It's pretty sad that I don't even know who I am without you. I don't know happiness or laughter without you. I don't know how to be wholesome without you. Sickening I know. I don't even know who I am or what kind of a person I am without you. I don't know how to love another or myself without you. that's fucking sad. Its sad that I learned to love ( Read more... )

I play it off like I'm okay not being with you. And I guess I am a little selfish because I wanna be with you so your not with anyone else. I just don't understand how you tell me to my face that you love me and you can go fuck someone else a week later and be okay with me being with other guys. You make me so sick sometimes. I really wish we could ( Read more... )

Ugh. I should really start learning to control my anger. Its getting scary. One little thing pushes me over the edge and I'm ready to throw my fists up. Its extemely scary because I don't hate anyone enough to hurt them as much as I could. I don't know if I should go to anger management or what. I really don't know but I'm scared of me and I'm ( Read more... )

I think about it and my stomach just crawls. I have so much to look forward to this year - even though it didn't start well. I'm probably taking it WAY too seriously but it just bothers me that you could say 'no one heard from you' when I texted you an hour earlier about something to do. And to find out everyone went to erik's that night? AFTER I ( Read more... )

 I LOVE MY NEWWWW PONYYYYYY <<<<<<<33333333333   ahhhhhh. Jenn and I were talking about driving around. When you listen to acoustics, smoke a ciggy, and drive - life is always good. It doesn't matter what your mood is. Life will always be good. You just wanna keep driving. It's amazing. If this is incorrect, drive with jennifur and I. It's great.

For those of you who wanted to know:

Yes - My hopes are up for this animal. And yanno what? They're going to stay up. Because I'm not going to give up. I'm tired of people thinking I'm inexperienced. I CAN ride. I CAN handle a challange. I know what I'm doing. I'm young and I can take a few trips into the fences. And I'll get back on cause I'm not ( Read more... )

I didn't even know I could feel this way. I'm driving myself crazy not being around people for less than three hours. I love being alone and now I just don't want to be here. I make more than most people my age and somehow it's never enough. Nothing is ever enough, is it? My mom's in the other room digging for change and my brother, who has more ( Read more... )