It's strange to see that as things change, evolve and disappear, they stay familiar and simple at their roots. I realize now what I should have done long ago.. I should have moved on. I should have left. I should have started over, because all this town has done is cage me, eat me alive and hand me grief ( Read more... )

Tomorrow, at approximately 9 am central time, I will be moving out. Finally. It's been a crazy three years here and I've loved most of them... Newhall St 2003-2006.

Dear Troy ( Read more... )

I feel like something's wrong. Maybe it's cuz I drank beer, or because I worked crazy-ass hours this weekend but damn, something aint right. I feel dizzy and my heart's racing and I can't concentrate on anything important and idk guys, I feel so damn out of it. I'm trying to tell myself that I'm not suicidal, but shit I just don't know anymore. ( Read more... )

Arena

(known to self and others)
observant
Blind Spot

(known only to others)
complex, helpful, independent, intelligent, mature, nervous, reflective, shy, tense
Façade

(known only to self)
dependable, energetic, knowledgeable, loving, searching
Unknown

(known to nobody)
able, accepting, adaptable, bold, brave, calm, caring, cheerful, clever, ( Read more... )

Last night at around six PM, my step-father(my daddy) died. He collapsed on the living room floor and my little sister (sam) found him unconscious. The paramedics pronounced him dead a little over 30 minutes later. I'm not quite sure what happened, the autopsy hasn't revealed anything yet. Bryan was a healthy man, a loving father, a wonderful ( Read more... )

Random un-coolness hapened today with Troy. Long story short? I was awakened at 8 am and haven't really stopped crying since. Work was completely weird. I felt disconnected from my brain. I still do. I want to cry again but I won't let myself. It will only make my head hurt more. We had sex before he left, before we talked about what we were and ( Read more... )

I just bought some sort of workout kit. Allow 2-3 weeks for delivery. I thought it was a sign from my angels. I woke up and it was on... advertising the system for like ten bucks ( Read more... )

I've got to write a play for english class. It's gonna be about a man and a woman, bickering about everything and anything. They're going to be bored and sarcastic. I'm going to enjoy writing this one ( Read more... )

Troy and I got into this huge fight or something like that the night before last and it was kinda unsettling to know that last night he didn't really remember all of it. Hmmm.... Maybe we made a big deal out of nothing. I'm so freakin tired. My head hurts, my neck hurts. I think I have a sinus infection again. I kinda just want to go to sleep ( Read more... )