I think I need a focus, I really just need something to occupy my mind with when I'm not actively using it. I spend all my time worrying about problems that usually don't even exist, and it's getting very mentally exhausting. I've been getting depressed at the drop of a hat lately, just like the good old days ( Read more... )

I have really got to learn to keep better control of my emotions. How have I not learned to do that yet ( Read more... )

Fuck. Yes.

I think being in this place constantly is officially killing me.

The rain and wind outside are begging me to do more with my life.

Soon, rain and wind.

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First and foremost, it really is all about attitude, attitude, attitude ( Read more... )

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You know, I really don't know what's wrong with me, that I can't just let a friendship rest in peace when it's obviously dead. I just thought there was sincerity where there clearly wasn't, and I've been holding my goddamn breath for two months just hoping I'll get some kind of acknowledgment, but it looks like the other party here is completely ( Read more... )

I have been in such a bloody awful, awful mood lately. I wanted to actually write an entry but I can never really think of anything substantial. I guess I knew this would happen, since I was feeling so good for most of the year ( Read more... )

So today is the day ( Read more... )

The summer is over. I hate that. Such a pointless thing to allow myself to be bothered by since there's absolutely nothing I can do about it.

( unrelated rant about rumors )