well since april things have changed alot. country thunder is already in like 4 days, and bj's bf mundo just flew in this morning. i start school aug. 23rd. i started this job for DJK custom homes and i work saturdays 1030 till 530. im the only one in this model home and i just sit at a desk all day and do whatever i want. hopefully bj and mundo ( Read more... )

i can hardly believe it, but i had a really good night. i owe it all to jake.

things happen for a reason, and as painful as this is, i feel like it did happen for a reason.

so i saw matt tonight for the first time since we broke up. and tonight, i realized that i suck. of course i started crying, of course he felt like he had to comfort me, and of course almost the whole night we cuddled and i ignored the fact that we werent together anymore ( Read more... )

matt and i kinda put things on hold sunday night, he basically said that we can't have a healthy relationship unless im happy with myself, which i don't get. If im depressed then it probably isn't a good time to back away. sometimes im gonna cry, i'm not gonna know why and he's not gonna know why, i just need to get over it ( Read more... )

this week away from matt has seemed like a week from hell ( Read more... )

im bored and i really dont know what to do all week.
matt's gone, and everyone went back to school
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i need somewhere to bitch, cuz i dont really have anyone to bitch to ( Read more... )

it's only 3 and this day feels like its been going on forever ( Read more... )

so since kels and bj left my social life has gone back to being pretty boring. I go to school, i go to work and i sit around ( Read more... )

so i haven't updated in a while. school started again, but ive only gone to one class. im still working at buff, two years this week.
matt and i arent going to hawaii anymore cuz my brother is leaving before we get there so we wont be able to see him. our 5 month is in 10 days :)that came fast.
i had a really good break with everyone home yayyy.