during my crazy anxiety! today i shouldfind out how i did on my test. trying not to think about it. besides i have a quiz to study for. insomnia is running rampent lately. i can fall asleep but about every couple of night i wake up at 1am for no reason, am up till 2:30, then wake up between 4 and 4:30am. very frustrating. but then on other nights i ( Read more... )

think i did pretty good on my test. so that worked out. not sure if i got an A or not but i'm getting a 95% in the class so that's a bonus ( Read more... )

thunderstorm woke me up at 1:00am and i couldn't fall back asleep till 2:30, then i got up at 4am. went to bed around 9:30-10pm or so. running on nerves and 2 cups of coffee. got to get ready for this damnable test. so freaked out and feeling very unprepared. i think i knowit but i didn't study as much as i should have so i'm feelingless than ( Read more... )

stressed about my test and of course i can't turn to anyone to talk to. everyone dismisses me saying i'll do fine and it's not a big deal. so here i sit. anxious nervous with no place to turn. per usual. my  dad mocked me, saying my teacher didn't give me enough to study. gee thanks for the understanding. my mom is a bit better, at least she ( Read more... )

... but very unpreductive. the good news is i had fun and never got depressed so that was cool. the bad news is i didn't get any studying done so i have a LOT to do today. and i mean a TON! studid anatomy test. anyways ( Read more... )

feeling much better emotionally, finally!

haven't gotten much of anything done today but i've been in a good mood so i'm considering that a win :)
managed to schedule classes for winter and should be able to get one class waived since i've basicaly taken it. have two proficiency (math and algebra) tests to take before the end of november. nervous ( Read more... )

still feeling a bit crazed. it comes and goes. seems like there just isn't enough time to get everything done that i want to. just never enough fucking time. too many people and obligations. and i just get so tired of acting like everything is fine and i'm not stressed out and that they aren't the ones stressing me out. i just feel like i have no ( Read more... )

rapis cycling a bit. hypomanic mornings and depressed evenings with some anxiety thrown in for fun. hate the seasons changing. i always seem to go a bit 'off' between spring and summer and summer to fall. i have a daylight but it doesn't seem to be working very well. even with the ambien and klonopin and topomax at night i still wake up 2-5 times a ( Read more... )

head is kinda buzzing and i want to do a lot but mainly i want to takl to people but they're all at work. trying to decide what to do but it;s all kind of a blur. thinking about exercsing but i think i'll get bored. i keep starting stuf and not finishing it. but i feel very good. better than i have in a very long time and i wish i couldjust feel ( Read more... )

think i'm going to fail my bio quiz today. not too happy about that. got hit with a migraine last night and i was down for the count. plus it was a generally depressing day with a little drama sprinkled in. basically i have no control over my life or any decisions about it so i have to come to terms with that. should be used to it but the latest ( Read more... )