Your love life is not very inspiring right now, dear jeanette ! The combination of the Hermit and the Devil indicates a possessive and jealous love which expresses itself in aggressive behavior. By suffocating your partner, you're in danger of alienating them. Try to demand a bit less from the other person and a bit more from yourself - raise your ( Read more... )

arg
my kid hasn't been sleeping well the past couple nights
and I have no earthly idea of why.
I just know that I am exhausted.
Thursday is my weigh day.
last thursday I learned I had lost 5 lbs
which was amazing and wonderful
however, I'm not feeling so good about this week's weigh in
Thursday and Friday I stuck to my every day plan
friday night, I had ( Read more... )

I was officially supposed to weigh myself tomorrow
but I just couldn't wait.
2 weeks ago, I ordered some clothes offline from torrid.com
I got them, and immediately put them on
one of which, were a pair of shorts, size 16
They fit perfect.
I remember I even told my friend
"this is what the problem was...
just cuz they make clothes in your fat size doesn't ( Read more... )

Yesterday was great!
I stuck to my plan
drank only water
with the exception of 1 4 oz glass of tea
that I nursed for about four hours
lol

I feel great this morning.
And I have already continued on with the diet
planning on going for a walk today
AND I got a few workout videos offline to do as well

Calorie target: 1600 - 1800           Fat target: 51 G (17 ( Read more... )

Got my alli starter kit yesterday
and today is my first day
Really looking forward to seeing if this could be the help I've been needing
I read through all the information
and I think I can handle this
I'm damn sure determined to.

I said yesterday I Was going to start walking every day from now on
and then I will do floor exercises 3 days a week
once I  ( Read more... )

Truth be told...
my new year's resolutions
have gotten off to a pretty lousy start.
I started.
But it kind of never got up off the ground.

We have all gotten sick.
The baby and myself probably the worst of all.
So...  you tell me who feels like exercising and other such activities
when they're coughing up their lungs
and dealing with a cranky, sick baby

sigh

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I feel like such a loser 
and yet.. I feel hopeful
I don't know how many times I've told myself that I was going to get up off my lazy ass and do something about this.
I don't know how many times I've failed.
sigh
I can hope that this time will be different, right?
I think it will help if I catalogue every single thing that I do working towards it
and ( Read more... )

Here we are again.

By every great fault of my own.
This heart I have that sometimes seems to big for my chest
forgiving everything
and trying to work past it
and move on with life

No matter what either of us have done
or how hard I try
there's still something there worth working for
there's still a friendship that I miss when I least expect it

I don't know ( Read more... )

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Another night
more trouble sleeping

you would imagine that being so damn tired
I'd be able to just nod off
oh, but if it could be so easy.

I think a lot at night
that's when I do most of my worrying about things
money, bills, christmas, life in general
what's going to happen
I try to forsee the future
although I know its pretty much pointless
considering I've ( Read more... )