I had a couple of kids. I really love them ( Read more... )

I have had a facial tick for 2 days. I just put it together that it acts up every time I look for egg donors. Ha hahahahahaha.

I have been married a year and a half. I married my police officer and he turned into some amalgamation of his father and what he imagines is a "good man" while I became a loving wife with many of the paranoias of my mother. We just woke up next to different people. He's still in there and so am I and we have spent the last year and half figuring ( Read more... )

Is it possible to be both content and depressed at the same time? I am newly married and in love. Our life together in these first months is wonderful so far. My partner is fantastic and sweet and considerate. My job is great. My home is great ( Read more... )

I am engaged to my police officer.

You won’t believe how much things have changed. When I look back at this time last year the contrast is almost laughable. I have found my partner. I continue to gain perspective and better understand myself and my history almost daily, but what I think I know so far is that all this time - all this frustration and disappointment was pretty much me ( Read more... )

I’m dating someone new. He’s a police officer for the federal government. He has a second job at a nonprofit. He is super tall and super handsome. He is also very sweet, smart, considerate and a little bit corny. We’ll call him Pol ( Read more... )

I meditated today. Once I was quiet long enough to hear the questions I was strongly with I felt like I actually got some answers. It is clear that with regard to Mark I need to just stop. Just stop trying completely. I am giving and giving and giving and I think it’s going to fix something for me, but I’m moving in the wrong direction. It’s the ( Read more... )

Ok. I also replied to 3 different craigslist postings. I feel... better.

Ok. I just reread the last 5 months. I do want to have a meaningful relationship. I don't want to have gross hook ups that make me feel bad about myself. But I NEED to get over Mark. I read how it was with him in the beginning and my GOD. It was so sweet and romantic and lovely. And he just bailed on me. And then he spent the next couple months ( Read more... )