Sometimes I just can't sleep . Sometimes im just absolutely miserable and don't know how to handle it. I was thinking about seeing a therapist but its not like they can fix anything . They can't make my mom better and as long as she's sick I will worry and worrying is what eats away at me. Its not fair , I still don't understand why it happened ( Read more... )

Before I went to bed last night I asked my guardian angel to talk to me , to give me a sign to show me anything she could. I don't pray to god because I don't understand I don't have that faith, I wish I did but its just really hard for me. I talk to my guardian angel, my spirit guide, whatever she may be. I've seen her before in my dreams. She ( Read more... )

When something lifechanging happens I guess I always come here because I can only verbally get so much out without havung a nervous breakdown. And there's only 2 people I can really talk to. And talking does me no good because I cry. And I hate telling the same story. And now the story has changed so its going to be even harder. I can't talk to ( Read more... )

I know I complain about my parents all the time and obviously I don't mean basically any of what I say. But there's last few weeks have been absolutely horrific. Finding out my mother has cancer is the most devestating and heartbreaking news I have ever gotten. I pray that everything works out for her because she does nnot deserve this. I've ( Read more... )

I can't sleep anymore , I messed up my sleeping sched the past few nights. Because I was up till 3am everynight being a huge nerd reading twilight. And I will permanently mess up my sleeping sched because I have 3 more books and then maybe by that time ill be able to look forward to the edward version, or read it on the internet. I really didn't ( Read more... )

blahblahblahblahblah im avoiding homework.
i forgot about this thing for a while
not that anything important goes on in my life
well that i share with the world anymore
fucken embryonic stem cell research can suck it i hate essays and science!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im convinced this being in love thing is making me fat . Im not conplaining bc id rather be happy than skinny . I just have to stop eating. And if my foot wasn't messed up id start running asap . Im just wicked lazy and I eat a fucken lottttt ! And the only exersize I get is work , if you call that exersize and a few other activities throughout my ( Read more... )

I can honestly say that im the happiest I've ever been and it keeps getting better. Well actually im completely absolutely miserable with my home life , everythings been going wrong . But knowing I can escape it all makes everything ok . Im sick of it and im going to be leaving soon. And im excited. I can't wait for me and pat to have our own place ( Read more... )

ive never been so happy and its so amazing its almost kinda scary. if that makes sense . everything is so different now , its like this is how everything is supposed to be. it all makes sense

im absolutely losing my mind !! and i dont know how this happened .
but its bad.
but im always smiling and its so fucken ridiculous!!