just some stuff I've been thinkin about...

[manda_chick123]

so....I'm slowly going crazy waiting for him to call....and simply wonderin if he's gonna call at all. I'm scared that I'll lose everything I worked so hard to teach myself about being positive in the past few months. I don't want to get hurt again, but at least I won't have to see him everyday. I want to be a worthy person. I want only the best

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[abc06]

Amanda,

you are amazing... never forget that and never change...
fyi: i think i remember mrs. erwin telling us in latin that you name actually derives from the latin word meaning love... just thought i'd throw that in too.

anyways you are truly one of the most amazing people i know. you will go so far in life. and i don't really know who this "guy" is, but if he doesn't see how amazing you are and how beautiful you are, then he's not worth your time. God will bring you to your man and i truly believe he's out there for everyone (you and me too). so don't fret over this one guy. there will be many more and each one will act as a northern star leading us to the right one. (at least thats what i like to believe). so just remember that one day you'll find your knight in shining armor and he'll be everything you've ever dreamed of and grant it that i'm still looking for mine, but we've got time and we can wait it out together.

anyways i hope this helps. love to you!

[manda_chick123]

aww, thanks alison! that makes me feel a lot better! I'm sure that I'll get over it soon. thanks for carin about me enough to take the time to write somethin that sweet! I miss ya! we need to hang out! <3

[trueloveisalie]

amanda. i love you. and he'll call, but he hasnt had time. you know what im saying. just dont stress yourself over it.

[manda_chick123]

I'll try not to! I love ya a LOT!!!

[__lindsayyy]

I think you did the right thing, and if you believe in it enough yourself something positive will come from it, whether its a bf or not. I remember going through all this with Alex. It was akward and afterwards I felt stupid because I didn't like him I just wanted him as a friends. It definately breaks down walls though. You learn that if you can trust someone enough to tell them that you have feelings for them you can tell them almost anything. Im sure even if things take a turn for the worst y'all will still be friends. Having a guy as one of your closest friends truly is amazing. You get a whole other perspective and outlook on things and you know you've always got someone to play that big brother role. There is no drama. Boys just sit, listen and let you rant then amazingly come up with the perfect words that throw all the pieces together. No beating around the bush, prettying things up, or lying to make you feel good. Its to the point and god honest. Which teaches you alot. You learn there is no point in all the sugar coating. It

[manda_chick123]

I hope I can have that kind of relationship w/him! I'm really happy for you that you found someone like alex for a friend! I love ya girl and I want ya to be able to vent to someone who will be honest w/ ya! <3