I feel really out of it today...i need to start thinking postitive about things... i need to get my shit together this driving me crazy

haven't heard from jess she is probably at her dads right now i will call her later and see if she is okay... i am feeling
really crappy right now...hopefully i will feel better later..

god i miss you rick... i will be okay just takes time...

God I feel misserable today, I have been sick since yesterday and going over alot of stuff and regretting most of it but things happen for a reason ( Read more... )

i am alot calmer right now.... i have talked to both my sisters and they told me just to take it easy and let time heal my heart... i know i go on and on but it is my way of venting... i wish this holiday was alot better i wish for so many things in life that i know i just can't have i just have to take what i get and accept it..

it took a special young lady to make me see that being hateful doesn't help matters... all you can do is deal with the situation and understand it.... In a short time my life has changed and some for the better ( Read more... )

I wish that i had never met that asshole... he has been nothing but hell in my life... he is a user and i hope he gets used the same way he used me...if he thinks what merc did to him was bad... well i hope he gets it 3 times worse this time... he had someone who loved him unconditionally and he blew it... now he will never get another chance ( Read more... )

i tell my kids not to take shit from no one and here i am taking shit from rick believing every thing he says and to find out he has been seeing someone else the whole time he tells me he loves me and want us to work things out slowly well new flash no more.... this did i can handle anything but being lied to about this... if he was with someone ( Read more... )

strange event this morning regarding dear old dad.... he called what a miracle... feeling a bit down today won't be able to see you until after christmas sucks huh....

This a muth effing test BEE!