i feel so sickly. breathing kind of hurts. i have to miss the banquet tonight. i hate school so much. mr. tortaricci is in my house everyday making the house better. he scares me a little.

someday i'll fly away
leave all this to yesterday
why live life from dream to dream
and dread the day that dreaming ends

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okay. i have a home again. kinda. well, we're still not allowed to go through the kitchen, and we have to go out the front door to the backyard and on the porch to get into this room, and the smell of varnish is really really powerful... yeah that's all. i stayed with the connellys' all weekend. hmmm this weekend.... didn't really realize so many ( Read more... )

i found scented mr. scetch markers in the math room so i took them. the make me want to chew something.

so our house can barely count as a house right now. we don't have a kitchen. nor ceilings and carpeting in most areas. the rest of the rooms are completely obstructed with furniture and shit. i'm not allowed to come home tomorrow because they're ( Read more... )

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the retreat was really awesome. really... emotional and just awesome. i'm so not a religious person, but i don't know. it wasn't even about religion really though. it was just, i don't know. we all like came together. everone. like our whole grade, and with the letters they gave us from our family, i don't know... that made some people feel like ( Read more... )

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claiken was delightful. i took a pic of an annoying redhead.

i really want a leash for myself. like a child leash. that you see kids on at amusement parks. yeah i want one.

i don't have anything more to say, except people don't leave me comments anymore. i get bored.

AHH ME AND MEREDITH ARE GOING TO THE CLAY AIKEN CONCERT ON MONDAY. with caitlin. and courtney. and mrs. enright. and my mom. and a couple other moms. oh mano banano. mrs. enright told me she would throw  her bra onstage. awesome?? haha i am SO showing up to school the next day with an "I LOVE CLAY" shirt. we're taking a party van there courtesy of ( Read more... )

today was a half day. katya wasn't here again. she didn't answer my text either. sighh....

we had a nooknic. it was muddy and rainy outside so we picnic-ed inside... in the nook. over 5 people stopped to ask us if we ever left the nook. we had sleeping bags and everything. i ate so much. it rooledZzzZZzZ.

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Slice it open, salt the wounds

As water falls a thousand

Drops drip down

They melt it away they burn me away

I’m not here

Do you see it? Do you see ME?

Just leave.

NO, NO, NO! I was

Contemplating leaving it all

Behind

Discover some fading truth

In the death ridden dreams

I didn’t ask for this.

If I had known I would have

Stopped it before

My ( Read more... )