I feel lost. I never know which way is up or down.i am tired...yet cant sleep. I am scared my biggest fear is coming true. I am just like my dad....i dont have children to desert...but i cheated and i am horrible with money. I blame him for so much wrong for me his empty promises but honestly i am to blame for believing...i pushed him out i dont ( Read more... )

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I can't believe I have not posted on this in years....life has changed so much and I am a very different person today than I was the last time i updated this. I am not sure who even is on this anymore or anything....but life has given me ups and downs...and shown what is really out there. Scary things ( Read more... )

I am on my way to San Antonio~ I can't wait.....well in one hour I will be on my way....but woo-hoo...by 5:30ishpm I will be there!!! WOOOOOO-HOOOOO

Love you all

Amanda

So today seriously was a day...I have never really felt that stressed or sad....today I was soo emotional! I do not know why everything and anything got to me....even typing this I am sad....I have tears in my eyes....WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME ( Read more... )

Well I am updating again.....is it a sign that I really don't have a life or that I am stressed...homesick...or just the fact that I feel the urge to do so ( Read more... )

So I am updatinjg again today.....I figured why not ( Read more... )

Do you ever just wonder if you should let go? I have been holding on to something ( Read more... )

So today has been busy....things to do here...there.....and then just some other random stuff ( Read more... )

Well this morning I woke up to a loud what sounded like engine bursting through my apt. No it really wasn't busing through but it was the generator right next to my apartment. Somehow the power pole outside broke and we lost power for a few minutes till the generator kicked in and about gave me a heart-attack ( Read more... )