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[manda_kay_rocks]

once again your eyes make it hard to say goodbye so I'll just keep driving.that doesn't have any relevance to anything, but oh well. I wanted to say it

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[wishitwasntme]

"I'm just not excited by anything. I have absolutely no motivation for anything. no will to do anything. I pretty much just want to sit around or sleep all the time."
Dear I'm afraid you pretty much just described clinical depression. Just try to find love for the little things everyday. I started doing that and it does make a difference.

[maartensfs]

I had the same feeling. So I came to China. Best thing I ever did. Now I've been here more than a year, am basically married, have a good job, study martial arts, and enjoy the hell out of every day. And let me tell you: China is a big fucking change of scenery. At first everyone was against me, but I didn't give a fuck. Now they praise me? Anyways, it's your party and you can cry if you want to.

[manda_kay_rocks]

I give you mad props Maarten. I mean, I know I say I want to leave but I dunno if I would be happy with it.

I'm just all confused.

but I'm glad to hear that you're doing well.

[maartensfs]

Ace! I never got props before.. *Tear*

[ashleyann6]

You pretty much took the words out of my mouth. I recall posting a similar journal earlier this moth. I understand where you are coming from, as long as you understand that I love you more than anything and that if you did decide to leave, I would cry myself to sleep on a nightly basis, and wouldn't miss you very much. Im so glad that we are friends Amanda, I love you to death.

Just think, that in a few weeks you will be home for the summer, and you can see me all the time, and I mean.. you being home will do wonders for you and Joe's affair.. it will be so much easier. I can't wait to have you here all the time :-)

I hope that you start getting a little bit more excited about life and all, because saddness sucks. Talk to you later girlie.

[ashleyann6]

haha, I just realized that up there.. I wrote "wouldn't miss you very much". I hope you knew while reading that that I mean't to say WOULD miss you very much. What an idiot.. thats what exhaustion does to you I guess. :-)

[jeraboomo]

Good post... especially since you started with Finch.

[j0schm03]

agreed, I love that song.

I think summer will help things out a lot too. I had a post that was bascially the same thing a while back too. Sometimes it just seems like that would be easier, but in reality I think that once you were gone that would make things even harder. Not only for you but for all of your friends. We all love you way to much for you to leave. This summer we will all get out of Michigan and have a vacation how's that sound. A road trip would be amazing. And Ashley proves a good point, our affair will be so much easier! haha I love you Amanda.

[emptyasanocean]

apparently this is one of those common feelings. im going to california fall semester for the same reasons, because im not happy here and im so tired of michigan. i think thats just what happens when you've been in michigan too long.