so i am working my ass off on these college essays so i can go to New York...its strange punk music helps me write...i need a ciggy and stuff but yeah no way i am going out to buy um right now. i think a hot bath and more pennywise will do the trick. or maybe talk to jason or merissa.
PENNYWISE LYRICS

"Fuck Authority"

Someday you gotta find another ( Read more... )

last night everything was off from my timing to the fact it was 4 years since my step dad died and i just wasing exactly rocking in the happiness. jason tried to cheer me up...target...yay halloween...alchol.. in the end i just fell sleep about 3 hours before he did. i was kind of a bitch to him to. sometimes i cant figure out how much love is ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is friday. I havent been feeling to awesome. Its like i started up this thing again and i was happy as i could be...but i need more attention. i know its a lot to ask for but i am me. and i think i deserve it. maybe tomorrow night will change things around? if not then its time to worry. i just wonder why some people want to give me ( Read more... )

Is it possible to know that life will never be the same? I am laughing all over. Its not weird laughter its oh fucking god please please please dont let this happiness go away. if it does i might not be able to stand it this time.  I dont think i have felt so happy in months.

So yesterday was interesting. I saw jason again. I gotta say its hard to tell if there ever was a time i didnt love him. All i know is i thought i would never see him again and i am glad i was wrong. i havent heard from him today but there is still time left. i got new jeans and boots today. i <3 my jeans. well i am going to go make soup.

Do you remember when life seemed so simple, and i thought it was hell. Now i look back and see my glory days. When i was more punk rock then hot topic. When i was more inlove then a newly married couple. I had dreams. I wrote um down once but now it seems everything i wrote fell to pieces. My love life my friendships...its a curse i was once told. ( Read more... )

i was going to write all of this stuff that means a whole bunch but i am too tired. to beat. and emotional. i always think its weird when people cry in the car (yes i do it) today was no exception. driving home from school blasting the postal service and death cab for cutie and bawling my eyes out. to much has built up. i am just glad i fixed the ( Read more... )

tonight while taking a bath and trying to figure out what the hell i was feeling i came upon this...so i prayed ( Read more... )

not much happened this weekend. friday went bowling with doug,mike,merissa,heather,tom,and bargo...it was cool i guess...i got hot co co then hung out with adam cuz i wasnt tired and yeah he was the only one up...

saturday slept most of the day...then went to royal oak with cait ...i bought ass shorts for clubbing and my sexy biker outfit...went to ( Read more... )

today cait and i are gonna hang out once she is done shopping with her faja at like probably 9. i have no clue what to do...probably bowling...cuz that what we do here in plymouth/livonia ( Read more... )