A guy not too old, Sehun noticed, appeared and yanked Kai by his shoulders.
“Excuse me, Sehun,” He remembered my name asdjkfnlrl “I got to go. I’m enchanted to meet you,” Kai then hugged him “it’s nice to know I have male fans too, and handsome on top of that!”
Kai broke the hug and headed toward his manager.
Sehun pinched his hand. And he proved himself he didn’t hallucinated. The Kim Kai hugged him. He remembered his name, too.
He didn’t care of the confused and a little bit jealous stares directed at him, all he could see were the stars. And he thought he was 100% seeing the nirvana.
The rest of the night went wonderful.
Chanyeol was right, by the way.
When the music changed its tunes to a more danceable one, he didn’t hesitate. Sehun owned the dance floor. A great amount of girls took turns to have an opportunity and dance with the mysterious man who could compete with Kai’s looks. Perchance, Sehun developed his own fanbase.
Kai did his best and tried to have a chit-chat with all the attendees. From time to time, Sehun stole his attention, he was captivated. No doubt, he danced incredibly. And oh, how much Kai wanted to dance with him. For the sake of their own good, he resisted his urges.
Kai liked the sharp moves, in occasions those were smooth. However, the fansite master kind of hypnotized him.
When the clock hit eleven o’clock, there were thirty minutes before the event ended. Both, Kai and Sehun, were exhausted. Kai had to interact with everyone, while Sehun danced like there was no tomorrow.
Sehun strolled around the place and found a comforting spot. It was pretty distanced from the wild dance floor. He had no energy left. The adrenaline from his previous encounter with Kai already wasted.
The place was lit by the moonlight, and a certain idol found what his was looking for. Kai managed to sneak from the intrusive eyes of others. He needed to establish some sort of contact with his fan.
“Are you lost?”
Sehun was startled for a moment, he then caught his breath. “No, thanks for worrying-“
Once again, when he recognised the voice he felt nervous. He wasn’t expecting to encounter Kai. Not that it was bad, though.
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