I hung out with G-off today for like 45 minutes, before his softball game. That was nice. On the way hom when we were pulling up to my house my neighbor was mowing his lawn. His house was right next to ours and for one small second I thought it was my brother Chris mowing our lawn. And then my heart sank as I remembered he was dead. I hate it when ( Read more... )

Today fuckin' sucks. Today is the one year death anniversary of my friend Jill's brother. This is so hard. I've been re-living my brother's death for this past year. I feel so bad for their family. It's so hard to have to watch them live something I've already lived. I remember when Joe first died. All I could think of how hard it was gonna be for ( Read more... )

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Yesterday I went to meet with my surgeon, Dr. Wahoff, or as everybody in the hospital calls him "Dr. Way Hot." I have to admit he was pretty cute. I asked him about my belly ring and I get to keep it in. Well, sorta. I have to take it out during the surgery, but he said he'd put it back in for me after he sews me back up. So, that's good. He said ( Read more... )

I had a good day yesterday. I hung out during the day with my brother Tim, then I went out with Ryan after dinner. We went to the school play. It was by far the worst play I've ever seen in my entire life. Plus, it was 3 hours long. The actors really need to stop adding lame lines to the play that aren't even funny. Then, Chris (ex bf) was there ( Read more... )

I hate the weather this week, it makes me feel like shit and that's no good. Hopefully it will start getting nicer out. Yesterday, I hung out with Ryan. That was way fun. We watched a movie, hung out and then watched the greatest show ever to be created...Family Guy. Good times, good times... I'm not really sure what I'm up to this weekend. Tonight ( Read more... )

Friday after school I didn't do a whole lot. I basically just chilled with Tim all night. Saturday I worked at noon till 3. Got a nice easy $25. I love that. After work I chilled with G-off for a bit. Then I hung out with Tim again for a while. Later that evening while I was chillin with Tim Ryan called. We hung out last night and that was fun. Go ( Read more... )

Yesterday we had a bomb threat. We got to miss all of 2nd hour. They didn't find anything. Then, at lunch somebody wrote, "I had a gun the whole time you fuckin idiots..." and then it said something else but I forgot. My friend has a pic of it on his phone. Too weird ( Read more... )

These last few days have been really shitty. I wish things would just smooth over for a little while. I haven't taken my meds for a while. Bad idea. I just need to take them consistently for about another month and then I should start feeling better. Why do I always do that? It's not like I do it on purpose, it just happens. I hate feeling this ( Read more... )

Today would be my brother Chris' 34th birthday if he were alive. Yesterday my mom cooked his favorite meal. It's some sort of taco-ish hot dish thing. Either way I don't like it, never have. I can't belive it's almost been 4 years since I've seen him. That is just too unreal for me. Ever since he died I've had a dead look in my eyes. It won't go ( Read more... )