maybe i didn't write to you because i was scared
thought maybe you'd forgotten, it didn't really mean that much
maybe i just got "busy" with something else, you know how we do
maybe once the song left my head, it didn't seem so important
since you've heard it a hundred times

but i remember all the same,
and i still follow your story nearly every day,
when ( Read more... )

 the first thing i did when he said he was thinking about joining the navy was cry. then yell. then cry again. then yell.

but now i'm at the point where i'm questioning everything. like, is it a good idea? not just for him, either.

i don't believe in war. i certainly don't believe in the us military. it should be a no-brainer.

i have never interviewed for a job i haven't been offered, so now i work for k-mart. job starts in two weeks-ish. and i really can't wait. this is it--my shot at saving some money, so i don't have to sleep on someone else's loveseat, so i can get things started. and won't that be glorious? to fulfill all those plans, actually call the phone numbers ( Read more... )

i went to go trim my bangs today, like i have a million times, and elisabeth offered me use of her razor comb. i happily accepted the new piece of technology, and listened to her directions

but somehow, inches of my hair fell to the fucking floor. and now i'm fucking nearly bang-less.

and halo is more important than saying, "you'd be pretty bald, ( Read more... )

or any boys that found superbad  funny. it had decent dialogue, and pretty good character development, but the whole point of the movie was that the heavier kid wanted to get girls drunk and fuck them. and that's totally not cool.

alright, funny story...
last night paul/elisabeth/dale/me were on our way to sally's beauty suppky for hair dye. we were ( Read more... )

well, today was alright. got some things done. yummy dinner cooked by elisabeth. plans made for tomorrow and saturday. and the five of us watched lotr two towers. (idk why that one, i haven't seen any of them so why start in the middle?) the fifth being mike tonight.

and he kept looking at me like he had something to say. the kind of look that one ( Read more... )

well, i could tell you, but it wouldn't be a secret. not that i'm looking for secrets, just something to do until something better comes along. like ice cream would be nice? right. done with that one.

so if anyone knows anyone knows a publishing agent, i'm looking for one. only softcore as of yet, but i'm sure the looking will be hardcore as soon as ( Read more... )

so.

when i die, i want to fly with a poppy in my eye
and a whole shot full of happy

i wonder if you can hear an audible crash when you hit "rock bottom?"

i wish someone would call me up. because idk when everyone works or has school or that shit.

bored. depressed. lonely hahahahaha a very different set of "three words to describe yourself." fuck poise. ( Read more... )

saturday night was ripe with plans. date, concert, party, all sorts of shit. instead, after hours of struggling to get to all that stuff, i ended up sitting in the parking lot of Wendy's AGAIN. with the same people, as much as i love them. on what was supposed to be the first night of a new chapter in my life. eh. eventually we called up curly paul ( Read more... )

well, i'm done looking for jobs until after christmas. i probably could've stopped last week, but...

i thought i might have a date tonight. turns out, i don't. and it was so nice of him to call and tell me that. instead, i'm sitting here wondering how in god's name i'm going to juggle everything and pick this dick up in time. fuck it.