Hallejulia - jal joshua ( Read more... )

so for over a year i have had a friend that i have chosen to keep close to my heart. despite her flaws and spoiled lifestyle... despite her imperfections for whatever reason i've not been willing to part with her. so... on my own end i've struggled with WHY do i endure this spoiled little brat so to speak when i have cut off so many ties off with ( Read more... )

i was outside smoking a cigarette tonight, it was about twelve-thirty in the morning and I noticed that once again the window of an apartment across from me, had the glow of a tv once again. normal little something. but- it's something i've noticed many late nights and I had a fun episode of thought process over this seemingly unimportant moment ( Read more... )

Walking into my house at eleven thirty at night... this is what you will instantly spot. Next to the door is a toddler bowl space themed.. with bits of a half eaten orange. Looking up- and seeing into the kitchen is a plate with a corn cob stripped of its corn, and two pans half filled with cheesy potatoes and black bean rice. Walking through the ( Read more... )

i am blessed. that is my overwhelming emotion right now... the feeling that goes with the knowledge of being blessed. i have a beautiful loving smart son. i have wonderful loving parents. beautiful people who are my friends... i am married to a man that has seen me at the ultimate worst disgusting pathetic side a person can be... and who not only ( Read more... )

Woke up about six times throughout the night for no good reason. Finally got up at eight and got to snuggle with Alex for a little while before heading off to work to go open the store ( Read more... )

Today out of sheer boredom, and from sitting on the bench for the bus for far too long eye-ing one of two shops, I got my eyebrows waxed for the first time. Something tells me that if I hadn't been sitting there for twenty minutes the five dollar special would have looked more like a rip off. Which it was ( Read more... )

so the prime person who inspired my last entry, who made me mad and frustrated.... is now missing, literally.... from an accident scene... and everything i feel did a 180 ( Read more... )

So I'm seeing all of these horribly unsatisfying and non gratifying cycles appear in my life concerning people I've chosen to (for lack of better terms) hold onto... despite... let downs, betrayals, what have yous... and its getting really old ( Read more... )

I miss Seth. but i am terrified when he gets out.... i expect badness. SUPER badness. but i crave his company. :( i miss my brother so much.