im thinking right now of how much i want to call randy and tell him how much i want him back, and how much i really really miss him, even though we are not talking right now, i still miss him.i wish he could just talk to me about all this so i could know how i feel, and help me understand how he is feeling, because i love him so much its so hard ( Read more... )

i am ok now even though randy he would talk to me so we could figure some things out so i wouldnt have to think about it. but whatever, he told me he slept all day. i just want him to know how bad he is hurting me, even now that he told me he would talk to me and he did not do that , i stayed at work until close becasue i just thought that maybe ( Read more... )

loseing someone is very hard to do but we just have to talke it one day at a time, i try hard to keep myself busy but when i am done and the day is over and its time for bed i think about how nice his touch was, how warming his kiss was and even after all this time when he said i love you it still melted me down. and then i miss him. i want to ( Read more... )

heart brakes are the hardest thing for a girl to get over. i feel like randy took my heart out of my chest and just threw it on the ground. and walked away. i love him so much, i want to just non-stop cry, but i dont want him to know i am hurting. i dont want him to know that i miss him. but i do so much. i just want to hear his voice,

my world just got shatterd to pices yesterday, randy broke up with me, because he thought we were to serious. imiss him so much, ilove him way to much to justlet him go. how do i deal with this, my heart aches.

why dont guys get it when a girl loves them they do love thim?// they dont want to let go unless they are like little sluts that move on to another guy. which i could not do , i dont want to have sex with anyone else buthim. hes so good at it. and i dont want to lose that with him, i know we will eventually be friends later hopefully soon but alls ( Read more... )

i finally feel like i am growing up!! i am so happy right now i feel so responsible, and finally like i have achived alot now. i have a job now with randy at cottage inn and its not as bad as i thought it was. me and randy still get along, which is great. and me and randy are doing great, hes been treating me really nice, and that makes me very ( Read more... )

i hate my home right now. i am so outraged at aleecia and my parents, aleecia ran away and when she came home barely anything happend to her she is allowed to go anywhere if she can find a ride, talk on the phone, whatever she wants. if that was me i would be straped to a bed with nothing to do. and today we were putting up a fence in the front ( Read more... )

everything has been so stressed out lately. my sister ran away and she came back last night at 10:30. and my parents are easy on her. they let her talk on the phone and she is allowed to go places if she can get a ride there. if that was me then i would be placed in my room with nothing. but whatever it doesnt matter to me. i mean i do feel bad for ( Read more... )

well for the past 3 days its been really fucked up at my house. my sister got caught stealing at a store and she ran away, its the 2nd day that she has been gone. she is staying at her ex-boyfrineds house and he wont even talk to her at all/ but i just wanted to get this on the journal because i lost mine.
amanda