So I'm at a hostel in Galway. I ask myself. Why do I do this to myself over over over again. I thought this was different. I was wrong. This is the worst mess I have been in. I attached myself to someone who attaches himself to whatever the fuck is avilae so he doesn't feel alone.

Why am I angry. Cause he lead me on and made me think I was more than ( Read more... )

So. I'm sitting here in Vancouver airport. I got here early apparently and have a good hour and a half to kill.
I feel kinda nervous. I'm meeting Alex at the airport in like a day and. Wooow I feel really weird about it lol. And I knew this would happen. Well. I just have to breath in and out and let whatever will happen happen.

Vancouver was ( Read more... )

im not convinced

days that start with spiders hanging from bathroom lights that almost fall on your head leave me asking myself for the rest of the day... did I overreact?   Why do i feel like everything is going wrong ( Read more... )

maybe i just want you to see the potential in me.. and realize i need a little help / fixing. not much though.

lol im a good value for your money. you can flip me and make a good profit off me. and i come out better in the end too.
win win

I think i see the potential in others.. maybe too often

looks like after some sex and coffee I can make decisions again.

(i feel like me again)
:)

or maybe i am just ok with the uncertain now

alright here we go... and this time I'm doing it on time lol.
in no order (cause i can't remember)

• started my blog (as ive been wanting to do for a long time)
• worked march break and summer camp at AGO. that was great - along with greatest stuffing envelope job
• went to Holland to see Tamarah and Steph
• went to San Fransicso to see Ana - took a tour of ( Read more... )

this ain't real baby, i've got a better excuse for myself

i'm always here.

I just reread all my past journal (written) entries from the past 4 months.

I fucked up. I didn't speak up with fear of loosing what I had. and instead... im going to loose what i have.

Maybe one day I will know what I want... so I dont loose what I want becasue of it.

I learn slowly. I know this

I think I realized  what is bothering me ( Read more... )