Wow last few hours living in this hell hole. I can't sleep and John can't stay awake long enough to rub my back or anything. I have along day also. I don't even know how much sleep I am going to get tonight if any but i know this, I will be in my own huge ben wit no rods sticking me in the hip, but, stomache etc and I don't have to share a room ( Read more... )

Personal note: never let John have credit cards again ( Read more... )

4 MORE DAYS!!!!!!! but its not soon enough. On the good side some people quit papa johns this weekend so John is pulling more hours and we made up for the hours he missed 2 weeks ago at his full time job ( Read more... )

So this weekend was johns daughters 1st birthday party and well I am pretty pissed off about all of it. We decided to have it with Johns sisters kids and well the party was'nt till 6 at night yeah 6 at night and nobody showed up till 7. Both the girls were already in bed by then. Kaydence missed her whole party no opening presents no cake no ( Read more... )

So last week John was at work and some guy walked up to him and basically offered him a job. So he showed up to the interview and passed the drug test and got the job but then we realized to get an apartment you have to have the same job for 6 for atleaste 6 months so we went and signed our lease and we have all the money for the apartment ( Read more... )

Ever since we started staying here I have been having huge anxiety atacks and I mean big. I don't know what to do. I don't want to be here. We have nowhere else to go. We have 300 dollars saved up to get an apartment and we will have about 5 hundred next week but I want to wait till his 2nd papa johns check so we have money to get stuff for the ( Read more... )

Man life sucks even more here. Well with my step dad, IT SERIOUSLY SUCKS ASS!!!!!!! but atleaste we are starting to save money but now we have to go get our car registered and we need to get a car seat for Bailey. More good news well kinda. We don't get Johns other daughter for 3 weeks so we save gas and can save money that much faster ( Read more... )

Well we all know how critical I am and so we decided to finally get our own place. John had to get a second job though just to do so. So the great part about it is were back up here the bad and worse news is, we have to stay at Andys' (stepdad) and I have to deal with all his and my moms crap for 2-3 weeks. I hate being here in this house, but i'm ( Read more... )

Hey everybody, guess what?............ I'm getting married. Yep finally got a date and everything, next wednesday the 31st. We just had to go with it and get it over with. We have put it off and everything gets in our way and now I just don't care anymore. Although alot of people in the town I live in thinks wer'e married already haha. Even Johns' ( Read more... )

Wow I haven't written anything in along time. Life is still good and my baby is well....still a baby and the cutest I may add. John and I are still together still trying to get married, it might be in the next couple weeks ( Read more... )