okay, so here I am again.... lol seems like its years between posts, and it almost is. I have calmed down it seems tho, I think that I just really only post when I'm pissed or upset because I don't wanna freak out on anyone ( Read more... )

I feel like a complete ass. I feel like I have been doing most of the childcare in our family and when I say something to my husband, I get a total attitude... idk guess its me. Im worried about going back to work... I'm worried about leaving her with anyone... even hubby. He just doesnt seem to know her or care as well as I do. But I suppose ( Read more... )

Okay, so its official... I hate my mother-in-law. She gives my husband GUILT trips because we have plans and his half-brother is moving.... whaa!! so, whats he do? Goes to help for a few hours... WHAT the FUCK ever!!!! Forget the fact that they NEVER call here unless they want something... forget the fact that yesterday was my frigging ( Read more... )

omg... i am so friggin annoyed!!! baby is making me nutso!!! SCREAMS like someone is killing her; only thing that stops her is a bottle... seems likes shes eating CONSTANTLY!!!! I feel like a HORRIBLE person and mother. arrgghhh!! idk Sam is terrific... doesn't seem bothered by Lauren's behavior and certainly seems empathetic toward mine ( Read more... )

I had a baby girl on July 10th... Emergency C-Section... my Blood Pressure was EXTREMELY high... (still elevated to this day ( Read more... )

Well, I worked tonite... Have to work in the am... don't want to...... just don't. nuthing bad.. No real reason... just tired. Tired of working. BUT, with the stinking gas prices... i HAVE to work lol who doesnt?

Sad to hear about the devastation down south... can't do much about it from here tho....

This is my first (and possibly last) entry into this journal... Its been a rough time at work... tired of playing the "game" just want to be left alone. People are much too fickle.