I'm sad yet one more day. I'm starting to think it'll never end. My parents are taking me to see another shrink. I flew off the handle real good last night and they thought i was on drugs or some shit and my mom kept saying that she was going to take me to the hospital. I wouldn't go though, i'm still here. I stayed be myself most of the day. It ( Read more... )

well today wasn't a bad day. But it wasn't a good day either. I was all by myself for the better part of the day, but after a while it got to me. I just feel so lonely. Like I could choke on the silence. It's not a very good feeling. I just sat there for a bit, and than I couldn't stop crying. I stopped now, but it was very strange all the same. ( Read more... )

i swear that i can go on forever, again ( Read more... )

Today was/is one of those days. You wake up feeling like shit, you feel like shit all day, and than you fall asleep feeling like shit. I don't know what the hell it is, but I just want to be left alone, but when i am alone, i'm so lonely. It's the pits, it really is. When i leave for my trip i'll be so much better off. It's an indescribable feeling ( Read more... )

I hate it when somebody comes through the front door and starts yelling before they even say hi.It's bullshit... Oh well. I went to the DMV and i passed my driving test but i didn't get to get my license. In fact, I won't be able to get it for another month. After I get home from Michigan. This makes me sa. I probably won't get to see Mike until ( Read more... )

I just got home from the movies... it was really good. Not much really has happened. I went and learned how to do a three- point turn. I got it on my first try. It was much easier than i thought. I'm going to take my road test tomorrow. I'm starting to get a bit nervous.If I don't pass i'm going to be so sad. I'm looking forword to the freedom. And ( Read more... )

Today was a pretty shitty day. My brothers were being such assholes. Like everyday i have to get up in the morning and clean. Well today was no differant but i was told I had to muck out my room too and get rid of all my old clothes and stuff like that, so on top of my having to clean the house i had to do my room too. So i get the living room all ( Read more... )

It is almost midnight, than I will officially be ungrounded from the computer and not have to sneak on here anymore. My parents decided that I could have my computer back in my room now. That makes me happy. So I can sit in here on the internet as late as I want without them bothering me. That makes me happy too. Usually they would come in the ( Read more... )

Today this stupid girl Heather called and told me shit I really didn't want to hear. She calls to tell me that on thursday at OVMS she sees Mike making out with some other girl. I knew it wasn't true, but for my own piece of mind I had to call him and ask him for myself. He only confirmed that he wasn't making out with some girl, but somehow that ( Read more... )

Wow...looking at my past few entries i sound really stupid and trite. Thats not so bad though. It was a pretty rough few days between my parents and hope, thats enough to make even the strongest person break. Honest to God. I don't think i'll ever ask hope to stay w/ me again. It's been alright, but it's no picnic in the park either. I get to get ( Read more... )