my body is filling with depression. i cant feel anything anymore. just the pain that pumps through my system. i need something to kill the memories that are inside my head. i need alcohol. i want someone who understands. i need a new place to stay. a new person to be. a new fucking life. im tired of this bi-polar depressed stage that i am stuck in ( Read more... )

i was laying in the grass outside of faiths yard and i was staring at the sky. faith was in gregs car being a whore. and i was staring at a start thinking i wish that was a bullet flying at my heart. tonight is the first time ive ever wanted to die. honestly im really concidering moving so that i dont have to put up with her shit anymore. im not ( Read more... )

im pretty druank if y9u cant =tell i dra k like 3 bud lights 2 boones barns 5 smirnoffs some perpermeiant schnapps and im durnks as fucak if you annt tell. i threw up aouth 6 times. and i left 2 wssages on mouses p hone and 1 on tomie yetates phone . i emat some cool new people . ones name is cisco he gave me ciggerettes. brad was making out with ( Read more... )

well lets see megan wants to come over so i got her a ride and i call over there to tell her and shes still asleep damn lol o well. i cant wait for sunday Bright eyes<3 i almost got caught in a storm last night. i was about to do my nightly walk around the block and it started thundering and shit so i came inside and when i got inside it started ( Read more... )

i did absolutely nothing exept cleaned teh computer room today. i sat here in this chair where i talk to people and listened to music all day. mainly bright eyes. speaking of hopefully i get to go to their concert sunday cuz if i dont then imma slay someone and i dont wanna have to slay anybody. i ate with my mom got my fix of lasagna mmmmmmmmm it ( Read more... )

Ive been soaking in this depression for to long i think its getting to me. ive gone through a phase where i didnt like depression i dunno for the past couple months or so, but now i am finnaly me again. the depression she causes is greatly appreciated. ive been waiting months no phone call just dead silence exept for the bright eyes playing in the ( Read more... )

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what do you want from me? do you want tears? cuz ive shed plenty. do you want rage? cuz i can show you rage. do you want my death cuz that would be releif. i know this is against what most of you think but i am not out for sex infact i would rather be with someone that didnt want sex. it ruins shit then you get dependant on it then all there is in ( Read more... )

i found out that all andrea told me was lies. bullshit. im trying to get over her but its fucking hard as shiat. i still love her but i shouldnt. im trying to get over her and all its doing is making me more depressed. IF I WAS GOING TO FUCK ANYBODY ELSE IT WOULDNT FEEL RIGHT. i would be thinking about andrea the whole time and i have to much ( Read more... )

i heard some rumors about her i waunder if they are true. if they are i dont care im still behind her 100% and i do still love her with all my heart. no matter what she does she will always be in my heart. even if the rumor is true i still love her. i would do anything just to see her again. im beginning to think that she is just the picture that i ( Read more... )