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[malingerer]

I don't think it was a bad idea to quit my job. It was preventing me from looking for a full time, higher paying position, where I don't have interact with people all that much. I called my temp agency and let them know I was looking for work, and they kinda offered me a job, but it is not a sure thing yet. They told me they were going to fax my

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[ex_watermel328]

My therapist told me that the way he "cured" his social awkwardness was to start telling people about it. Like, he'd kind of make a joke when he first met someone. "I'm a bit of a social moron at things like this. Hahaha"

I can sort of see myself doing something similar because I always use humor to compensate for whatever. I guess the idea is just being honest and self-accepting about who you are. "Here I am, World. Deal with it."

What do you really wish you were doing in life? I mean, besides having sex with pregnant women? ;) (See? Humor, compensating for getting so serious there for a minute.)

[malingerer]

I had a good laugh there. Since you asked, I just wish I had done more with my life at this point. Everything that I think I am capable of doing but am not, such as going to school, keeping a decent job for a long period of time, getting along with everyone, not having trouble with women. What it comes down to though is I wish I had more confidence. I am one of those people that uses shoulda's, would'as, and but I's, very often, if you haven't noticed. I'm trying to change that. Sometimes though a little too much coffee gets me in a mood where I end up writing something like this. I then look back at it when things are a bit better, and feel dumb for writing it.

[ex_watermel328]

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So you told me (very vaguely) what you wish you HAD done, but what to do WANT to do? Like, if you had the confidence to do all those things everyone thinks you're capable of, what would you be doing?

I'd be a farmer/writer.

[malingerer]

Well, I'd like to go into psychology. I'm failing to really follow through with something like that mostly because it seems that in order to succeed in that field you need a lot of self-restraint. It would be hard for me to interact with patients without allowing myself to feel involved in their life a bit. Plus, I would need to solve my own issues before I could help solve someone elses. I would also need at least a Masters to do anything worthwhile. Regardless, when I return to school, (whenever that is), I'll most likely choose that major. Maybe I could find something in that field that is less demanding, like counseling.