This one Is such a not me journal entry but I am hoping to get all this shit off of my chest, before I go crazy!! I have no idea If this hormone rage is from the pills I am taking or just being the age that I am but I never feel quite like this!I really love the itallian, I mean there is no one quite like him but right now I just want to *%&$ him, ( Read more... )

Well I am grown up now. It feels like that one ceremony changed me. I am definately feeling a lot different. Although I'm a little sad about leaving people my friends are keeping in touch with me,so basically I have nothing to worry about. I have money right now and I wont have any really big bills because I'm going to be living in the dorms. So I ( Read more... )

I guess My drama does kinda fend people off, I genuinely thought I was becoming a better person, but I suppose I am not any better than I was before. Trying and not trying, being and not being have all driven me here, and who can I talk to? no one, why? because all I have is my strength my appearance of being solid inside and out, and even then, I ( Read more... )

I hung out will Jim today, it has been over a year since I had last seen him. It was nice to go out and do something. I felt like it was a wate of time. Whit and him seemed entertained. We even went to a tatoo/body art place, it is new in town. It was fun. I'm still feeling down. Kinda bored and apathetic towards everyone and everything. Vinny ( Read more... )

When asking friends If I will ever see them again what is their response? doutful, I guess so, probably not. Ok, so that would lead me to believe they don't really give a darn right? Well then why spend so much time with me? The person in particular that concerns me I sorta understand, but just 2 weeks ago he would have said of course and gotten ( Read more... )

Well I am leaving home soon, being forced to grow up. Mostly I am going to miss people. I know I will make new friends,and I guess in a way I'm not even really attached to them anyways. I mean, I guess I have fun with them, don't get me wrong, it's just I don't think I have had any really close friends in a while ( Read more... )